Originally Posted by RoSeeker
Hello.
Hello to you, too.
I have been alerted
Passive voice is great—that way you don’t have to acknowledge just how many people were doing the “alerting” and how overwhelming it justifiably was.
to my trainwreck behaviour
Way to keep it nice and vague—keeps the accountability to a minimum, don’t you think?
in the thread
Kudos to your attempt to minimize and isolate your villainy just to this “thread,” when in fact you have been violating the TOS of the poker site and misrepresenting yourself in coaching fora.
(thanks to everyone calling me a ******, basically),
If I had Narcissistic Personality Disorder, I’d extrapolate ONE person in ONE post (SJP507) calling me a “******” into “EVERYONE” calling me a “******,” because it would hurt me SO much that I’d have to exaggerate it so that all the lesser peoples could somehow approach an understanding of what it feels like to be me. Additionally, I would be sure to thank everyone for saying...what they didn’t actually say (but that’s beside the point)...so that I can be suitably sarcastic in keeping with my native feelings of superiority and perpetual anger.
and wanted to avoid the heckling.
and getting caught. Don’t forget you wanted to avoid getting caught, too. Let’s air it ALL out, since yours is an ostensibly apologetic post.
For any
You are not acknowledging it when you use that “any” weasel-word. It leaves open the possibility that there was NOT any. Using the word “the” would make it clear you acknowledge its existence and that you do not pretend there is any chance it does not exist.
stupidity and rudeness
If I wanted to limit the scope of the vast array of transgressions people perceive I have done against them, I would make a list—MY list—of what I want the record to show I have done. And I would purposely throw in a couple throwaways that just about anyone could be guilty of. I mean, we have ALL at various times been stupid and rude. But I for DAMN sure would leave out the big elephant in the room, which is the fact that I CHEATED in an attempt to STEAL THOUSANDS of dollars from innocent fellow members of my poker community. So your little attempt to keep it just to garden variety “stupidity and rudeness” isn’t fooling anyone.
I may have had,
There’s another weasel-word: “may”! So you are leaving open the possibility that you may NOT have had even the garden variety transgressions that I just said we surely have ALL had? Wow! Not only are you failing to acknowledge the cheating, you are leaving the door open to the possibility that you aren’t even guilty of human frailties like stupidity and rudeness, frailties we are all clearly guilty of from time to time. I guess, like I said earlier, if I had NPD I would probably think myself above ALL of that rot, too.
I apologize.
How very formal of you. Guess using the “S” word would be too hard, huh.
Also Jalex's threats of possibly posting up personal information, including where I live, financial details, and how to find me scared me
You should be scared only of the truth and people’s legitimate attempts to recover what you have stolen from them. If that scares you, then that’s a good thing that you are scared.
and made me stop posting and contact mods, I don't mean on "ratting out" on anyone,
This entire thread chronicles the very process of “ratting out,” as you so rudely put it. What you call “ratting out” I call justice. You dignify the undignifiable by calling your lame attempts to stop the truth from coming out by reporting truthseekers and justice-bringers to the moderators, “ratting out.” (Sorry for the awkward wording of that sentence).
I was genuinely afraid.
If I got caught cheating I’d be afraid, too. You speak truth here. Isn’t it refreshing? So simple. Four words. It’s interesting that you have to use the word “genuinely,” but then again, if my life was one constant con job, I’d be finding myself constantly qualifying things with “genuinely” or “to be honest” because who knows about the veracity or honesty of anything ELSE that I say or do!
Personally, I find this dangerous,
Demonize the truth-seekers and the justice-bringers. Only the bad guys are “dangerous.” Nice try on flipping the script, but it ain’t holding water, sir.
threatening, and, imo,
The only thing being threatened is your continued livelihood as a literally duplicitous scam artist and your share of the booty from this epic failure of yours.
over the top.
When spaghetti boils, sometimes it boils over the top. Just like the anger you have seen in this thread. Deal with it.
It is my understanding that 2+2 does not allow this,
Does not allow what? Cheating? LOL
but to show Jalex that I do not deserve this treatment, I have emailed PokerStars and FTP to send him relevant information.
so you say...if you copied Jalex on the email then this is the first concrete thing you’ve done right in this entire thread.
There is no more I can do beyond that to explain myself, afaik, whether this is a coincidence or someone else's fault.
So...your explanation is that it’s all a big coincidence? Then why (and for what) are you “apologizing?”
Nostalgica on pokerstars is a high school friend's account that I "borrow" to make videos. I have emailed PokerStars to "come clean"
It’s only coming clean if you confess before they already know with 100% certainty. Might as well try pleading guilty to get a lesser sentence...after the jury already finds you guilty. Doesn’t work out too well.
and explain this
What, because you had an innocent reason for this, TOO? JFC.
and will now stop dubbing commentaries with it. In my mind I wasn't lying,
People with NPD know they’re lying when they lie. You’re a pathological liar, not psychotically delusional. So basically, in a post that is meant to serve as some sort of an apology, you are lying to us about the state of your mind being that you weren’t lying. If you can wrap your head around that one, you’re smarter than I am.
but I apologize for trying to hide my association with it.
OK, this is good. I have nothing bad to say about this little thing here. I wish your entire post was of this quality.
I also believe that my use of two accounts on 2+2 is technically correct, and I did not intent to use it to deceive.
This would be a lot more believable if you hadn’t used it to facilitate your early use of both names to magnify artificially the “Gary should get paid” opinion during the very early days of this thread.
After this fiasco I intend to shut down at least one of these accounts.
I’m guessing this decision would be made for you if you didn’t come to that conclusion on your own. So you’re not getting any brownie points for that one, sorry.
As for my behaviour throughout thread, let me concede that I may simply be a peculiar person.
So you are CONCEDING that the behavior in this thread is because you are “peculiar?” The primary definition of the adjective “peculiar,” according to Merriam-Webster’s Online Dictionary, is:
characteristic of only one person, group, or thing : distinctive. One of the criteria for NPD, according to the DSM-IV, is: Firmly convinced that he or she is unique and, being special, can only be understood by, or associate with, other special or unique, or high-status people (or institutions). So I guess none of us lesser mortals who lack high status will ever understand you, in your opinion. Well, we understand your behavior as it relates to this controversy. We understand it very well.
I have acted this way because I am emotional and stressed
So you deny that you had free will and a choice of responses (come clean, do the right thing, etc.)? You are blaming it on the al-al-al-al-al-alcohol? Because you’re “emotional?” Because you’re “stressed?” I don’t doubt that you are stressed, and that you are emotional (I’m guessing anger). But don’t diminish your choices that you freely took in what you said and did, and in what you have not said and done, as well.
under these allegations
They are only “allegations” until they are proven. Your choice of words denies the truth. In that respect, your post is just another bunch of drivel just like all your other previous posts.
and threats.
The word “threats” carries with such a negative, persecuted connotation, now doesn’t it? There is truth in the denotation, however. Yes, you are being threatened, and you deserve that with which you are being threatened: Loss of funds that are rightfully the property of others; loss of your privileges to engage in online poker for failure to abide by the terms of service; loss of respect that others who have not broken the rules still have; and so on.
I no longer care about the result of this bet,
If I knew the outcome would be against me and that there isn’t anything I can possibly do about it, I would no longer care about it, either.
and as I am innocent,
Say what?
want nothing to do with Jalex's threats of harassment,
He never threatened to harass you.
which is much more serious than what I expected when I joined in arguing in this thread.
You mean to say “what I expected when I started breaking the rules,” because you didn’t expect the lesser mortals would ever catch you, did you?
Thank you.
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I havent caught up but just from looking at the last page, it seems like there is no resolution yet, hope one comes soon, especially since Gary's **** is frozen.
