TR of last night:
All of my friends were out of town or working or sick. Basically being bitches. After UFC, a buddy and I part ways to head home, I'm pretty bummed and not looking forward to a movie/work/sleep. I see a bunch of flashing lights in a window, unmistakably the flashing lights of a party. In some campus building I've never been in. I walk up and signs confirm it's free, for some Jewish organization on campus. lol
I enter and ask the entrance girl what it is. She (rightfully) acts like I'm pretty sketchy, but can't deny me entry. I go in. I go to take a piss and meet some guy in line. This was a key moment.
I won't go into details cause it would be TL;DR. The cliffs/highlights:
Started out super awkward, but it was a fun challenge to try to feel comfortable and meet people. A good exercise.
I eventually meet a second guy, friend of the first. They think it's hilarious that I just crashed their party. Then I meet these two girls who are rolling on E. One has a friend there, the other doesn't. I talk/flirt with the one that doesn't have a friend. We hug to our non-Jewishness. She was of medium attractiveness, but to be totally honest, something about her face reminded me of pooptoad:
I kept coming back to the well on this one, thinking she would eventually just wanna ****. Nothing happened, just lots of mutual touching but always stopping when she stopped reciprocating.
I talked to some Indian girl that was 18 and ******ed for way too long. The conversation was good though, in that she was continually entertained. Mostly I felt good about getting back into rhythm after ****ing up so badly and feeling so awkward with that girl from last week that I bought a drink. This girl eventually went to the bathroom w a friend and then I just didn't see her again until I left. She was happy to meet me, but not cute enough to take her number.
Some girl grabbed me and asked me to dance with her. She was moderately attractive. Her smile was okay, but her incisors were pretty sharp. She was ****housed I think, so I tried to escalate quickly. She grinded on me a little bit even though nobody else was grinding. I thought she might be DTF, and she only knew like 2 ppl at the party and doesn't even go to my university. I wasn't worried about my reputation, so when she told me she was leaving I asked her to come home with me. She said no, and made up that she had a bf.
I also talked to probly the hottest girl at the party. We bonded over not being Jews, and it was going pretty well, she was flirting with me cause she was pissed at this dick that left her at the party. Then her boyfriend (who had ditched her) showed up and I just left. Couldn't be assed to deal with that. It was poor timing cause I think this could have gone somewhere; they'll break up in less than a month.
Talked a couple other random girls where the conversation went well but they weren't super into me.
Notably, I made like 4 guys friends that I talked to for a decent chunk of the night. I typically hate every guy I meet at venues/parties, but these guys were pretty cool. It was a good distraction so that I didn't really care about hooking up too much. I need more friends like this that are not so boring, then I'd probably enjoy going out for the sake of going out.
Though I didn't do more than dance/kiss on the cheek, it was a good night for boosting confidence and getting some practice talking to dumb girls about random stuff. It's so different from the normal conversation I'm used to, like being two people at once - one that can have long, deep conversations and another that can keep to very light, surface topics, never saying more than a phrase or two back and forth.