when you said playing games with the staff i thought you meant like ping pong with the nurse.

What about when you were a toddler? 1st grade? or 5th grade?

Reason I ask, is that I really didn't know any depressed people in grade school but knew several in high school.

That too. But ****ing around with them is more fun.

No not that long. Maybe 5-ish years.

how did you feel when you came out of the hospital a few weeks ago

Like 80%. And I managed to stay out of the hospital for 15 days LOL

i've seen plenty of depressed little kids but for a while i was volunteering with troubled kids. but i see them in regular schools too. seems like about 1 or 2% are seriously depressed. i am talking about kids under 10

Have you thought of moving back home with your dad instead of living in Manhattan alone?

My dad is married to my mom, so no

Also I have no friends in connecticut and don't drive

Was this your first time getting treatment in a hospital?

Yep

do you think you should tell the doctors about pog and all of this

its a big part of your life

Idk

My wife is watching Grey's Anatomy.

Just when I thought Sandra Oh couldn't get any uglier, they straighten her hair.

hmmmm, it's weird that we are on this discussion but I feel like adding to it so here it goes.

I had a friend that committed suicide last year and that has forever changed my life. I get reminded of a gay friend of mine who has completely changed my view on things. When I was young (anywhere between 5-16) the worst thing in the World was to be called a ****** or a queer or anything homophobic. I admit that I contributed to this, there were these kids that were fat, ugly or just different in some way so it was an easy way to pick on them and pick up some cred with some of the "cool" kids at school.

I had this girl contact me about 3 years ago saying how much she hated me because of all the cruel **** that I did to her back in grade 6, she looked like a boy and was very awkward and anti-social so she was a pretty easy target. She told me that she used to cut her wrists and nearly committed suicide about half a dozen times. She is now married and has 3 kids and works as a model. She got back in touch with me to say how much I hurt her but that she wanted to let me know how good her life was now (I guess to rub it in). The thing that will always stick with me is that she said, "I wish I could go back and talk to myself at 12 and tell myself how much things will get better. That I don't have to deal with these ****ing kids anymore and that I wished that I hadn't 'wasted' those years. But here I am now with the great life that I have.... 3 awesome kids, a wonderful husband and I can pretty much have any man that I want just by showing them some of my model photos."

So back to this gay friend of mine.... I was talking to her about perceptions in society and how people seem to becoming more tolerant with gay people and she said, "Ya, well there is still a very long way to go." I asked her how hard it was for her to deal with those people and she told me, "Sometimes I just wish I wasn't who I was and that I didn't have to deal with all this ****." I asked her what she meant about that and she told me, "I used to think of suicide when I first came out." I asked her what changed because she definitely isn't suicidal now and she said, "People make mistakes in life, that is for sure, but killing yourself is only a mistake that you can make once and I'm sure glad I didn't because I see people's attitudes changing and I never would've met my wife or see see my dad wake up from a coma and tell me how happy he was to see me. Those are the big moments, but it's also the little things, like the late nights getting drunk with friends that I will never forget and so glad that I've had the chance to experience."

I obviously don't know people very well on here but I feel like there is a very strong sense of community on POG probably bigger than anywhere else on 2+2 which is kinda ****ed since most of you on here spend your days calling each other liars or try to kill/lynch each other over and over.

Anyway, I hate to see people go through rough parts of their lives and I admittedly cannot relate on a first-hand basis but I have seen it with my friends and others who matter very much to me and sometimes it might be tough to see but things definitely do get better. Ya, they will also be worse at times too but at least you gave yourself the chance to see things get better and then you'll reflect on the hard times and be proud of what you went through (at least that's my experience with people) and don't for a second think that you don't have an impact on someone else's life because you definitely do.

TL/DR post over

do you think they'll make you try to stop

Lol no way

A+ post steve. i actually teared up while reading it. i hope annie is in a place where he can take some of that in.

Does anyone remember who started the Literature Draft thread we did in the fall of 2010?

btw, i too was cruel to kids in school and it's one of the biggest regrets of my life. that's a big part of why i have done so much work with kids as an adult, to do what i can to make sure other kids get treated decently, and to keep bullies from making some of the same mistakes i made.

Annie you should tell them about POG and the time you spend on it. It's significant, telling them should help you.

I tell you this knowing the "risk" is they decide too much internet is bad for you. It is, of course, bad for you.

yeah

Lol imagine if they tried to take away my phone. I'd have a lawyer here tomorrow.

u cant sneak a netbook in there or somethin annie?