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Originally Posted by SABR42
I'm just table selecting harder and trying to save up money. However not really saving up anything running like this.
So you think poker is your only option going forward?
Even though there are obvious depression issues (hope you're getting help for that and good luck to you, seriously), it seems pretty obvious from where I sit (as some idiot on a message board that doesn't know you at all) that poker ain't helping you in this regards (and could be a large cause of the pain).
Any thoughts of stepping out and at least trying something completely different income-wise, if only as a side job for now to see how it feels? You might feel different working in a completely different environment and perhaps even a little more fulfilled. Or not. But isn't it worth a shot?
(Regarding "running like this", I kinda go back to what Feely said and it's all about reciprocality: was anyone really making that much of a mistake in any of these hands? Are you thinking you're not on the good side of the cooler your fair share of the time / for your fair share of the money? If "this is the state of games in 2020" then I don't see why you think pursuing them is going to be terribly profitable (and at what mental expense)? But that's really all just an aside.)
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