Firstly, I miss the old avatar. I get the point you're trying to make, but the old one was awesome.
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Originally Posted by Robin Agrees
A lot of the time I get unnoticed even when I do everything I am supposed to do as law abiding nobody, a person who pay taxes and has a steady job who never gets into trouble I guess I'm not entitled to anything which makes me think whats the point in continuing to live, to go on with life, to do what exactly?
You have more allies and fans than you think due to your postings like this. Life is a grind man. I know, it's brutal. That's why I often sympathize and try to find meaning in your posts that say "what's the point? work to live, live to work, no point, killing myself". It's rough. I think everyone just hopes for a better future.
The post about night classes really resonated with me. I have a difficult bachelor's degree yet I am constantly encouraged to pursue an MBA. I feel like I am being encouraged to pursue the degree because my bosses feel like they are obligated to encourage me to. I use less than 5% of what I learned in school in my day to day job. There is no way I could sit through the horror of a 6-9pm class 3 days a week and pretend to GIVE A **** about what they are spewing when I know it will be of little to no value. I guess my tolerance to bs is decreasing exponentially now that I am making big boy money.
What will make you feel joy in life? The simplistic answer is to do something you like. You really seemed to like that ladyboy show you went to a few months ago. If you want to go blow off a few hundred pounds a month playing poker, go for it. If you want to be a woman, go for it. Your insecurity seems to be in your lack of implied manliness. Maybe you really need to be a woman, or maybe you just need to ****ing hit the gym and find a girl with a tight pussy. That's up to you - what matters is what you really want. There is no need to feel like you need to be homosexual just because you feel you dont measure up as a man. However, if you innately feel like you'd be happier living as a woman, then go for it. You can't fake something on that level.
Thanks for updating, yours is one of my favorite threads on 2+2.