BEAT: Lost everything playing poker, have become human guinea pig for drug company to play more
02-02-2011
, 11:33 PM
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Very cool thread man, just finished reading it... If I were you, I'd use the 8K to travel once it's done. A cool 3 month trip to South America would cost you less than half of that... The cost of life is very low in Asia too. Seriously, you should consider doing a backpack trip somewhere... one of your "inmates" is a traveler I think... ask him about his trips !!!
I wasn't able to complete Bunker 2, Cavern and Aztek at 00 Agent can you !?
I wasn't able to complete Bunker 2, Cavern and Aztek at 00 Agent can you !?
South America would be incredible, I would f*cking love to live there for 3 months. I will do it one day for sure.
I'm playing from the beginning purely on 00 Agent, I just finished Jungle and am now up to the bane of my existence... Control. This beast took me three months back in the 90's. Either I sucked or this level is truly demonic, I'm thinking both :P
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I second this.
Regardless of what OP says I think it's still very clear by results that he's still playing like a degen.
Maybe it's not as bad now as it was because you've set limits.
I'm just saying, i think it's much smarter to use the money 2p2 shipped to increase your knowledge and understanding of the game as opposed to just using the money shipped as a way to pass the time while you're in there.
If you buy a DC membership, you will learn, you will pass the time, and you CAN still play with the money 2p2 shipped, but maybe just use it at the end of every day. Spend the first 60% of your time watching relevant DC videos, then spend the last 30% of your free time playing poker, and excercising the concepts you learned. Then do the opposite the next day, spend your first 30% of the day watching videos, then the next 60% playing poker and exercising what you learned!
Otherwise I feel, and you will obviously try to assure us otherwise, that once this is all over, you will say to yourself:
"Hm, sure I'm down overall on what 2p2 shipped, but now that I have 8k, I can take those limits off and in a month I will be up the same percentage of my 8k bankroll as the percentage of my $350 bankroll that I am down!"
or maybe you'll end up playing $1,000 sngs again.
I am so confident in what I am saying that I will say the following:
If OP continues doing what he has been doing and does not watch DC videos and just continues playing how he has been, or fixing what HE sees to be HIS mistakes, and continues being oblivious to other, far more important mistakes he is making, I will be willing to bet that his 8k BR goes BUSTO less than three months after he leaves this study.
If OP watches DC videos and actually studies, and memorizes key concepts and strategies, I want nothing to do with this bet.
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Regardless of what OP says I think it's still very clear by results that he's still playing like a degen.
Maybe it's not as bad now as it was because you've set limits.
I'm just saying, i think it's much smarter to use the money 2p2 shipped to increase your knowledge and understanding of the game as opposed to just using the money shipped as a way to pass the time while you're in there.
If you buy a DC membership, you will learn, you will pass the time, and you CAN still play with the money 2p2 shipped, but maybe just use it at the end of every day. Spend the first 60% of your time watching relevant DC videos, then spend the last 30% of your free time playing poker, and excercising the concepts you learned. Then do the opposite the next day, spend your first 30% of the day watching videos, then the next 60% playing poker and exercising what you learned!
Otherwise I feel, and you will obviously try to assure us otherwise, that once this is all over, you will say to yourself:
"Hm, sure I'm down overall on what 2p2 shipped, but now that I have 8k, I can take those limits off and in a month I will be up the same percentage of my 8k bankroll as the percentage of my $350 bankroll that I am down!"
or maybe you'll end up playing $1,000 sngs again.
I am so confident in what I am saying that I will say the following:
If OP continues doing what he has been doing and does not watch DC videos and just continues playing how he has been, or fixing what HE sees to be HIS mistakes, and continues being oblivious to other, far more important mistakes he is making, I will be willing to bet that his 8k BR goes BUSTO less than three months after he leaves this study.
If OP watches DC videos and actually studies, and memorizes key concepts and strategies, I want nothing to do with this bet.
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I want you guys to understand something. Before this thread, there was no-one really looking out for me, I was pretty much just able to drift further and further out to sea. But now it's like I wouldn't just be letting myself down, I'd be letting everyone who's given their time (and money) to giving me the advice and support that I have needed for a long time. All this guidance is invaluable to me, and whether or not you guys know it, it may be what turns my life around. I blame poker for nothing, how could I? It was I that allowed online poker to be a vehicle for my destructive ways.
So now, I'm going to immerse myself in learning while keeping up with this thread, I don't even feel like playing for a while. Time to grind vids!
02-03-2011
, 12:27 AM
02-03-2011
, 12:51 AM
02-03-2011
, 01:15 AM
02-03-2011
, 01:24 AM
OP, like Alice in Wonderland (or later Neo)...I have decided to give you 2 options to help you pass the evening.
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
The choice is yours:
Red Pill:
Blue Pill:
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
The choice is yours:
Red Pill:
Spoiler:
Blue Pill:
Spoiler:
02-03-2011
, 01:34 AM
02-03-2011
, 02:08 AM
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OP, like Alice in Wonderland (or later Neo)...I have decided to give you 2 options to help you pass the evening.
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
The choice is yours:
Red Pill:
Blue Pill:
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
The choice is yours:
Red Pill:
Spoiler:
Blue Pill:
Spoiler:
02-03-2011
, 04:04 AM
02-03-2011
, 10:39 AM
[QUOTE=King Fish;24577545]OP, like Alice in Wonderland (or later Neo)...I have decided to give you 2 options to help you pass the evening.
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
It's bad enough they're doing tests on me in here, but you've got to f*ck with my head as well? I'm going to have nightmares tonight of being smothered under 10 tonnes of whale blubber
Hmmm it's hard to say. Maybe a short one, like 3-5 days or something... but not one like this. It's just too long. I feel like I'm growing old in here haha, and it will suck when my birthday rolls around (I'll still be in here).
I just smashed Control woohoo! Took me about 20 goes, Natalya kept eating lead. Now on to Caverns, actually made it to the end but forgot to destroy main mainframe or whatever it is 
Behind Option 1 is a gif that will likely get you fap-fap-fapping all night.
Behind Option 2 is a gif that is sure to cool you down and de-bonerize you.
It's bad enough they're doing tests on me in here, but you've got to f*ck with my head as well? I'm going to have nightmares tonight of being smothered under 10 tonnes of whale blubber
02-04-2011
, 01:52 AM
02-04-2011
, 08:32 AM
Today was bad. Day 19... I think. All I know is that I am starting to lose it. I went on tilt and have wiped out about almost 20% of my BR. Lost like 10 straight buy-ins, how the f*ck does that happen? I was supposed to be watching poker videos but the internet connection screws up when people download.
They let us out on a walk to town, and I felt awful, like I was alienated from everyone. So angry and full of rage, so many bad thoughts. The feeling of madness in my head... This is the ugly side of poker that I gotta avoid.
It wasn't just me, though. Everyone agreed that something about today had a depressive edge to it. For the first time since being here I just wanted to get the f*ck out. The Big Day Out was today, Tool & Rammstein were playing, the whole f*cking city are partying just outside these walls but they may as well be on another planet. I tried bribing one of the nurses $50 to let me get one cold beer, no luck. Can't even ride the bike either, cause one of the full-time staff are on the night shift, and they know we're not supposed to use it, which REALLY sucks. I NEED that bike.
The good thing, however, is that on my walk I bought my own internet supply, 5GB to last me the duration. I've already downloaded about 8 hours of DC videos to watch, which is awesome. Despite this internet service provider being one of the smaller companies (Dodo), I'm hoping this will mark the end of my internet troubles.
Please keep up your words of support, they help me more than the $. I'll keep writing if you will.
Thankyou very much man. This was much appreciated. Like I just wrote ^^ today was f*cking bleak, but it's awesome to read something like this. It never ceases to blow me away when I see how much people are enjoying following my story, it means a lot. Stops me from losing my mind in this place. Hope to hear from you again man.
You first
They let us out on a walk to town, and I felt awful, like I was alienated from everyone. So angry and full of rage, so many bad thoughts. The feeling of madness in my head... This is the ugly side of poker that I gotta avoid.
It wasn't just me, though. Everyone agreed that something about today had a depressive edge to it. For the first time since being here I just wanted to get the f*ck out. The Big Day Out was today, Tool & Rammstein were playing, the whole f*cking city are partying just outside these walls but they may as well be on another planet. I tried bribing one of the nurses $50 to let me get one cold beer, no luck. Can't even ride the bike either, cause one of the full-time staff are on the night shift, and they know we're not supposed to use it, which REALLY sucks. I NEED that bike.
The good thing, however, is that on my walk I bought my own internet supply, 5GB to last me the duration. I've already downloaded about 8 hours of DC videos to watch, which is awesome. Despite this internet service provider being one of the smaller companies (Dodo), I'm hoping this will mark the end of my internet troubles.
Please keep up your words of support, they help me more than the $. I'll keep writing if you will.
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Amazing story mate, this has truly lit up my eyes. I'm here to say that Melbourne is behind you in your quest for fulfillment, both in poker and in life. I wish you the absolute best of luck for your tests and hope that you can find the strength to pull through for that roll. You are a courageous young aussie who stands out like not many others do to me. Ill be shipping some ftp $$ to fuel your quest.
5 star, sub'd, you=hero. Good luck and keep the grind on the mind!
5 star, sub'd, you=hero. Good luck and keep the grind on the mind!
You first
Last edited by Never Was Been; 02-04-2011 at 08:39 AM.
Reason: Willing to discuss trade of tattoo pics 4 plane ticket to Sweden
02-04-2011
, 11:31 AM
