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Originally Posted by Oladipo
For almost anyone, your situation would make them feel TERRIBLE about themselves, and they would do anything to change it. They would work 80, 90, 100 hours a week. They would either get a job in order to save up enough money and move out while setting aside a poker bankroll, or they would work out a stake and work themselves to the bone trying to study and improve, and learn how to beat the easily beatable games that you play. They would be clawing up the proverbial walls to get themselves out of your situation.
This is big. I wrote a similar thing yesterday before deleting it (because what's the point) but it was along the lines that if you open a PGC and a poker player/pro is struggling, you'll likely read how they beat the games comfortably but blow money on sports/casino or they're putting in 100 hours per week and just not beating the games for enough. Both of these examples are people that have the work ethic and just need a steer away from where they're at and what they've been doing previously (I know I'm simplifying here).
I'm struggling to see how OP becomes successful. He's not crushing the games even if he can beat soft sites and he isn't putting in 100 hours per week at 40nl to rebuild, he's just playing 100nl with a <10bi roll. As a result, so much needs to change for him to suddenly make all of this work. Those spending habits won't just disappear and you can guarantee if he goes on an insane heater there'll be a new iPhone or copy of Microsoft Office.
Someone above hit the nail on the head when they say he's not a gambling addict but an addict to the gambling dream. I can say this confidently because I'm the same. I'm currently playing full time after quitting my job and earning a lot less than I had ever thought I would. The difference between you and I though is I have been beating the mid-stakes games for years, yet I still struggle to motivate myself at times, I still struggle with not doing anything stupid on side games etc.
I often ask myself "do you really want this?" or do I just not want to work? I did 4 years in finance roles post university though, so there's opportunities for me should I go back into the working world, however much I hated it. Please go to Uni and learn a trade alongside poker because you sure as hell have the free time to do it. I also put in a lot more hours of poker than you and I'm still not sure I want it enough, which really makes me fear for whether you do.
Don't read this post as me trying to claim I'm better than you in any way because that's not what I'm doing, I'm just trying to explain that you have to really ****ing want this if you're going to make it successful. Do you?