if we care at pokerstars writes you its nothing good, i have experience in that

and dont commit suicide pls

Read op, cringed throughout.

Awesome stars even have that kind of support. Take their advice

Just remember, laughing at me is like laughing at a person with disabilities.

I was chasing dreams, grinding stakes, putting in work/volume- everyday, I was definitely a hard worker and dedicated. non stop and it made me go crazy. Just as much fun the game is as a job, it can be very stressful when your financially in trouble. Because its hard to stay focused on the game mainly besides worrying about things off the felt. Its easy to focus, but staying focused can be harder then it sounds or looks.

I had decent success on Pokerstars, if you look at my graph.. but it was my troubles off the felt that kept me from being successful to this day. Things like overplaying, not balancing your life from off the tables, playing stressed out, worrying about winning too much and being in a deficit in makeup with investors can be hard.

I also had downfalls like degenerate sports betting, playing blackjack, baccarat and would chase my losses alot. As a warning to anyone playing poker professionally, be wise with your bankroll, be patient, don't chase losses and stick with what your good at.

Like Mike McDermott, I should of left myself with outs. Now i'm stuck humping crappy jobs on graveyard shifts. (well im still job hunting) Well I burnt all my bridges and owe people money. Be a lesson I learn and fix it. I guess making a big mistake shall let me learn and not repeat this every again while I'm only 21-22 yrs old. Before I grow making the same mistakes over and over again.

I will find a job, rebuild my roll after a few months of working, pay everyone back. And continue chasing my poker dreams. See now that I have no bridges and no one can trust me in the poker community, I can't play poker no longer. I really can't see how I fail. The only way is up from here.

I've sent out over 15 resumes online and haven't gotten any response.
I got into 2500$ in make up with my local backer.
So the only way back in the game is from my own feet now and I will decide never to get staked again, not that anyone will trust me, right...

Havent read everything and I don't know who your backer is, but most reputable reasonable backers agree that if you quit poker your makeup is void. If you owe any money beyond that its different of course, but if youre actually quitting poker there is no need to worry about makeup.

one backer,weve agreed on a buyout price but I havent been able to make enough money for payment and hes not willing to re stake me no more? another backer I messed up with their stake monies, so not sure where that stands. And the other two I rolled them to pay my degenerate bookie balance, I clearly owe them.

So you rolled 3 backers basically? get on the real life grind man and pay those people back.

gl

I was never a thief but my degenerate habbits caused me to roll them.
My gambling caught up to me. I split over 28k inprofits before this happened.
I'm def gonna pay them.
thx

Well as Rowniwn mentioned, you need to pay them only in order to continue playing poker, which I suppose you want to do eventually. There's no harm in chasing the dreams, just sort your life before everything. I have myself a fulltime job while I'm still able to grind okay sidemoney from mtts each year and I'm fine with it. Eventually something like SM will bink for me, just gotta keep running that marathon of all the tiny chances. Don't make it blind you though, there's plenty of profit to be made also on small stakes etc.

And getting another backers while you quit someone in makeup is a big no-no, will make you be perceived basically as a thief. It's good if you're aware of it now and want to fix it, but do it asap. In this case it feels like you're even more obliged to pay them, even if you'd quit entirely.

gl

This and only this.

FYP.

In after Wilinofsky.

Maybe it's time to retire bro. It's better to step back while you are on top. Go find a regular job now and remember your good old days as a poker player with joy in the future! Good luck.

get a regular job - dont commit - well done stars

Take a breather man..Stars is doing you a HUGE favor here.

JCTRANNY 1/31 Supernova.Freeroll, 100k ftw.

For real? That would be an epic win, glgl sir.

holy crap gl man

Im not op, I was just railing my friend and see JC crushing it. Could be truly epic!

GL GL

currently 18/20 with 10 beavers

not fair

18th for $4500

pay your debts op

Thx for rail, man some rail bird is bad luck, jkjk. Wonder if stars will let me grind now, would be cool so that I can grind again.

So close, 100k, Atleast it puts me further in life qnd can get priory ahead.

cosign