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PokerStars Tournament #449125307, No Limit Hold'em
Buy-In: $3.00/$0.30 USD
650 players
Total Prize Pool: $11022.00 USD
Tournament started 2011/10/07 17:45:00 ACST [2011/10/07 3:15:00 ET]


Dear NeverWasBeen,

You finished the tournament in 1st place. A USD 1,877.17 award has been credited to your Real Money account.

You earned 385.46 tournament leader points in this tournament. For information about our tournament leader board, see our web site at http://www.pokerstars.com/poker/tour.../leader-board/



Congratulations!

Thank you for participating.



- and have done perhaps the wisest thing possible.... self-excluded for 24 hours while I figure out a way to not degen it away

Nice one mate awesome score!

nice score buddy you withdrawing most of it?

GG nwb, it looks like your new found faith is paying off my friend.

Thanks guys. This is officially my biggest score yet Final table was crazy, top 3 were all Aussies haha.

lol, sharkscope reckons I'm a shark:



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I resetted my stats a while back to, y'know, pretend that all that bad stuff wasn't happening.... Just tried to remove the reset and I ended up resetting it again... ah well, need to send SS $0.03 before I can remove the reset apparantly, and can't do it while I'm self excluded, but I think it's safe to say that when I do I'll no longer have that little shark icon next to my name :P

I now have just over 2k to work with, which is considerably more than I'd expected to have in my possession. I have enough money irl to cover all immediate bills and necessities, so it can pretty much all be my shiny new BR. Does anyone know if there is a cheaper way to get pokertracker? PM me or whatever.

Will this be a new chapter for this degen? Can he play with BRM and prove himself and everyone else wrong? I sure hope so. Right now I have 12 hours left on my ban, so I think I might actually set foot outside haha... it's been a while.

self exclude for 7 more days imo

But then I couldn't play the 30k guarantee tonight!!!

Currently at the Adelaide Casino if any Adelaide punters are keen

(NO DRINKING!!!)

in before drinking/busto/blackout/DUI

Set limits so you can only play low stakes, that way it will take you longer to lose it all

Up two hundred for the night, calling it quits. Hanging with my brother, like blood styles

Congrats on the score...We've said it a thousand times but BRM is the only way you are not going bust again. However, you're a grown azz man and get to make your own decisions, the good and the bad.

This is not as feature rich as poker tracker, but has most of the important features. Plus, you can't beat the price. Free Poker Database
http://****************/apps/mediawik...itle=Main_Page

Have you been saving your hand histories? If not set up stars to save them ASAP.

Sorry to disappoint amigo, crisis averted

Thanks for the vote of confidence

WestSide my brother from another mother! I was reading back through this thread a little while ago and your posts made me smile

Good to hear from you man. My limits are currently set at .05/.10, so I should be reasonably safe. Then again, there's plenty of evidence to the contrary. I'll try not to disappoint! I have plans of raising my limits to .10/.25 but there's no rush. How have you been finding life post Black Friday?

Thanks for that link, I'm downloading it now. With any luck I'll be able to work out how to use it.

Horrible story

"Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again, but life goes on. "

Care to join betraiser again?

10 days in the life of a degen:

Day 1: Busto. The default setting. If only I could just get one decent score and get the ball rolling again....

Day 2: 4 weeks without booze, tax return has arrived, I feel good, let's deposit $50. Take second place in a $20 rebuy, win $680. Time to celebrate, let's get a bottle of whiskey.

Day 3: Wake up in hell. Play 12 MTT's with the worst hangover of my life, bust all, -$200. Snap out of it, take a shot at the $30K PLO Saturday, play my A game and am chipleader within first hour. Maintain lead, buzzing hard on the possibility of a big ass payday. Lose 98% of my stack when I get it in with K1096 on a 566 board, villain has wrap and hits. Have to take a raincheck on that dream.

Day 4: Play 2 MTT's, -$50

Day 5: Play 6 MTT's, -$100

Day 6 Play 1 MTT, -$10. Am crushed that I've wiped out 75% of my BR from lack of BRM, depressed, familiar feeling.

Day 7: Play 6 MTT's. Take 1st place in $11 rebuy for $471. Feel a little better.

Day 8: Play 5 MTT's, -$150 and then BOOM - 1st out of 650 in a $3 rebuy, $1,877

Day 9: Go to Casino, feel invincible, win $200, now it's time to REALLY celebrate. Drinks on me, jagerbombs, doubles, blackout.

Day 10: Wake up in car, am truly grateful that I didn't drive. Head home, still drunk, enter a $20 rebuy, absolutely crush, become massive chipleader, annihilate, scream abuse at my monitor, spit flying everywhere, repeatedly refer to myself as the boss, make it to final table, lose a few flips, lose my huge lead, get to final four, all have even stacks, hangover is truly setting in now, fatigue and exhaustion, decide a deal is the best thing as my swift departure is surely imminent, chop 4 ways for $725. Too hungover, madness, insanity, shard stabbing stomach pain, hammerheart, vision distorting with each pulse, voices, ride bike into town, 40 minutes and 14 km's, get to casino, panic as I realize I've forgotten the key to my bike lock and thus cannot enter. Envision that scene from The Lost Weekend. Desperation, sweating, racking brains, no shops open, no way to get a new lock, refuse to give up, I must be able to play, there HAS to be a solution. YES!!! Remember I keep a spare key hidden in my bike, SHIP IT!!! Enter casino, sit at 2/2. Play like a fish, mental state is shot, lose $200, buy back in, lose a huge pot and am left with $27. Engage Jedi mode, run that ****ing $27 back to $400. Consider leaving. Nah. Card dead for 120 minutes. Jedi mode de-activated, Fish mode resumed, lose it all almost on purpose, get up, walk out, ride home, 40 minutes and 14 km's.

Wisdom to be gleamed from this:

- Bankroll has gone from $0 to $2,750 in one week
- Bankroll will go from $2,750 to $0 if I don't finally once and for all ****ing use BRM
- Relapses are -ev
- [x] Understands that if he doesn't get back on the road to sobriety he will surely die

I want very badly to be free from being an alcoholic and a degen, but in the meantime I may as well document the action for all you happy people out there.

Thanks for listening

It's 4am, I need sleep

I like reading your posts, because it makes me think: wow i've never been that far out, but at the same time it's kinda sad and evil to think like that.

You obv ignored mine and others post before but because I like reading this thread I will give it another meaningless swing , You write that if you don't stop drinking you will surely die. I agree, and I think it will come much faster than you expect. You should both stop drinking and gambling, but thats not going to happen, so start with the drinking which is the most unhealty.

*yawn* Ask to be banned, it feels like you take pride in your stories.

[x] Does not understand that if he doesn't get back on the road to sobriety he will surely kill someone else

By meaningless do you mean like your post is?

NWB, why do you have to binge drink? can you seriously not control blacking out everytime you have a sip?

This. Sorry mate but it seems that you have 0 discipline and you almost enjoying ruining yourself so you can update this thread.

It's therapeutic to write about it, and it gives me some perspective and clarity to what is blurry. My memory is not always able to serve me, writing gives me a frame of reference for events, times, dates etc

man clearly you have an addictive personality only way you wont go broke is if someone that isnt afraid to say no to you handles your cash flow