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Originally Posted by horny devil
Life is nothing but suffering, misery, heartache, and disappointment, surrounded by artificialness, superficialness, and addictions.
I dont want to suffer anymore.
I just read this post and came to a realization, for real.
The reason I have spent years struggling with addictions such as gambling and alcohol are to escape what is nothing but for the most part misery.
I have used those things as an escape. Its the only time I really ever feel alive and enjoying myself.
Pretty sad.
I also felt happy when out and about with women that I enjoyed spending time with. But other than that, its pretty much it.
The only other thing that comes to mind would be dominating in the office and putting up the best numbers of anyone. I can say I had some satisfaction in that as well.