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Originally Posted by TheStuntman
This session dented my plans of going pro, I'm going to play more sessions to gain a feeling to see if I should do it or not.
That's part of the problem in itself. If one session going not great, not even bad, is going to be an issue it's probably not the right choice. It was just 1BI assuming you bought in deep, or 2BI, which is nothing as well, and shouldn't affect you in the slightest. Ultimately, as said before, poker in the short term is variance, and if you run bottom 20%, life will suck. You can bet that you'll run better than that, but without the security of steady income to back you up, it's likely that your play would also suffer, which means it won't take much run bad to put you in a tight spot.
Keep feeling it out though, keep trying, and if you run alright, play well, and make 10bi or whatever and are confident, give it a shot. But don't rush into it, no matter what you think, you've always got time, and you'll always have time. Mentally, we always want to rush, but it's important that we reign in those thoughts and approach things patiently, and with focus/a plan.
With that last session changing your mind about things a bit, I'd assume mentally you were getting hyped up about going pro due to the last win, probably building it up in your head, thinking you could do it, focusing on all the ****ty aspects of your job, along with the good aspects of poker, travel, etc. It's tough to try and morph your inner monologue, but it's one of the most important skills a poker player can learn, you can't let your emotions dictate your mental state or bias your personal thoughts towards looking towards the bad of one thing, or the good of another.
To close, I should say that I'm sure you could go pro and make $, your skill is definitely at that level. The only question is if your mental state is going to be rushed, and predicated on external factors, or if it's going to be slow, methodical, and approached with a solid plan. You have been taking it slow so far which is good, but it seems like mentally you're ready to go right now, which is why the last session negatively impacted you, but ultimately it's just what, 20 total hours of live play so far? Not a sample.