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Originally Posted by gobbledygeek
So you think poker is your only option going forward?
Even though there are obvious depression issues (hope you're getting help for that and good luck to you, seriously), it seems pretty obvious from where I sit (as some idiot on a message board that doesn't know you at all) that poker ain't helping you in this regards (and could be a large cause of the pain).
Any thoughts of stepping out and at least trying something completely different income-wise, if only as a side job for now to see how it feels? You might feel different working in a completely different environment and perhaps even a little more fulfilled. Or not. But isn't it worth a shot?
(Regarding "running like this", I kinda go back to what Feely said and it's all about reciprocality: was anyone really making that much of a mistake in any of these hands? Are you thinking you're not on the good side of the cooler your fair share of the time / for your fair share of the money? If "this is the state of games in 2020" then I don't see why you think pursuing them is going to be terribly profitable (and at what mental expense)? But that's really all just an aside.)
GgoodluckG
I don't plan on playing full-time forever, but I need to have more money before pursuing other ventures. I've never been properly employed to do anything and suspect that I'm not fit to do a lot of things.
Poker isn't unbeatable right now, I've just been running far below average for most of the last 2 years and it's hard to motivate myself to put in more hours so I can hopefully even out the variance a bit.
The main difference between current games and games 5 years ago was that 5 years ago I was on the ground-floor of playing GTO-based math-heavy strategies against other pros who were pretty terrible at poker and had a huge edge over everybody. 90%+ of those pros are not playing these days and the pros you see at $5/10 and higher today are mostly fairly good at poker so I know my edge is a lot smaller. But you can still find good games without 6+ pros per table, you just have to look a bit harder.