Meet your best friend, or your worst enemy. It's amazing how powerful this little thing is. It literally shapes our reality. It takes an infinite amount of information and processes it for us in a way we can understand the universe. Our entire reality is defined by a 3-pound piece of muscle.
The amazing part of it is we have so much control over it, and in turn, our reality. It starts with being conscious of how we speak to ourselves - I mean REALLY listen to our inner monologue. Myself personally, I grew up blaming myself for everything. In turn, this made me feel ****ty and inadequate in a lot of aspects. I picked up meditation and started really quieting my mind down. I became conscious of how I was talking to myself and realized I was repeating a lot of lies to myself. These lies stemmed from insecure parents, insecure friends, and good ol' insecure me that I kept repeating myself over and over again. They became subconscious and dormant, almost like a whisper. When I failed at anything, I would get furious and distract myself through video games, alcohol, porn - anything to take my mind away from the pain. While this worked for the short term, the anger and angst would build inside of me and would never get resolved. I unconsciously became miserable because these lies festered inside me.
Once I became conscious to these whispering demons by staying in the moment rather than hiding from them, I was able to confront them and really dissect what they were saying. As each issue rose, I simply observed what it was saying to me. I didn't fight it, I didn't defend myself, I just observed. Soon enough, the nagging demons quieted down; lies can't stand their grounds when confronted. What's left after each confrontation is a sense of contentment and peace, because the truth is that I am built, capable and deserving of love, which is what I have always searched for.
So when you start tilting, don't distract yourself from the anger through temporary releases. Sit and meditate on it because that anger is an indication that your body is giving yourself a chance to confront your demons. Look at it as an opportunity. Listen to its lies, really listen to what its whispering, realize they're not true and wave it good-bye.
Last edited by 0desmu1; 06-14-2014 at 01:04 AM.