So you've got the full Joaquin Phoenix 2012 hobo beard going at this point, right?
I pretty much perpetually look like something bad happened to me exactly four days ago.
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Originally Posted by KPowers
heard this song figured you'd like it
You figured wrong!
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Originally Posted by JohnnyFondue
Quality Log
Yeah I figure this is a great way to spend my free time before I die. How many steps per day do you average on fitbits? Do you have a fitbit or some other brand. Idk why you don't show up on my friends list as we are FB friends, so maybe something else, I guess.
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Diet:
week 0 - 2/02/2015 - 237.8 lbs (start)
week 1 - 2/09/2015 - 232.8 lbs (-5.0lbs)
week 2 - 2/16/2015 - 236.2 lbs (+3.4lbs for week, -1.6lbs overall)
week 3 - 2/23/2015 - 235.1 lbs (-1.1lbs for week, -2.7lbs overall)
week 4 - 3/02/2015 - 235.0 lbs (-0.1lbs for week, -2.8lbs overall)
week 5 - 3/09/2015 - 235.0 lbs (-0.0lbs for week, -2.8lbs overall)
week 6 - 3/16/2015 - 231.7 lbs (-3.3lbs for weeks, -6.1lbs overall)
Walked a lot more although much more likely that this is no progress as I also got what I suspect to be food poisoning. i.e. GAINSVILLE, FL AWW YEAH.
Just listened to song. I like it. Definitely doesn't seem to be up DTs alley though. A little too electronic and not enough late 90s obscure hard rock to it.
I've been playing online poker for many years and I had tried meditation several times before, but I never really saw the bigger picture until I started reading up on the self/ego/time and consciousness in general. When you don't really grasp those different dimensions it can be a bit vague as to what it is exactly you're trying to do while meditating. At least for me it was.
Back to meditation: I was reading this book yesterday and noticed a paragraph that nicely explained what I was trying to say in the quote above
The book is "Wherever you go, there you are" by Jon Kabat-Zinn
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Ordinarily, when we undertake something, it is only natural to expect a desirable outcome for our efforts. We want to see results, even if it is only a pleasant feeling. The sole exception I can think of is meditation. Meditation is the only intentional, systematic human activity which at bottom is about not trying to improve yourself or get anywhere else, but simply to realize where you already are. Perhaps its value lies precisely in this. Maybe we all need to do one thing in our lives simply for its own sake.
But it would not quite be accurate to call meditation a "doing." It is more accurately described as a "being." When we understand that "This is it," it allows us to let go of the past and the future and wake up to what we are now, in this moment.
People usually don't get this right away. They want to meditate in order to relax, to experience a special state, to become a better person, to reduce some stress or pain, to break out of old habits and patterns, to become free or enlightened. All valid reasons to take up meditation practice, but all equally fraught with problems if you expect those things to happen just because now you are meditating. You'll get caught up in wanting to have a "special experience" or in looking for signs of progress, and if you don't feel something special pretty quickly, you may start to doubt the path you have chosen, or to wonder whether you are "doing it right".
In most domains of learning, this is only reasonable. Of course you have to see progress sooner or later to keep at something. But meditation is different. From the perspective of meditation, every state is a special state, every moment a special moment. When we let go of wanting something else to happen in this moment, we are taking a profound step toward being able to encounter what is here now. If we hope to go anywhere or develop ourselves in any way, we can only step from where we are standing. If we don't really know where we are standing—a knowing that comes directly from the cultivation of mindfulness—we may only go in circles, for all our efforts and expectations. So, in meditation practice, the best way to get somewhere is to let go of trying to get anywhere at all.
If your mind isn't clouded by unnecessary things, This is the best season of your life.
Syn, I have that book, but I haven't read it. I'll move it to the top of the pile of books to read. Thanks.
Workouts:
I was pretty sick Sat-Tue/Yesterday, so I am just going to take it easy this week, walk, play poker, go out to a nice dinner on Friday. Enjoy my limited time with my kids today and tomorrow and live life. Not going to worry about diet or exercise this week. Just feeling better physically and enjoying life.
My scale is acting weird. I can't trust it. I think it's a lesson. Or I broke it from being fat. One of those.
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Walk. Exist. Observe.
Things are going well, despite the fact that I'll likely sleep in Indianapolis, Indiana tomorrow while passing through. Driving around and avoiding IN altogether would have been too much work.
Things are going well, despite the fact that I'll likely sleep in Indianapolis, Indiana tomorrow while passing through. Driving around and avoiding IN altogether would have been too much work.
Drink 5 5-hour energy drinks, buy some speed at a truck stop, anything you can do to drive through the night and not spend a night there would be better IMO.
I have never been, but I heard Indianapolis is a pretty cool town, especially if you don't know your way around, cause everything is pretty centrally located and you can walk around and get pretty much anywhere.
I mean Monte admits they have only one family car and do just fine. This absolutely blows my mind coming from So Cal to be honest. If I am anywhere (even my house) without my car within short walking distance I feel stranded.