I got my loan on prosper.
Crazy rate 30% but it's ok if I pay it off before 60 months


Look I don't care if you think I'm trolling or not. I know I sounds like a degenerate idiot but honestly maybe there is some validation to what I'm saying.
Also I'm not really playing for the money this time but more so to try and control my impulses which are completely random and unexplainable.


Anybody wishing me luck ty today will be my first day and I'm going to so it right!!

OP do you think there's a chance that you had a manic episode last time you played poker?

....and some crap about being phsycic. How is anyone still buying this?

why not just work at mcdonalds if you are going to shoot for 5 dollars an hour? the stress that comes with it is simply not worth it in my opinion, especially given your mental struggles.

This

OP, do you realize that poker may be adding more fuel to the fire when it comes to your mental issues?

Playing a volatile game for a living is a sure way to trigger and exasperate your mental issues.

Do yourself a favour, start exercising regularly, get a 9-5, live a content life. You do not need the silly stress of poker to earn what you would at an entry level job.

At first I didn't think this was a troll.
Then he started to talk about aliens...
Then he could read souls....
Then he got endless amounts of loans, I wonder what his living situation is.
Then he has his crazy 2/5 impulses.
If you are stupid enough to to think this isn't a troll one way or another god help you, if this really isn't a troll and everything is true god help us all.

This thread is gold.
Each time the op adds something new - and people give advice - it gets funnier.
Good Stuff.

Look I explained my situation and yes poker does add fuel to the fire

I'm not sure what a manic episode is... Sometimes I go to use the bathroom then find myself in the garage or making food I disappear mentally emotionally etc for few minutes sometimes



Anyway I gotta calm down down already made 2 stupid bluffs got lucky and hit the river lol but still the bluffs made no sense and no money in pot I have to breathe focus be calm I'm here to control my mind and myself not for poker here for my mind and my self!! Good behavior be smart be calm be real

Crap I keep doing stupid goofy **** tons of anxiety *** after this post I'm taking a break

I have 5 more hours to go in my session
1. Forget what happened ever in the past let it go
2. Forget the stupid **** earlier in session it's all of yor system
3. Talk to yourself stay calm stay in CONTrOl




I'm trying guys I'm really trying to not win or lose but just to be I want to be a normal calm person who can fold 9 3 of suit and not raise utg

I got a loan through prosper
Dude shut up

I do think those things and I know it sounds delusional this is part of the reason I'm ****ing doing this to understand why the **** I'm 30 living at home with nothing going for me.

Either support me or just enjoy the ride and laugh at me at the end

Lol the old man next to me asked me "you alright"
Hasn't said **** doesn't talk and randomly just looks at me "you alright"

Them eyes of concern I'm gonna use him as motivation to play like him
I'm going to sit here and pretend I'm 80 and do everything super slow maybe that's what I need! I will update thread later cheers friends

It is obvious you have some mental disorders from what you saying (as you've stated), however it is possible to become a winning player. Someone previously stated you should deposit $100 online, buy HM2 and grind from $0.01/0.02. Join a skype group, buy a subscription to deuces cracked, and I can give you some great skype groups for 2NL-25NL players that helped me a lot when I was playing those stakes.

As far as the "soul reading" and all that stuff, it is not real man. I don't really understand the point of trolling here so I am going to believe you. Seriously man, try to get some grip on things and seek professional help, I know people with mental disorders and it is a scary thing to see someone go through it. Hope everything does work out for you. Good luck.

Ty but it's not about playing online or learning to play it's about not being a monster to myself

C'mon guys be more skeptical.


Zy

I left to go to the bathroom and overheard the table making fun of me - now this isn't my usually paranoid feelings clearly they think I'm a fish which I'm but I heard them call me an idiot etc

Watch now I'm gonna calm my ass the **** down

**** them and **** anybody thinking I'm trolling this is my therapy and I will defeat my crazy mind I swear it

I need to quit poker.

Please help me. Where do I start?
Jesus Christ I have no dopamine no pleasure this is such a horrible low feeling my god my god

Check into a clinic for a psych eval? No doubt they'll commit you and you'll be good to go.

They have a poker game in the psych ward.

I'm dead broke I

I have no idea how to make fast money it's like I try to make fast money to do something... Even though I know if I just study and do the right thing and let go of poker I'll be happy but it's so hard



I lost again but this is good I really need to move on but how

How do I enjoy the study school life grind? How do I enjoy life without poker

I'd say seeking help for your mental illness is a good place to start. It sucks, but you may actually feel better on correct medication. I know you don't think you need it, but you probably do. I'm not a mental health professional but you should see one.

Also you need to acknowledge there is no easy quick get rich fix or everyone would be doing it. Stop being lazy. You are not special. Neither am I. You're going to need to work for success. Yes, poker is beatable but you are not a winning player, you clearly have tilt and mental game issues as well as a lack of understanding of fundamentals. This will not change unless you take tangible steps to fix it.

Also you need to study the game of poker before even considering playing poker again. If you're serious about it PM me and i'll send you some PDFs of good poker books and recommend some training videos

Or, you're a troll, which is probably more likely, but i've given you answers as if you're not anyway.

You may need to call gamblers anonymous if in fact you are being serious and not just trolling.

Edit: I also had a relative of mine who was a problem gambler and she feels she has done the right thing in enrolling and it has helped her a lot. She is still currently in the self exclusion list and barred from playing in any of the casinos within her jurisdiction. She still plays poker as a hobby but only home games and play money sites.

that can't be good for her long-term. i'm guessing GA wouldn't approve of either home games or play money ... it's still 'gambling' and still puts her in danger of losing control.

All he does is say ******ed crap he doesn't comment back to play online or micro stakes or learn to get better he just wants to spaz on this thread. This is a troll guys.