Join Date: Aug 2011
Posts: 761
HEre you sit thinking about taking life away from you, a nearly 30 yo man who has no life and feelling pretty hopeless with himself. But not once has he grapsed the bull of his life by the horns and made a real go in any direction.
YOU HVE COMMITMENTS so fullfill them prove the world wrong, prove your ability that has been holding you back.
****ing stop with the bull****
You fat
you smoke
you have nothing to show for all of it
you have bills due and although no debts, you need to be self awar of where you sit in life.
YOU Are 0 - nothing - a no hoper
how does it feel to tell people that you're a bumwith no job grinding $2 buy-ins? not very good.
How does it feel to have $2 in your name when you go to the club? **** house
how does it feel to realize the actions you've taken (or lack of) have put you right where you are here and now as we type this?
died at age 38 of lung cancer - a wanna be pro poker player degen gambler for micro dollars.
Doesnt sound fun does it? remember that little dash between 1987 "-" 20XX Brian talked about? thats your life between being born and dying,now lets get to solving it, making it better and be worthy of it.
If you take the plunge you need to put something on the line. Something that will break your heart if you fail this time. That thing will be up to you... " i will quit online poker forever " is that the bargain? is that deal we have? If you break this vow you will end up dead age 35 - 42yo degen gambler aka No Hoper needed runner runner, drawing dead OTT.
Where do you wanna start? Tell me the commitments that you have as we type this.
1.I have the interactive and digital media diploma that needs catching up on - Video Game creation
I have no routine or goals or plans i sleep n till what ever time do very little house work and leech off my misses (yes i manage to have one who has faith in me, probably saved my life a few times)
2. start excersizing - i am 90kgs 6ft tall so the fat is distibuted evenly across my body but growing a beer belly as we speak.
3. build up a solid bankroll in online poker and become rpoud of who i am and what my aspirations are.
4. eat healthy
5. save money.
6. quit smoking and limit my drinking to special occasions
7. spend more time with the misses and have an emaculate clean house!!
I promise to create a routine and become good at LIFE, no more thoughts on suicide, no more looking around the slot machines for dropped change so i might be able to bink a small win to buy my next packet of smokes. No more piss farting around when it comes to the passionate things in life.
""" I Luke ******* ******, solemly swear to begin changing as of today, if i fail at becoming good at life and give up on chasing my dreams or become lazy again I WILL QUIT ONLINE POKER FOREVER """"
I post this here as a reminder to myself and to be honest at where i am in poker. I'll post updates in few months time.
