Thanks dudes... rough 4 days but it's looking so much better this morning. Big turn in the right direction for the little guy.

Great news!

Nice, great to hear.

Yes! That's good to hear.

Yes, PLOKJ saves!

Fantastic to hear!!

6.29.18
bw 267.8

press
165 x8
155 x9
shoulder felt k after extensive warmups and prehab stretching / PT-style exercises
kept <RPE9

3-pt db row
130 x8
130 x8

Assault bike
50 cals 4:23

k

7.2.18

Diet:
week 00 - 04.02.18 - 289.4 lbs (start)
week 01 - 04.09.18 - 281.3 lbs (-8.1)
week 02 - 04.16.18 - 277.3 lbs (-4.0 for week, -12.1 overall)
week 03 - 04.23.18 - 278.2 lbs (+0.9 for week, -11.2 overall)
week 04 - 04.30.18 - 278.4 lbs (+0.2 for week, -11.0 overall)
week 05 - 05.07.18 - 276.4 lbs (-2.0 for week, -13.0 overall)
week 06 - 05.14.18 - 274.4 lbs (-2.0 for week, -15.0 overall)
week 07 - 05.21.18 - 272.0 lbs (-2.4 for week, -17.4 overall)
week 08 - 05.28.18 - 270.5 lbs (-1.5 for week, -18.9 overall)
week 09 - 06.04.18 - 270.6 lbs (+0.1 for week, -18.8 overall)
week 10 - 06.11.18 - 269.8 lbs (-0.8 for week, -19.6 overall)
week 11 - 06.18.18 - 270.8 lbs (+1.0 for week, -18.6 overall)
week 12 - 06.25.18 - 267.1 lbs (-3.7 for week, -22.3 overall)
week 13 - 07.02.18 - 269.3 lbs (+2.2 for week, -20.1 overall)

About 3-4 weeks of no additional progress on the weight side, so I am going back to tracking 100% today, for two weeks. This week was ok, but I really ate out a lot more than usual bc of taking my son (doing much better now) to several drs all over the place, etc. Also it was hotter than the surface of the sun here so I didn't take my normal walks.

Still, Idk why I let tracking slide. K.

Tracking is going well. bw ~265 (whoosh is all) & the week is going k on the diet front. No problem on the holiday with eating, because I had a good plan, which is always nice.

For a variety of factors my schedule for the gym or anything has gone to hell this week - mostly that my dad's in the hospital (prognosis prob k but idk, obstructed bowel but reason unknown, typical reasons are not great...) and I'm trying to help out too many people and at the same time do too much for work. So I'm just gonna take the next couple of days off of work and I'm gonna go out of my way to carve out some time for me and Mrs DT. Maybe a couple of good meals out idk.

Amor fati.

K.

7.8.18
So after a long week of my dad being in the hospital and having a successful surgery, it looks like he will be fine and hopefully can go home tomorrow.

In other news, my son's eye looks great!

Over the past week I walked more than usual (some along the lake ftw, mostly in hospitals tho ftl). Got to the gym quickly on Sunday, but it was interrupted.

press
165 x8
155 x9

I can't tell if my (R) shoulder felt bad from inactivity and hotel bed, or something more serious... I may just add rehab/prehab for a bit anyway, just in case.

7.9.18
Diet:
week 00 - 04.02.18 - 289.4 lbs (start)
week 01 - 04.09.18 - 281.3 lbs (-8.1)
week 02 - 04.16.18 - 277.3 lbs (-4.0 for week, -12.1 overall)
week 03 - 04.23.18 - 278.2 lbs (+0.9 for week, -11.2 overall)
week 04 - 04.30.18 - 278.4 lbs (+0.2 for week, -11.0 overall)
week 05 - 05.07.18 - 276.4 lbs (-2.0 for week, -13.0 overall)
week 06 - 05.14.18 - 274.4 lbs (-2.0 for week, -15.0 overall)
week 07 - 05.21.18 - 272.0 lbs (-2.4 for week, -17.4 overall)
week 08 - 05.28.18 - 270.5 lbs (-1.5 for week, -18.9 overall)
week 09 - 06.04.18 - 270.6 lbs (+0.1 for week, -18.8 overall)
week 10 - 06.11.18 - 269.8 lbs (-0.8 for week, -19.6 overall)
week 11 - 06.18.18 - 270.8 lbs (+1.0 for week, -18.6 overall)
week 12 - 06.25.18 - 267.1 lbs (-3.7 for week, -22.3 overall)
week 13 - 07.02.18 - 269.3 lbs (+2.2 for week, -20.1 overall)
week 14 - 07.09.18 - 267.7 lbs (-1.6 for week, -21.7 overall)

Diet was all over the place this past week - from burgers and fries because you can get that quickly, to pina colodas (which I drink about once every three years), to 1* tasting menus. Idk. My life is unpredictable.

K

7.9.18
lots of core and right shoulder nonsense

then

tbdl
510 x3 idk felt a little off mayyyyybe I had 6 but why push it
440 x6 no straps

kb swing (48) emom
10
10
10
10
10

k

Great news for the whole city family! Except the interrupted workout, sorry bro.

Fantastic news about your dad and son. May good stuff keep coming your way

I rarely have stuff like this or talk about it - I try to treat the good and the bad the same, but even being prepared for the bad doesn't always work.

My childhood best friend, with whom I'd lost touch and just saw at funerals or on Facebook, died yesterday. Heart attack, just fell over dead didn't even get to ride in a chopper g4s-style. I don't know why, but this both shocked me and made me so sad. I don't know too many my/his age (he was 39) who have died, and he's probably my closest friend that has died. I feel like I lost a part of my own childhood, which is both pretty selfish and doesn't make too much sense... idk. Just grief, I guess. Maybe all grief is selfish. I feel fine/normal today.

At the same time yesterday, my 2-week-old niece went to the hospital with a fever. I am not as worried about this yet - she should be ok, but it's still scary for my sister and brother-in-law, of course.

Weird couple of weeks.

Finally, I am going to see Jurassic Park in 3D IMAX tonight, and I don't really like 3D, it's a small screen for IMAX, and I know in advance it's supposed to be terrible. So sad. Send strength.

"All your sorrows have been wasted on you if you have not yet learned how to be wretched."

https://www.brainpickings.org/2017/0...ion-to-helvia/

This is pretty good.

Gotta take the run good with the run bad. Glad it's more of the former, mostly because of Jurassic Park, obv.

Sorry to hear that, man.

That sucks, man. I lost a friend, probably not as close as yours was to you, to a heart attack at about age 41 a few years ago. They were both way too young.

Feel for you. It's a bit of a shock when a friend of a similar age dies. Definitely feel your own sense of mortality. You feeling a sense of loss in regards to your own childhood is pretty common I think. I remember when my mum died my cousin being really upset and saying now she was gone there was no one to remember her and talk to her about when she was a little girl. You would have shared memories with your mate that were exclusive to the two of you.

Thanks for the link. It was an interesting read.

This.

This quote from Seneca hit home:
Not sure how possible this is. Hopefully our children will lead lives fairly free from inconsolable grief for a good while - but then how do you prepare them for the inevitability of it?

Thx dudes.

Yeah I guess that is what I was saying, it may not be possible or it may not work. But, it is worthwhile to remember that we will die, to hopefully let little things or things that do not kill us affect us less, to focus our actions.

For me, someone who faces almost no adversity, it frequently means check off what I want to do today rather than allow for a distraction. For someone who runs into an inevitable or actual rough situation, to survive the survivable. To not count themselves out until they are actually out. This did help me and helped my mom possibly worry less or at least focus on what we could do during a surgery for my dad where we didn't know how it would go. For us it meant achieving a transfer to another, in our mind better hospital - that was kind of a pain and that we had to overcome a few road blocks. Was this some heroic act? No. Was it all we could do? Maybe, and we are glad we did.

Even if it's not achievable (removing worry or skipping emotion to some logical next step), allowing yourself to process and fully feel whatever natural human emotion you have, but then contextualizing it, is still worthwhile. See also and I recommend Viktor Frankl's book Man's Search for Meaning on this same topic, et al.

Good post. Agree with all of it, though given your history I wouldn't say you've faced no adversity.

I've been guilty of doing the opposite of blocking off, namely wallowing in grief. Probably not much better.

Soulman,
You don't know what my pain feels like.




7.13.18

bw 266.8

Bench
280 x7
265 x8

3pt db row (standing)
130 x8
115 x8

seated db press
45 x8
65 x8

memento mori
k