Do you think there's some association between your addictive personality and your compulsive bolding of text itt?

Mostly float from house party to house party night clubs ect.
Very very good Question for me it is emotional I am insane and I know it lack of self self worth lots of problems trying to fit in but I had a great family life everything that went wrong was by my own hands and actions

Yes very much so

keep fighting the good fight brother.

OP, this part makes zero sense. You start your thread speaking about rehab and the notion of getting clean and sober yet you then proceed to tell us you still get high and drunk even though you go into great detail how it cause great harm upon you including suicidal thoughts. I am going on 8 years of sobriety right now and I understand how difficult it is to stay clean and sober. I wont preach to you about what you need to do because you were given the tools to do it, however, I can remind you what the definition of insanity is: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

I would recommend putting your energy on recovery rather than starting a thread such as this.

Most "real alcoholics" myself included, would applaud your ability to stop without much trouble. There is a always a lower bottom, usually ending in a long jail sentence or death. Some people have to get pretty close to that point before they can and really want to quit.

I think there are many with addiction issues that are psychologically ill. I think there are more with addiction issues that are just addicted. I think a very high percentage of the addicted people are perfectly able, capable, and intelligent in just about everything in life, except for when it comes to mind altering chemicals. Something happens physically and psychologically where a craving develops and they will do almost anything to satisfy this craving beyond their mental control. Per your question, yes I think that most have self esteem issues and huge egos. Huge egos and low self esteem is a recipe for addiction IMO.

As for digging deeper, this is an essential part of staying sober. Also known as the 4th step for those who are 12 stepping. As for myself, I have days where I want to be sober and I have days where I think there is no way im ever going to not drink again.

This whole thread is a good lesson for all of us.

You do realize that rehab failure rates are absurdly high right? I thought it was around the 80% range but from a quick google search everything is saying 90-98% failure. It seems rehabs are pretty bogus when it comes to long term success.

wow that's crazy if true

You said meditation was the best part of the day, can you expand on this? What kind of technique did you guys do, and do you still meditate today?

That doesn't mean rehab is useless. One time relapses are included in that failure rate I assume. Somebody who goes through the rehab process is clean for awhile has a slip up and has the tools in place to go back and commit themselves again should be commended. I would guess anybody that has had long term success in sobriety has had several rehab stints.

I totally agree. There arent many one and doners. Also, wtf with OP stating that he is high in an ask me about rehab thread. Can anything he says regarding rehab, other than how its structured, be trusted?

OP, I asked you if you had a prolapse since rehab and you said many many times. Please google image prolapse and then tell me if you still have the same answer.

Simple breathing through nose out through mouth with soothing music beeing played, I do it sometimes when I have trouble speaking
Believe me if you want. I stated this thread as a warning and If I help one person from making my mistakes then great. I should of called this thread ask me about failing rehab and life thereafter.
woops I am an Idiot just thought it was what Americans called a relapse

i bet i'm not the one itt who laughed at you for forgetting the word "relapse".

btw, i wish i had simply googled "prolapse" instead of "google imaging" it....

Blow isn't really very addicting though.

try railing some Oxymorphone (Opana ER 40mg, yellow stopsign pills) and get back to me

or any decent opiate is FAAARRRR more addicting than cocaine

sometimes i wish i could go to rehab but i've never been drunk or done drugs, so that might be weird.

I love it when a plan comes together.

Could go, a person there hadn't a drink for like 6 years but she was there for alcoholism dry drunk is what its called, still have all the mannerisms of an alcoholic but with out the alcohol.

why aren't you in rehab right now?

You can help one person..... it is yourself. I don't understand why you are wasting your time doing this thread when in reality you need to be focusing your energy on yourself and getting clean/sober. Priorities way off base.

I don't get the correlation between being high and retrieving memories about being in rehab

Was 12 steps part of the program? Were you not urged to find a sponser and attend meetings after leaving? Who decided when you were ready to leave? How long after leaving did you start useing and what drug was it?

how was rehab?