Am I 2nlz fish or 50nlz crusher? Mate...
12-21-2023
, 06:33 AM
2023 End of year school report
Another farcical year has been and gone.
So...unfortunately the wheels fell right off in October after that good run due to an unrelated neck injury. i just couldn’t play through the burn man. Seems to be clearing up recently so been slowly building hands/day again. But we are set back about 2/3 months which is quite frustrating.
2nlz 2023
5nlz 2023
10nlz so far
Can't complain results wise. I think I'm playing better than I ever have. Twatting about at 2nlz was a very useful exercise in loosening up my game and opened my eyes up to the sheer amount of opportunity out there even in fish packed games. Especially in fish packed games.
So on the theory, enjoyment, motivation front I’m good. Nobody needs money more than I do right now either so I am fully financially incentivised too. It’s just the physical grind I can’t handle, still. I have to keep refocusing on my health over and over and it’s so annoying. Like being stuck in a time warp of ****.
That said, this is also categorically my best year diet wise.
Just another 3-6 months and I reckon I’ll have cracked this no sugar lark for good.
You have to learn a hundred different things (cheats) if you’ve only ever known processed crap and that alone can be a long, tedious and exhausting process of trial and error. But it is doable, piece by piece. Can we please just put this shite in the curriculum next time please Miss?
Another positive. Love this more zoomed out tracking approach I started taking about 15 months ago. Very helpful psychologically. Got to train the brain that it's ok to make mistakes and fail, over and over. And over and over and over.
It's ok. Just keep trying. That's the formula.
Like poker at its core. Even though you feel like total arse and that you’re on this perpetual downswing when you pull back it appears, aha, nay sire, pain is but an illusion. Pain and discomfort, paradoxically, is often the reward of success. But why? What kind of idot designs a planet like that?
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Hope everyone’s alright out there. I know, christmas might be one giant corporate hypnosham beamed out by lizard overlords to slap us plebs into unconsciousness, but still. Instead I shall wish thee all a very happy new year instead.
Even the trolls.
Another farcical year has been and gone.
So...unfortunately the wheels fell right off in October after that good run due to an unrelated neck injury. i just couldn’t play through the burn man. Seems to be clearing up recently so been slowly building hands/day again. But we are set back about 2/3 months which is quite frustrating.
2nlz 2023
5nlz 2023
10nlz so far
Can't complain results wise. I think I'm playing better than I ever have. Twatting about at 2nlz was a very useful exercise in loosening up my game and opened my eyes up to the sheer amount of opportunity out there even in fish packed games. Especially in fish packed games.
So on the theory, enjoyment, motivation front I’m good. Nobody needs money more than I do right now either so I am fully financially incentivised too. It’s just the physical grind I can’t handle, still. I have to keep refocusing on my health over and over and it’s so annoying. Like being stuck in a time warp of ****.
That said, this is also categorically my best year diet wise.
Just another 3-6 months and I reckon I’ll have cracked this no sugar lark for good.
You have to learn a hundred different things (cheats) if you’ve only ever known processed crap and that alone can be a long, tedious and exhausting process of trial and error. But it is doable, piece by piece. Can we please just put this shite in the curriculum next time please Miss?
Another positive. Love this more zoomed out tracking approach I started taking about 15 months ago. Very helpful psychologically. Got to train the brain that it's ok to make mistakes and fail, over and over. And over and over and over.
It's ok. Just keep trying. That's the formula.
Like poker at its core. Even though you feel like total arse and that you’re on this perpetual downswing when you pull back it appears, aha, nay sire, pain is but an illusion. Pain and discomfort, paradoxically, is often the reward of success. But why? What kind of idot designs a planet like that?
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Hope everyone’s alright out there. I know, christmas might be one giant corporate hypnosham beamed out by lizard overlords to slap us plebs into unconsciousness, but still. Instead I shall wish thee all a very happy new year instead.
Even the trolls.
Last edited by Ceres; 12-21-2023 at 06:38 AM.
12-21-2023
, 09:59 AM
12-21-2023
, 02:15 PM
02-13-2024
, 08:49 PM
Mid Quarter Update ‘Mad Progress 2024’ has been somewhat hampered quantitively because of this bloody perpetual detox but, that said, and more importantly, we have reached 65 days sugar free now. So, marv.
elous.
Plus... on top of that, we’re moving up to 25nlz at last.
35k hands, 6.5bb all-in adj, 20BIs... check. Time to take a shot. 5 buyins sounds about right for me. I don’t want to be looking over my shoulder every hand but not super worried about moving down either. Luck is luck. right. ...Right? Pool doesn’t look too scary but who knows. Gonna wait for the weekend, fire some bullets and see what happens.
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Health still stuck in crapsville for now. Haven’t managed to give up all refined carbohydrates yet, not completely. And as they are kinda the same thing as sugar as far as my poor liver’s concerned my immune system is still going haywire and making me PAY for 4 decades of shameless gut wrecking. I remain haunted by my former self.
Not much can stop the progress train from here tho and we just need to apply the same tech we used for sugar on carbs: a.k.a. relentless incremental progress. Like tearing off a plaster in slow-mo. Then, one day, it’s just.. gone.
I cannot stress how ****ing amazing it would feel to be well again after so long being sicko. My dream is to get to the beach this summer and take surfing lessons. We’ll see.
We’ll.... sea?
Ok, bye
