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Originally Posted by wereallgonnamakeit
This has happened to me before. I thought I was a much better player than I was, I was a "100nl reg", huge ego, and lost my 4k bankroll due to tilt. Ended up reevaluating everything, realizing I wasn't as good as I thought I was, and ended up getting staked for 50nl (demeaning right?), took the slow path, and after a year was up to 100-200nl and a much better player.
Worst thing is, it happened again. But at that point, I was more experienced, and caught my mistakes quicker. Again, I had developed a huge ego, and was trying to play 500nl on ROW sites, and ended up losing ~10k both in cash and playing MTTs (for no reason). Again, I had to take a step back, reevaulate, and get better at the game.
My bankroll has taken huge fluctuations over the past 2 years, from 0- -> 4k very quick, back down to zero, then slowly grinded from 0 -> 40k, then down to 20k, and from there slowly up to 40k again, even with ~20k in withdrawals. Now, I hope, I am experienced enough where I can at least control these swings to the best of my ability
The point is A. You are probably not as good as you think you are and B. even if you are, the mental aspects and bankroll management of the game is just as important as your poker skills, if not more. You need to take a break from the game (playing live is actually a good idea), study, and try to start again in 2-3 weeks with a better mindset and clearer goals about what you want from poker.
Thank you for that. Yea i grinded up from 25nl on bovada up to almost 5k and then the runbad started.
And you are right, i realize i do have a lot of leaks in my game so running bad took a bigger toll than it should've. Ive always been good about bankroll management, ive never gone bust in all my time playing, still not bust now technically, but its close enough that i consider myself busted.
But i got to a point where i just wanted to make serious money and decided i would be stuck at micros forever if i kept being so conservative with my bankroll.
I appreciate you sharing that youve been through it as well. The frustration of starting at the bottom again is hard to overcome when every big pot feels so much more important than usual and people try to give me their money and the poker gods wont allow it.