OP I rarely ever will post, but this thread is too good! Love it!

Good luck with the bankroll management - I hope you find a way to get your **** together buddeh.

I agree with earlier comments that you tell a great story. You seem disfunctional, twisted and messed up enough to make it as a writer - I have a good friend who is an aspiring writer and he lives by the Hunter S. Thompson quote which I think perfectly describes you and this thread.

"If you're going to be crazy, you have to get paid for it or else you're going to be locked up. "

All the best.

here's a site that might keep you entertained for hours and hours...it has me.

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/owlceanside

Very cool !!!

Thx for posting.

I've been chatting with NeverWasBeen in private message because I was banned...

Finally get to comment on this thread!!!

Very generous of everyone to ship money to OP... this is definitely the best thread in BBV.. and I sympathize with losing your entire roll.. not fun when it happens..

I am concerned about the experimental drugs though... this stuff sounds dangerous, and its not worth money to ruin your body and health..

Your body is a temple!

Anyhow, I guess get through the final 8 days of the experiment, but please never be a human guinea pig again!!!

JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS!!!

This message brought to you by RB..

NWB, Do the exact opposite of what raging bull just told you to do.



Though I do like his sexy new avatar.

Honestly every day where you practice good BR management/play in games you beat is good...any day which you do not is bad...I'd worry about that much much more than actual poker results.

your welcome! i leave it up on my laptop all day.

just caught up w/ thread, good stuff. been stated before but OP u definitely have good writing skills w/ a bit of quirkiness and you get your thoughts across in a easy-to-get/enjoyable way imo. this is not easy and not always something that can be "learned", rather more a natural/inherent talent. might be something u wanna pursue.

GL w/ everything

All good man, I put you on a bad beat, or maybe a recent bubble. I know the pain.

Hey man, glad you're liking it! Also makes me happy to see so many people that rarely post giving the time to put something in here. I lurked for a while before making an account and posting in the degen stories thread.

BRM is proving to be stupidly difficult. So for now I'm just putting all poker playing on hold while I read/watch vids etc. and try get my head into the right place.

Haha, that's a great quote. Hunter S. Thompson was awesome. Fear and Loathing is incredible, and pretty much everything he's written made an impact on me. How could it be any other way? His bravery and genius in a world this crazy is nothing short of inspirational. It would have been something to have been friends with the guy, my guess is you couldn't have gone away unchanged. He was also called a degenerate by the establishment

Wow neat, thanks man

Heyy good to have ya back RB. Were you granted amnesty?

Yeah man, except I didn't just lose my roll, I lost everything I had. Piece by piece. Shot by shot. First my roll, then my savings, then whatever I could sell, my car, my guitar amp, my old collectible video games, movies, albums, clothes. You name it. It was a really f*cked up time. There was a lot of other things going on that definately contributed, but in the end nothing could facilitate the destruction as swiftly as poker. I still can't believe how bad that time was. I'm NOT making a repeat of that no matter WHAT.

I know what your saying regarding 'body is a temple'. When I get out it's gonna be bike riding and a healthy diet and sunlight and fresh air. I cannot wait. This drug trial, depsite sounding horrible was pretty much mandatory as soon as I heard about it, there was no other way to pull myself out, and that's the truth. If I wasn't in here I'd probably be locked up in a worse place.

Enjoy your freedom RB, 8 days left for me.

I've found myself reading and re-reading the many posts that describe this simple logic, and I'm glad that I have them to refer back to whenever I want. It is fact that the only way for me to learn this is repetition, repetition, repetition, to get it into my stubborn head.

Thanks man. I used to write a lot. I used to write stories. I used to awaken with an awesome hangover and write thousands of words that flooded from my mind. I had a lot of friends and I would write blogs on Myspace and had lots of subscribers and people were moved and inspired. But in the last 5 years things changed and there hasn't really been any motivation to write. The amazing thing is that this thread and the anonymity of these forums have given me back that feeling. It's just great to have people like what I write!

Just received news that tonight, in about two and a half hours, we once again have to swallow the dreaded "string pill". For those that didn't read about it back in the beginning, here's a link: <a href="http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/showpost.php?p=24468116&postcount=19</a>. It's very unpleasant having a metre and a half of cord yanked from the depths of your stomach up through your oesophagus. But that's precisely how I'll be celebrating my 26th birthday tomorrow morning. In fact, the cord will be being yanked forth from my gullet around the EXACT time that I was born! What a way to celebrate one's birthday. Maybe I'll gurgle and splutter my way through a choked rendition of "Happy birthday to me" while vomiting bile on my tormentors. It's been nice knowing you all.

lol bad beat dude hang in there, how long to go now? sorry uve prob said already but i have only checked every few days so mustve missed it

Guilt a cute nurse into letting you take a picture of the string pill after it gets pulled back out of you. Birthday guilt, she's gotta let you get some memento, yea?

Happy birthday man. We know where you're spending this one, but where do you see yourself next year?

I really don't have like any pure clear desire to witness any of that whole procedure tbh

how random, im doing pretty much the same thing, im on day 6 of 17, its such a drag, especially when you dont have a roll lol

Happy birthday big boy, go out there and crush some souls. Gl with the ol stringer as well mate

sucks to be you on your birthday doing that, in more local news, i just had 4 seperate needles in me to try and get 2ml of blood, at 7:30 am fml lol

LOL the ol' stringer!


ur bday is close to mine [22nd], but my word thats a brutal bday celebration - just think of the 8k in ur hands the whole time

Hey I'm doing the same thing as op, send me money. but ya. seems like for alot of people on this board this would be the perfect job, getting paid to grind all day.

fyp

Well im actually doing a trial now, so if anyone feels generous ...

LOL


this thread is getting better and better by the moment

glad i can help, any photo requests? there are no hot nurses so dont bother asking

Day 35 I think... Today has been bad. I've been real sick and haven't been able to use my computer. I was woken up at 6am after a mere 3 hours sleep to be shown pictures of food and was forced to eat a piece of cheese, something about encouraging bile production... an hour later a nurse pulled that cord up from my stomach and I puked cheese bile over myself... Happy Birthday to me. Manage to crash out, am woken up again an hour later to take the study drugs. Pass out, am woken up again to have all vitals, bloods etc. Get up, feel like ****, discover that the weekend staff have left the door to the bike room unlocked, figure I can't miss out on this rare opportunity, and ride 22.5km's at high resistance. Afterwards I start feeling dizzy and nauseous and I crawl back into bed, where I've been for the past 10 hours shivering and sweating. I've had to downplay it or the nurses will know I was using the bike, not that I fear consequences, but I would prefer to avoid any further diligence in regards to them making sure that the bike room door is always locked. My pillow is soaked with sweat and I feel like sh*t, I'm starting to worry about these drugs as I feel like my body is telling me something with all of this. Tomorrow is an intensive day as well, which means being woken up at 6am, having a cannula inserted, telemetry, halter moniter, spirometry, ecg's, no food until evening, pissing in cups, no getting out of bed, no sleep... I'm just going to be glad when it's over because I am starting to go crazy being in this place with all this sh*t going on all the time. I have no concept of days or time and I don't want to come out of this place like some nocturnal maniac with 8k and track marks on my arms and skin all pale from lack of sun or fresh air. Just before in my fitful rest that never really broke that threshold of sleep, I kept seeing all these posts on my thread and pm's and poker hands and felt like I was there forever but I kept looking at the clock and seeing it had only advanced a few minutes each time. I'm f*cking over this. One week to go.

Gonna be an amazing feeling when you are free, gl man good read, it's been hard to keep up with this thread.

Dude that yellow coiled mass that was removed from my guts is not something you want to see. It was so disgusting. And it's a horrid sensation having it pulled out of your mouth... I don't think I could ever go fishing again.

A year from now, I don't know. A year further from this mess, for a start. A year healthier, a year happier, a year smarter.

Thanks mate.

Need a cannula bro.

Can people please not beg in my thread. Do it somewhere else.

Thanks for that bro.

Thanks man, glad you've been enjoying it. I can't wait for it to be over.

my bad, i didnt realise that it looked like i was begging for money, my bad mods. Yeah bro, i have a cannula in right now, but it took like 4 tries to get it working.