Blog writing just to get by
Stack your posts 'til they get sky high
- Kanye West
The 20th anniversery of my first time playing poker recently passed. It was during halftime of a Carolina Panthers playoff game. We sat around playing LHE (.5/1). I was the big loser.
A couple million hands of online poker later, with intermittent spurts of live poker, I am ready to declare myself a Live Pro and embark on a journey destined for sucess.
Despite disliking the game at times, I've never really loathed it. I've burned out plenty of times from going overboard with volume. But I've never hated the idea of playing. I hope given my very long trek of enjoying poker, that it will be a non-burden until I'm dead.
I really like the idea of playing for the rest of my life, as crucifiable as that sounds! While I don't love the casino environment, it's something I tolerate, I really enjoy playing number games with goofballs. I love not having a schedule, and having nobody I have to report to. I love playing a game. I love being good at a game, at least relative to those around me.
What I love most is making big hands. Re-reading what I just wrote, it sounds amateure-ish, but it's true. After infinity hours of playing, I still get a buzz when I flop well. It's fairly uncommon to go an entire day without making a hand, so it's a daily rush of blood to the head.
I'm still not great when pots get huge. When they become 4-digits I kind of lose the abillity to think and just put the money in. This will improve with time and experience playing bigger games - which I hope to do later this year. I could play $2/5 now, many knowledgable folks would consider it a mistake not to, but my gut says I should spend a few more months winning consistently at $1/3. And Doyle said to always trust your guts.
I think my 1st order of image (how I look when I sit down) overrides all sensibility of my opponents. I wear a hoodie, headphones, and play very few hands. I'll even openly talk about how tight I am when others comment about it. You would think the locals would stop paying me off but it doesn't seem like the case at all. They might view me as someone aggressive and unpredictable just from how I look, which is all very comical to me.
But I do the same with OMC's before playing a couple orbits with 'em. Same goes for stereotyping ethnic groups. The difference is that I adjust; my opponents don't.
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It's 5am, my sleep schedule is revolving, and I'm just killing time before going off to the casino.
Curry is a new thing in my life and it is wonderful. I've been eating Thai food more than any other since high school. I've never ordered curry until a few weeks ago for some reason. Creature of habit, spectrum trait, I dunno, my method of madness does not matter very much. But wow, my first spoonful of Green Curry is the best part of my day! My stomach is getting older and I really shouldn't be ordering level 10 spice, I have been paying the price all night long, lol.
I'm watching a Chess 960 tournament taking place in Germany. The guys are doing their thing...I am a massive degenerate when it comes to watching chess. I don't even like playing anymore, it's mental torture, I might even say I hate it, yet I have no issue watching the best in the world go to work. Which is kind of a curious thing; any psychologists wish to chime in?
My chess fascination is comparable in a way to being okay at writing while having nothing to write about. I'd like to update this blog with passionate entries more regularly. But as I've echoed earlier on, I am mostly a boring person with average abilities. It tickles me that this thread has thousands of views, even if all threads receive the same notice. I wish I could dance for you more often, but I don't have much of any rhythm.
Black Guys - Better card sense than average.
Asian Guys - More unpredictable and braver than average.
Hispanic Guys - Have to wait and see, a little bit of everything.
Women - Spew machines
Asian Women - Usually good players
I'm looking forward to moving back to Michigan in May.
While Vegas is fine, I can replicate my daily life almost the same back home.
One thing I want to do back home is link up with a friend who has become skilled at music. I want to become a serious guitar player, play gigs, and eventually find success. It feels like contemporary music is at a low point - what people typically like actually flat out sucks.
I don't have an amplifier out here, and I don't feel much desire to play. But I plan on learning to be more musically inclined in the future.
Oddly enough, because he was being a drunk ******* earlier on and was right next to me, I had imagined him punching me in the arm followed by me biting his face off.
Quantum tunneling is a phenomenon in which particles penetrate a potential energy barrier with a height greater than the total energy of the particles. The phenomenon is interesting and important because it violates the principles of classical mechanics. Quantum tunneling is important in models of the Sun and has a wide range of applications, such as the scanning tunneling microscope and the tunnel diode.
To illustrate quantum tunneling, consider a ball rolling along a surface with a kinetic energy of 100 J. As the ball rolls, it encounters a hill. The potential energy of the ball placed atop the hill is 10 J. Therefore, the ball (with 100 J of kinetic energy) easily rolls over the hill and continues on. In classical mechanics, the probability that the ball passes over the hill is exactly 1—it makes it over every time. If, however, the height of the hill is increased—a ball placed atop the hill has a potential energy of 200 J—the ball proceeds only part of the way up the hill, stops, and returns in the direction it came. The total energy of the ball is converted entirely into potential energy before it can reach the top of the hill. We do not expect, even after repeated attempts, for the 100-J ball to ever be found beyond the hill. Therefore, the probability that the ball passes over the hill is exactly 0, and probability it is turned back or “reflected” by the hill is exactly 1. The ball never makes it over the hill. The existence of the ball beyond the hill is an impossibility or “energetically forbidden.”
However, according to quantum mechanics, the ball has a wave function and this function is defined over all space. The wave function may be highly localized, but there is always a chance that as the ball encounters the hill, the ball will suddenly be found beyond it. Indeed, this probability is appreciable if the “wave packet” of the ball is wider than the barrier.
I started reading the new Mason/Sklansky book, Help Them Give You Their Money, last night before falling asleep. Naturally, I am a nit at poker, and am looking forward to reading about many fancy new ways to nit it up.
I like how they frequently mention that their advice is good, and that the reader is lucky to have it. So far that's all I've obtained from the reading. On page 22 currently.
I might have to read it twice to absorb the good stuff.
