Get better and find the limit you can beat, **** i can barely beat 50nl and100nl online over a sig sample, im just not working on it enough. So I try other things, PLO, sit and goes, anything. Online games are getting harder right now so perhaps you are shooting far too high.

Probably dont do this as much until you are bringing in a lot more than you are spending.

Basically you had a chance but due to lack of finances and emotion control you lost. Perhaps if/when you are done school then the grades wont matter and you can concentrate more on poker...? Not hatin or anything, just trying to breakdown ur scenario and try to see exactly where it all went wrong.

quit poker. focus on school first

Haven't played poker in like 3 months.

Basically I played a lot of poker and didn't do a lot else. I was short on cash because I'm a student, and didn't bother trying to save or anything, but that wasn't a big deal when I was being staked.

I wouldn't say that I had a chance and lost; it's more a case of trying to achieve too much too fast to the detriment of everything else. So I really don't think that waiting until I've finished with school and then concentrating MORE on poker is the answer - much more important is finding a life balance and making sure that I'm happy.

I'm in the same position if you remove poker and add in 2p2. I spend so much time on this wretched site it's scary. My grades have gone to ****, low self esteem, little social life, my poker volume remains piss poor. Some days I feel like requesting a perma ban and just removing 2p2 from my life, but I never do. If it wasn't poker and 2p2 I'm sure it'd be something else.

nice read

agreed mostly.. i think poker's is a way for most of us to escape poverty ... but once we put "money" on a pedal-stool we miss the more important things in life: health, friends, school, etc

i'm also a student... i can relate to many of your problems as i've been thru them myself

I read the first word of the first sentence, and I think this is the best thread ever on BBV..

Well done OP!!

p.s. I heard that Omar is gay

p.s.s. How did you manage to get someone to back you when you had a break-even or losing record?

p.s.s.s. Why do your parent's buy you beer?

good stuff OP. where did you go to uni?

quitting poker is ez when u suck

good read OP

Omar pic or GTFO ...

and nice read

If your bitching about the length of this post, how do you control your ADD long enough to sit down and analyze game theory? Or R U just clicking buttons? And what site/sn do you play on?

OP:

Nice post. You developed a well working narrative in this piece, and I enjoy how you tied Omar's presence to both the beginning and end of the piece. Some good advice in here for obsessive playing. Personally, I just shut my computer down when the run bad and mind f<ck start. I can't imagine a desire to play when tilt starts taking over.

If you decide to get back into playing - some things I have found helpful are just getting other **** done before grinding. Eat something decent, exercise, make your bed, do some homework, hang out with friends.... I think its easier to play well when you feel productive. And solely grinding, unless I'm running hot, usually doesn't make me feel all that productive when there is other things I need to get done.

I had a winning record at 2NL-10NL so he staked me to play 25NL and then 50NL and 100NL. The amount of money he was giving me was pretty small at first so I think he was happy to take a bit of a gamble on me.

They don't, any more, because I'm 22. When I was 16 they would because they wanted me to enjoy myself.

University of Leeds, studying BSc Economics. I have my finals next month, and if everything goes OK I'll be graduating in July.

Sit down and think about this logically. You've sacrificed grades, a social life, and feelings of self-esteem so you can...spend more time on an INTERNET FORUM?

Try not going on 2p2 for 3 days. If you use Firefox, install Leechblock to bar yourself from 2p2 for a bit. See how you feel after those 3 days. Then decide if you want to come back.

When I quit poker I suddenly had an epic amount of free time. You need something to fill that time void, so I started reading and writing. Pick a couple of books off amazon (nothing poker related) and read. Write a journal or a blog. Read the newspaper. Just do something productive and mentally stimulating that has nothing at all to do with poker.

Thanks.

Leeds eh? I play the tourneys at Gala now and again apropos of nothing in particular.

Anyway, just wanted to say it was a good read and I can certainly identify with it. Smashed a few keyboards and mice in my time I'm ashamed to say.

Nice to meet you all

^^^ Is this Omar lol

Great read, and definitely worth the time to read it all

Great read Lyncho tyvm.

Very useful for myself as i'm in a similar sort of position as yourself it would appear, graduating (hopefully) this summer with an Economics BSc from Southampton. Played a ton my first year and a half at uni grinding microstakes tourneys/cash then mid way through last year realised I had completed lost my love of the game. Playing on autopilot. Took a shot at LLSNL and fell back in love with the game, not playing much now but the point about BALANCE IN LIFE is so true!

Good read and gl in whatever you get up to in life after poker.

great post i think people who are just saying "cool story" and all that troll crap are severely missing out because they could very well end up in your position. The beginnings of your story are much like mine, except i'm still a starting player and i've been warned so many times about tilt control. It's tough to get a handle over but you never realize the importance of it until you start losing because of it.

Thanks for this once again and gl in your future endeavors be it poker or otherwise!

This is really good stuff.
Thanks for posting.

Great read... I've gone through the same type of thing but I'm glad you were able to take a step back and come to grips with what you need to do. it seems like you have a plan and just stick to it and GL.

I'm going to be playing in a local game tonight where there are two games the small game and the big game... I will be playing in the 'big game' tonight for the first time. This helped me realized if i don't do well that its not over for me or that I'm not a good player. Thanks

Good read.