Tuche to that!

Deposited about $250, run it up to about $750, lost it all but $5 when I hit a downswing and tilted away most of it. Ran that $5 up to where I am now.

I knew SOMEONE would make me feel better
I did better before I started trying to get better. That was a costly investment but worth it in the long run I think. Playing live I could often turn $50 into $450 and more. I never lost more than $300 live on my worst day.

Online, I went from a slow trickle, to bleeding to spewing to while experimenting with everything, trying to do too much too quickly, etc..
down Approx $1100 (maybe a little more that didn't get tracked).

I am turning the corner as we speak, so I'll report back at the end of the month. I had forgotten what a positive graph looked like!

Down about 12K over the last 3 years, still learning, no BM managment, I deposit every few weeks. Probably deposit today again.

FML

My poker story

Depo $50
Busto
Depo another $50
Fish on heater
Learn BRM
No 2nd busto
Profit

I think I lost like 700 casually learning the game. Lots of fail. But I made that all back and some more so it's all good now.

I'm in the negs right now.

I think I started playing in either may, june or july. I played freerolls at 5 different places for a week. I got into the top 10 3 times for a total of around $5 (lol) at some site (closed down now) in small $25 450 player freerolls. My plan was to build up from there and never deposit any money, but I ended up losing it. After that week of little sleep, I only played once in awhile thereafer and then stopped for months.

This month I uninstalled all but Full Tilt. I started playing freerolls again, but gave into the temptation to deposit $10. I only played for an hour or two the first two days. I won 9 cents and 25 cents. I'm thinking this is cool. If I get better and play more hours, I'll be making some money.

On the third day I tilted. It seemed like all my best hands were getting beat. I ended up playing two tables at a time. I'm still not getting things. I'm down $2 and someone calls preflop all in. I have pocket Qs and go all in with my $1.05, which is 1/8 of my total money. He has AK and gets AK and I lose.

At this point I know I should have just stopped playing, but I could not get over the urge to move up a bit, so I take like $7 of my $7.66 left into a room.
I tell myself that I'll leave once I get down to $6. I end up staying in below $5. I have not won a good hand yet and I'm thinking I'm going to finally win one hand and break even for the day. After the flop, I needed one card for a flush. A King falls. Now I have a chance at a flush draw and a pair of Kings. It's the highest pair on the board. After these two rounds of betting I'm all in by now. The last card falls and I'm disappointed that my flush did not hit, but I think I have a chance until I notice that the guy next to me has a straight! He got his two cards he needed on the turn and the river.

I take my last 66 cents to a limit holdem table and my day was almost redeemed. I get up $3 and realize that a dollar was released from reaching ftp level. Now I have $4.60 and am feeling somewhat better given the situation. I went cold after that, losing $2. The next day I lost the rest of my money.

At the moment I'm trying to break into free roll money. Yesterday, I got 138in a HORSE freeroll. Dear God, I might have been able to glide into the money if I stuck to only playing LHE, Razz and very few hands elsewhere. I ended up getting destroyed on my last Stud round, almost redeemed myself in the LHE and got extinguished on the last Ohama Hi/Lo round.

I realize some things I was doing wrong now. I was not playing for Lo on Ohama Hi/Lo or Stud Hi/Lo. I had no idea that you could only play 2 hole cards for Ohama. No wonder why my "flush" lost to a straight once and I got knocked out with my "full house"! haha So, this was bittersweet. It was not so bad because I learned a few things.

That took 4 hours. I also lasted 4 hours in a NL freeroll. I got 134 - my best finish yet. In the later stages of the tournament, I seem to go dead. I guess I get scared to play hands, especially with all the big bets and all ins. Is it even possible to get by without taking the chance of losing it all then?

Anyway, I'd like to think I'm getting better. Lately, I've finished top 250 to win an entry into a $1,000 freeroll, got 195, 138 and 134, but who knows. I'm still not taking proper betting and raising (aggression) into account and hardly paying attention to position. I have been taking into account pot odds and hand odds at times, and tightened up a bit.

I love to play against people who like to raise preflop and post flop on almost every hand, but do not go all in preflop. I can eat them up when I have really good hands.

first $50 dollar deposit for sure. Then read about bankroll management and treated it like gospel

I lost exactly $1.20, but even that wasn't my money.

I met some guy on the play money tables, we chatted for a bit, and he asked me if I wanted to play in a real money SNG with him and one of his friends. I jumped on the offer. Lost. Then, he decided to do the same thing again, and that time I took first and split the money 3-ways out of... I dunno, immense gratification?

So, with less than $5, I took my money to the 2NL tables, and in all honesty, should have lost. I just recently requested my lifetime hands from Stars and imported them, only to find that I was a huge fish at NL. I would limp in constantly, min-raise, min 3-bet PF, etc. and probably played somewhere around 50/12. Whoops. I never went broke, though, and in time I switched to LHE, which I would say I'm much better in.

Thank God for survivorship bias. =D