I suggest not staying in a room for a long time but go outside travel exercise and be very active and just try to be in the company of others. Find forums or groups that are interested in the same things you are. don't give up I come from an abusive family and have felt what you feel now so dont give up. Start with simple things like going to the grocery store and make dinner or get a puppy to raise. begin to try and change your mindset to the now and try to forgive forget and not dwell on the past. try to sleep early and wake up early as well take deep breaths when u feel stress and think about what youre good at.

Find old friends and get reconnected and be simple, ask someone out on a date and just try and have fun again, the main thing is forgiving the past or else it will skew your vision of the present and hinder you from ever being happy again. Understand it wasn't in your control and maybe everything happens for a reason so you can be stronger today and know not to make the same
mistakes.

Just remember you are human and all human beings are going through something on a different level and most people are good people but with different views and experiences. know your bad habits and make goals and build your way up, keep a journal and organize all your thoughts.

Also, I don't think it's justifiable putting the blame on "religion" for war in the middle east. Many of the civilians with beliefs in a God aren't doing anything to cause war, they are in fact crying out to stop war and all of the killing that the corrupt government and president are doing. If you read the bible it actually directly teaches against pride and everything their government is doing. The reason that there is war is because there are corrupt political leaders for countries who basically have intentions of ruling the world like North Korea, China, Egypt, which is why they're all pursuing Nuclear weapons. That is not religion but pride and the desire for power. Sure everyone has beliefs that may disagree from others but it doesn't mean you have to fight and kill each other because of that.

^^^^^ Interesting thoughts.

Join a support group.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Support_group

I started a thread about anxiety and depression some time ago, I think there is pretty good advice ITT and maybe you would like to read it.

Lets talk about anxiety and depression

TY for this, I'll read it as soon as I get home (at work right now).
I might bump it with questions.

dwelling on how bad things are doesnt help obv it can be overwhelming at times because the situation you find yourself has you feeling burried or hopeless but setting small achieveable goals helps a lot.

start off by being more productive things will get better.

life is a grid. but in my world life grinds you.

when £1000 is your whole lifes worth then what's the point.

setting small achievable goals is a really weak answer IMO what like read a book? go for a walk? get a second job?

my choices are limited the highlight of my week would be the ability to choose what toothpaste I use.

but if i had money......oh boy my whole outlook would change and big money is hard to get. endless trunks of money.

First of all, you have to stop dwelling in your past. The only thing it matters, is what you can learn from it. Don't do drugs, and be a better father than your own old man.

Second of all, you have a kid which seems to be financially secured with a family without the same troubles as your own(even though you maybe didn't think much about this until now), which is pretty awesome. If you want to get your girlfriend back, you should probably focus on getting your own life back on track. Find something your're interested in, and become awesome at it, not just good or average, awesome. If you can make money playing poker on the side, great, but it's always a short-term investment in your life, not a long-term, which you seem to need.

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