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Originally Posted by UnderCover_Pro
thepizzlefosho,
I can not tell you one way or another only you know your values and personal goals, in regards to playing or not and what will make you happy or contented in life.
Personally I dont like wasting my time as we have precious little of it to be wasting so if Im breaking even for a year and using my savings to pay the bills I have to seriously consider my options in regards to my future.I have stated before I dont think I will be playing cash regular online from next year due to a myriad of reasons all considered very carefully.
Goodluck in your decision and make the right choice for yourself and your future.
thanks very much. fwiw I'm not breaking even, just not making enough to be putting away money for retirement or investing. two things I was able to do for the first 3-4 years I played professionally.
and thanks for your input. I don't expect anyone to be able to tell me what to do, I'm just trying to see what others think about running awful and what their mindset was during it.
I'm trying to determine if running bad enough for long enough is what is making me not enjoy poker, or if I'm just not enjoying poker. If others have run 100s of BI below EV, and had a roll stolen from them, and their thought is that they still can't wait to grind everyday that would give me some insight. Or if others say they kind-of hate poker when running not even that bad it might give me pause about walking away.
I'm at a crossroads. I know I won't be doing poker forever. But I had hoped to make it to US legislation to at least have a shot at new legal games in the US. But more and more I'm thinking bad luck, bad timing, and my personal weariness of the grind is going to cause me to move on before that happens. It all came to a head this week when I ran 25 BI below EV for the week and then finally saw my FTP balance through an account audit. That was kind of like twisting a knife after stabbing me in the back.
Again if anyone has similar stories, opinions, thoughts, anecdotes, whatever I'm interested to hear them. I'm kind of using this Cheese thread as a chance to clear my head and throw a lot of stuff out there. I've talked to my wife about all of this stuff, and she has a very reasonable and balanced perspective. But she's an medical doctor so obviously has chosen a very different career path and has very different day-to-day stresses. It's nice when I can read about the thoughts and frustrations of other professional poker players.