Everybody's got problems dude... It is within anyone's abilities to be a winning poker player if they want to be.

You sound like you have little to no friends, and the friends you do have are probably as bitter as you are.

Stalker itt?

It is ultimately his life and his decision...

All we can do is offer him encouragement and support.. what else can we do?

I've tilted away my bankroll many times, but I am never going to do a medical experiment... well, not unless they give me Nintendo in the hospital

so sad to see the ending


even tho most of us knew the ending we still rooted for op to overcome his ghost ....


but he gave it a fair shot at least + nurseboobs made the thread epic on its own ... dont nobody forget that

Torn between deciding if OP should get lucky enough to win the lottery or something... or whether he's just a stupid degen... still seems like a nice enough guy though.

I vote lottery win.

I feel like I already know OP from reading this thread. Hope he gets lucky degening it up.

Hey everyone, this is the first time posting using my phone, guess we'll see if it works.

So I tried again and failed again. I'm currently sitting down by the river, I've spent a fair amount of time there lately. Poker fails to deliver. I fail to deliver. My 8k is dwindling, hundred by hundred, I'm halfway done. Destination bustoville. **** those that say I'm making excuses, I'm giving updates, nothing more. I have recently learned about my recent ex and my recent ex best mate screwing and hiding it from me for the past two years. Instead of being some brm machine I've degened off a large portion of my money. Have woke in my car, have felt there is no-one to trust, and to make it worse I feel no other place to vent to than bbv. Beat.

Lol if this even goes through, I'm drunk and trying to vent using a ****ing touchphone.

I got 5k left. 5k and counting.

5k! Man, you still have a lot of money. You need to use that money for something else besides gambling. Buy some pot and sell it! Use that money to make more money; much better than pissing it down the drain. Think about what you can do with it....you may have better options. gl

Op please quit gambling and take a vacation with the remaining funds. I want a happy ending.

Its still one buyin for a 25/50 game, right?

Audorin the MOTIVATOR is here to get you back on track.

Never Was Been, my man. WAKE THE F*** UP! Lets gather the last motiviation we can find, if it so means you have to turn every damn rock down with that river of yours! You are going to come out stronger than ever of this, and you could honestly not care any less about ex friend/girlfriend. They are just a nobody, but you know deep inside that you are not such a thing. You are something, you are something that is going to make it! And let me quote our beloved Sylvester Stallone.

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"

So hear me out brother, never give up. Those 5K is the start of the new YOU, fresh and ready to make a change for yourself! I bid you good luck, because you know what? I believe in you, I have faith in you. I know there is a lot of potential in you. Just look at this amazing thread!

I just got home, 13.7km ride,recently discovered that they can take your drivers licence away if your caught riding drunk (wtf). Guess I got lucky. Am stil drunk but less so than earlier.

Am drunk, lonely, and talkative, so if anyone cares to join me, I'm open for a little q&a... Although I have no idea what time it is anywhere...

Audorin, thankyou, and sly, for the words and the faith... It's good right now...... I have had an indescribable week, and yeah, trying to hang on.

Well, since your ex cheated on you, its perfectly fine to post pics of her. You know the rule.

Technically didn't cheat, just bad timing and bad decision to lie about it for 2+ years. Betrayed by two closest friends, blah blah blah, it's old now. I've had a week to degen it out. No pics, I don't hate her. She stalks this thread and I don't want to be cruel, not that she'd care either way.

Would like to have the balls to take 5k to a 25/50 table and gun it up to 20k, but I don't. I don't want to f*ck it like that. Maybe I should ring the hospital for potential toe amputation. I'd snap-call that sh*t no worries.

If no-one wants to q&a with me then I'm gonna pass out.

PS your a good bloke, thanks for following this thread from way back.

And thanks to all others who still give me something positive when I re-open this thread, it's weird seeing people following my story, and I know it won't last forever. Peace.

I can't remember from the thread. But do you have any education? You are without a job at the moment, or?

You keep telling yourself w/e helps you sleep at night

But I`m pretty sure you`ve tasted your ex best friend`s balls when tonguing her b4

Go on a vacation w the remaining 5K or spend it on hookers & blow

Forget about poker upon your return and get a job in the fast food industry.

Good luck OP

It really sucks about what's going on in your life at the moment, but you really should dump poker. I don't know what gives you the impression that you have a big edge in the games you play, however it would appear to me that being aware of your own intelligence leads you to believe you are an automatic winner.

Give up your fantasy man, you have $5k. Do you really want to spend that chasing an unrealistic dream of being slightly good at an internet card game? I don't get how you've got big enough balls to check into a medical facility to receive experimental heart slowing drugs, but lack the cojones to simply admit to yourself that you're wasting time.

Right now, you have an opportunity to do what you want. It's a small opportunity, however it's one that not many people get. Want to take a road trip through the USA? You can. Want to spend the summer touring Europe? You can. Your life is extremely short, don't squander it on a ****ing card game.


Aside from that, much respect for making this thread. It's been amazing to have followed it from the start. I hope whatever you do makes you happy.

Are you still at school? If yes focus on that. You are still very young.

So you did not pay for the car in full, and lost the $3k playing poker?

And do not mentally hold onto that toe operation. So if it is true and you are willing to do it, find out now. Trust me it is messing with you head.

10 years ago after I finished university, I have been in a similar situation. I had a contract job and was working for a startup. There was probably a 5-10% chance of not getting paid. I was owed $5k and the job would have paid $7-8k/month if the company took off (and probably much more over the long run). My boss was upfront, but unfortunately the compay folded.

Anyways, I degened off all of my $6k roll right before the company folded, because I told myslef there is only a small chance of not getting paid. If I did not have this mental comfort, I would not have lost all the money I had.

I was left with $0, girlfriend dumped me, and was too ashamed to admit to my friends and family that I had no money left. Fortunately I had a roof over my head but I lived on day old baygels and cheeseburgers for a week (spent $10 in a week on food).

If you go to school, the following cannot be done. However, I have found that the best way to break a bad cycle of gambling/drugs/depression is to completely remove yourself from your current environment for a week. Both from your current personal and georaphical environment. You could visit an old friend in a different city. Or go on cheap vacation somewhere....stay in hostels somewhere in Australia and meet new people.

this^. ICrackNuts: you tooketh my photo of my friend RoyBoy and usedeth as yer avatar, gj!

here ya go:

Lol I'm loving that avatar! Great advice too, Mick would approve I'm sure.

God my room stinks... it's that disgusting booze smell of rot. It's early, still dark.

There's nothing left for me in this town except bad memories. A month ago, after receiving my guinea pig cheque, my annual leave and student government allowance, I had 10k. Now I have 5 and change. With a total income of $350 a fortnight and my tendency to blow that in a single session of monkey tilt on Stars, it is logical to assume that this trend will continue until I'm bust. Something radical is required. And no they aint takin on any new guinea pigs atm, already tried.

Resistance - your post spoke to me. Others have suggested essentially the same thing, but I feel now like I'm ready to really listen. I have a friend who works at Flight Centre. I just messaged her asking what she can do for me regarding cheap flights etc. She is going to see what she can do. For years I've been searching for something and never found it. People have told me that I'm looking for something that doesn't exist - f*ck that. People that believe that are dead, or have given up. The way I figure, if you're entertaining thoughts of just giving up, then it would be insane to not do something crazy. The situation with my ex and my friend is f*cked and I need to put some distance between the situation. It's stopping me from being able to focus on things, and patterns are being repeated. I don't care how far I have to go, I'm not rotting away in this place anymore.

Need to find out what the situation is regarding getting a Visa. My mother was born in England and my father was born here, both his parents were born in Italy. Someone once said I can easily get a EU passport... or maybe it was a British passport...

I'm thinking of bringing my bike with me and using it to cut out a lot of the transportation costs of going to and from places. I am going to put a bunch of stuff on ebay to give me a bit of extra cash. There is a really sweet bike I've been looking at and if I buy it I will have 5k minus the change. I think it is a wise decision considering that I'll be relying on it pretty heavily. I will probably start local and see if I'm cut out for it, either here or somewhere like the Philippines. I'll see what my friend can arrange for me.

Obviously I'm very naive about this whole thing, and totally f*cking clueless. To add to this, let me tell you of another naive intention: I hope to supplement my trip with money won from poker. Why? How could I be such an idiot? Call it hope. Belief that things will be different away from here. That I will play better when immersed in a complete change of environment. I should mention of course that poker is in no way the purpose of this trip, but I do want it to be a part of it without a doubt. It was never poker that got me here, it was me. And I have the power to change. A $100 buy in game in a place I've never been before would be an experience. If I go busto in a strange city, hell at least I'll have a cool story instead of "yeah I pissed away my savings at my local casino and on pokerstars". And of course, I'll put everything right here, either in this thread or a new one.

In the meantime, I am going to do the smart thing and continue with my studies. But I'm also going to be riding everywhere, I want to strip every bit of fat from my body, I want to be carrying no unnecessary baggage with me. I want to prepare, physically and mentally. I've always looked on in wonder at the bravery of McCandless, Hunter S. and Kerouac and wished I had the balls to do what they do. I'm scared sh*tless about this but I will hate myself if I pussy out. Hopefully I can turn this into something incredible, or at the very least, make some awesome f*cking mistakes.

Any advice would be appreciated.