I didn't know fatigue was a common symptom when quitting weed. I've been sleeping 16-20 hours per night this past week!

I had a trifecta of annoyances today!

Bought some TSLA near the very top of the day's tech slaughter. Lost at poker. Car died on the freeway coming home from the casino.

I remain blessed.

A brief philosophy of life:

If you live a great and morally just life, after dying you wake up in the distant future as a sentient AI.

If you live a pretty good life, you wake up as a human.

If you live a bad life, you wake up as an animal, with an animal brain.

If you live a terrible life, you wake up as an animal with a human brain.

If you live a rotten life, you wake up as an insect.

If you kill, steal money, hurt children, disabled people, or animals, you wake up in hell for a length of time in proportion to your crimes.

Some examples of hell:

- Not being able to die while retaining some portion of consciousness
- Drifting through outer space in a glass tube for all eternity
- Experiencing a painful death in perpituity for all eternity
- Burning at the center of the earth for a long time, up to eternity
- Experiencing the crushing weight of a neutron star
- Darkness

New whip.

Same drip.

People often say that X sucks, along with the human race. I see amazingly touching media on X every day.

Let this brief video serve as a vessel of hope.

Incredibly touching and inspirational film. Watching that ending again brought tears to my eyes. I remember watching it just over 20 years ago, almost as if it was yesterday.

Thanks for posting it.

I feel like every time I post about something good happening in Poker I get temporarily doomswitched.

Dare I say I'm several degrees better than my opponents back home?

Beat: Electric Cars drain extra battery on the Highway.
Beat: It's cheaper to use a supercharger at night, but it also takes longer.
Beat: My side-mirrors don't always return to their saved position, so I had to disable the tuck-in feature.

Brag: Literally everything else. I can't imagine a better driving experience than what I undertake with a Tesla Model 3. Which came with a few upgrades. It goes FAST and handles perfectly. I've shared this with friends, and I'm a little shamed to share this publicly, since I'm not so materialistic, but I do feel like I have the nicest car on the road. I get a small dopamine rush every time I hop in.

It's the best. And it wasn't that expensive. Tesla makes the best cars.

I don't understand investing. I'm definitely not great at it. Perhaps surprisingly, I did very well in Finance and Econ back in college.

Maybe I've just been unlucky in the few times I've dabbled. Maybe not.

AORN I've made a long-term commitment into investing in Tesla. I love their products, and have hope that their stock will go up sometime in the next 20-40 years.

I'm meeting with a Merrill Lynch salesman later today, and will be asking him questions he doesn't normally field, like about variance, and how their securities perform in bad market conditions. I'm probably just going to pick out a CD though, they get around 5% returns....when I was fiddling with their online service, my questionaire returned 'medium risk tolerance' and I was offered a mutual fund expecting to return 342% in the next three years, which sounds like complete bullshit. They also take a fraction of a percent in fees on the account balance every month which seems unfair.

I wish I had a friend who was a goat financial advisor. I'm lucky to have friends at all, and there are aspects of merit to their opinions which I often seek out.

The 2nd beat ended up being incorrect. Cheaper, and the same speed.

That time I sat at my keyboard with nothing in mind to write . . .

Cause in a sky, in a sky full of stars .... I think I saw you.

Warning:

Politics Ahead


The more I try to stay out of thinking about politics, I realize it is futile. I can't avoid reading about it online, or hearing elsewhere, which jostles awake my ongoing conception of understanding what in the Sam-**** is happening. My up to date rendering of what the newest amazing lie is, or what is abjectly stupid, is that Kamala is willing to play super dirty to convince people to vote for her. I believe when winning is the absolute, it drives things like right and wrong away or deep into the ground. When an athlete on the Lions steps on an opposing player, on let's say the Packers, I don't feel as disturbed as when an athlete of another team does something similar against my team. EVERYONE IS VICTIM OF THIS. Biases are innate and they are everywhere and that's just ****ing unfortunate but I guess all you can do is be aware that it's happening as a step(1). But beyond that I don't think there is a way to make anyone else but yourself less wrong.

It was annoying to see an advertisement specfically on an issue Trump said he was against doing, claiming that he will absolutely pull the plug on said issue, with no other substance besides very affective phrasings and motifs. Lying is bad, but there are degrees of lies that are slightly bad ranging to abhorrent. For example, when Trump said he will end war number X on day number Y in office, he probably won't, he knows this most likely, and therefore it is a lie. But it's not an abhorrent lie, because if you challenged it, you would be misanthropic even if correct. Going around proclaiming that a war must go on produces no affection. But saying Trump probably won't slam the breaks on most people's abillity to choose, is an attempt to restore order, which seems virtuous, AS CRAZY AS THAT SOUNDS, sometimes negating Trump doesn't equal good.

Which I can only conclude that Trump isn't being entirely Evil, nor is Kamala being entirely Good. That annoys me because her message is that she is the Good One.

Good One, Kamala. That's what I have to say to you. That is the reason you won't win in November. Your incongruence is palpable and people really don't like that.

One time I wrote about politics in my blog, and my blog died of sorrow a day later.

RIP to this blog.

Those left standing
Will make millions
Writing books
On the way it should have been

I feel kind of tired of poker, or depressed in general.

Every so often it bubbled to the surface. My life is pretty dumb and meaningless. It doesn't have to be cause and effect... just facts.

Planning on taking a few days to re charge. But I dunno... it might not help.

That politics post feels pretty bad. The saving grace is it's a lame topic on its own.

The major downside is it's a lame topic, as well. I want to vote in the election, and I want to make an informed decision. I take in bits of information through my looking glass and try to piece together the puzzle. Unfortunately it all seems extremely negative, derisive, repetitive, and empty.

The more I gather, the worse it feels. There should be a zone for good-natured simple minded people to experience politics. But it seems the well has been overrun by poison.

I will keep drawing water. It's my civic duty to feel miserable I guess.

I think I'm going to write a story... not sure about what.

Maybe I'll start writing about the details of something random, and that will evolve into something whole.

My strengths as a writer:
- Consistency with punctuation
- Phonetically pleasing
- Capacity for imagination

Weaknesses:
- Not adept at changing voice
- Dialogue, in general
- Occasional drifts from harmony

No matter where you are
I can still hear you when you dream
You traveled very far
You traveled far like a star
That you are