At least you've got a story to tell and it's all behind you. Your blood has boiled more than 90% of the people you'll meet. You're in debt though which must suck really bad.. gg. Don't ever go back to gambling, enjoy your woman and the life you're living. Poker teaches a lot of people to live within their means... eventually.

nice brag

LESSON - do not open these threads

So you never read a book, never joined a training site, didn't use good bankroll management, and never studied the game. You went on a life heater, and then lost it all and an additional $50,000 during a downswing.

Your story is nowhere near unique; you are the stereotypical degenerate. The lesson here is to pull out while you're ahead, or actually study the game and use good bankroll management.

FYP.

I cannot see why you would post this. You're not making a comeback, you're not going to prevent other degens from degening, and you still look at poker forums even though you're "renouncing" poker.

doesnt even sound like that bad of a beat to me. just don't play another hand in your life under any circumstances. gl

yes i want to see the live graph

Try hitting her.

<< I cannot see why you would post this. You're not making a comeback, you're not going to prevent other degens from degening, and you still look at poker forums even though you're "renouncing" poker. >>

The OP tells his true story, which ends up with him losing most everything. Simply put, that takes stones to do. It appears that he still enjoys "poker" to want to pop on 2p2 and share his story. Perhaps the story will help one person, maybe twenty - but it was a good read and makes you realize there are more important things out there.

o rly?

Sorry that my original post was poorly written, it was late and I had a few percocets in me (chronic back pain at age 23 FTL). I want to add more to the story and also explain what it is like to have an extremely addictive personality.

Things I didn't do, explaining how I lost my roll:

Lesson #1: No matter how far the drive back home, or how much you enjoy poker, get up and either cut your losses or take your winnings:
- I was playing in a WPT event at the Borgata (I believe it was a $700.00 event). I got knocked out fairly early when I got it all in with an open ended straight flush draw on the flop and bricked. I went downstairs and decided to play some 5-10. Within an hour or so I got a massive heater and had netted around $6,000.00. Which in a live game is fairly impressive. The problem was I had the next day off from work and didn't want to leave right away. I decided I'd just tighten up and enjoy myself (yes, degen). Well, I couldn't achieve said plan as I kept getting dealt some sick hands. I got coolered, blah blah blah, and lost every dime of that net profit back.

Lesson #2: Stay within your limit (obvious):
- One night at the 10-25nl table at the Borgata I was playing well and was up about 3k or so. I had just about 7-8k at the table. It was about 3 am and I was ready to go home. Before I could collect all my chips I was dealt AA in the SB. Without explaining the detail of the hand. I laid down my Aces on the turn when my opponent (tight older fella) went all-in. It was a hand I would have typically called at a lower stake and with less on the line. He showed me the bluff and I felt ill since he had about the same amount of chips in front of him. I then went out to my car and has discovered that someone broke into it and had stolen my GPS, watch, checkbook, and documents etc. ****ty night.

Lesson #3: If you get frustrated online, block yourself:
- I would sit in tables and just open shove a few hundred dollars if I was getting frustrated. I'd throw ****, break windows, hit myself in the face (no joke), and other crazy ****. It just isn't worth the stress and anger.

Lesson #4: Drugs such as Xanax, Klonopin, Ativan (anti-anxiety drugs) DO NOT mix well with poker:
- I always had anxiety issues and had a huge script of Klonopins at my dispense. IF you've never heard of these types of drugs they are used to treat anxiety and seizures. They make you feel euphoric, relaxed, but at the same time you get a "don't give a ****" feeling. I could go up to any random person and start talking to them etc. All my worries were gone when high from K-pins or Xanies. Well, it applied to poker as well. While on these drugs if I lost a few thousand I wouldn't care. The pattern would keep going on and on. Just do not mix these drugs with poker since you lose some serious discipline.

Lesson #5: You're never going to win if you are trying to kill a bad run in one session.
- I always felt like one crazy session could change my down turn. Boy was I wrong. It would just make me play like ****, chase, and make horrible calls. I was never patient and my play just got worse and worse.


It isn't like most of you haven't heard of these things, but I'm a perfect example of how not following above lessons will destroy you.

In other news for my birthday a friend stakes me 200 for 1-2NL. No biggie, but it was my first time playing in a while. My aces lost to quad twos and my queens lost to aces up on the river. ****ty day. Oh well, back to work on Tuesday.

wow, you are a degen...nh

did almost vomit ... when i saw how much you won by hitting a rediculous heater ...
but then felt better when i saw it was all gone ...

Serious advice man, dont ever ever gamble again, get urself a nice girlfriend, a stable job and just live life, you and tilt do not mix

Well, I just got a raise at work, start school in the Fall, and am engaged.

I despise poker, but there's always a part of me who wants to take 200 from my paycheck and sit at 1-2 at the Trop or Borgata. My parents got clean from narcotics 15 years ago and they advise me to check into GA or NA. I've went to a few meetings.

I found that working out at the gym and eating a good diet can help.

It takes balls to write such things down and put on the interwebs, even its 'anynomous'.
Stay away from poker or other gambling stuff and put yourself and life back on the nr 1 spot. Get you life, finances, emotions and so on straigthened out and try to focus on other things that make you feel good instead of gambling.
Allthough its probably a disappointment losing all that money and perhaps not even having a chance at those digits in your life again .. well so be it. There is more than poker ! Always remember that.

I always thought the Borgata had one of the safest parking decks...

but how much did u lose?

~50k

Seriously at times I wanted to drive off the freeway. At the time lost friends, was in debt, shattered credit, out of shape.

Sooo....

After a few months saving money, ignoring creditors, paying my insurance/car bill on time I went down to the trop in AC to play some 1-2 with some extra cash.

Two big hands I win...

1) Got dealt Ks9s on the BB. UTG limps, UTG+1 makes it 11. 3 callers so I decide to join the parade. UTG calls as well. Flop comes As 5s 8s. UTG bets out $35.00. SB calls. I shove 180 on top with the nuts and get called by UTG after he tanks for a while. He mucks after he sees my hand (makes me think he had Qhigh flush?).

2) Next hand I flop open ended nut straight draw. Get it all in with a shorter stack.

Few hands later, deciding not to play more and give it back I get up and go back up to my room. I ended the session with $700 dollars (Net $500.00)

I have since paid all my bills with this extra cash for the June month.

My goal this month is to maybe grind at AC during the weekends and win enough to play in a $350 satellite to the Borgata WPT main event (3000-200 1 mil garuanteed). I'm then going to win that, and write a book about how I was degen, still am, and how it paid off.

Thanks for reading my gay post.

You know when you have a family its a lot different, dont **** up their lives donking off your money. you're not good at poker you probably are really bad.