So here's my story:

I had a normal life, just like everyone else, but last year, everything started to change in ways I could never imagine.

Fours years back, I started my own small buisiness, as a webdesigner, all went well till the last year, because of the bad economy, it became harder to find customers and to make a living, so most of the savings went down the drain and I eventually had to quit, hearthbroken. This was last year.

Couldn't find a new job immeditaly, got sick and depressed from it all, and couldn't pay my bills anymore. Couldn't pay rent or electricity anymore.

The electricty bill, was so huge, they wouldnt accept the minumum I could give without me starving to death so it got to court and eventually the ballif came and took almost all of my posessions, leaving only my bed and dinner table. And I recently got a bill from the same size for this year.

It sucked, but it's not the end of the world. So, I couldn't pay the rent either for 10 months, it got to court too and I don't know what's going to happen now. I have 4 weeks to leave. I will tomorow go to the social department and hope they can prevent me getting homeless. Don't have money to pay the 2 month upfront they ask when renting.

I'm so stressed out, i can barely eat or sleep, having constant headache (because of the stress i believe) and feel so exaushted and depressed I sometimes hope to just not to wake up anymore.

Even if I get better, find a job, I will need to pay off my debt for years to come, with all the interest rate adding up monthly,without the ability to save anything. I don't see any future to get a normal life again.

There's one way, wich could end the misery, and that's poker. I could move to South East Asia and live of the grinding there. It's way more cheaper then here in the West to live. And I'm not materialistic, so I could live there a minimalistic yet decent life on 1000$ or less.

That amount should easely be grindable each month playing NL 50 I guess.
This was the stake I was on, and felt I could easely beat it. Unfortunaly I had to cash out to get food on the table.

So this is where I kindly ask for the help of the community: to help me get a roll again and help me get a fresh start in life, a new beginning, pursuing the dream of becoming a professional poker player in Asia.

It know it sounds like begging, but I honestly want to pay back contributors, when possible. If u want to namecall, go ahead, I'm this desperate and have no where else to go or turn to.

Thank you for reading.

td;dr

too desperate; didn't read

Evidently, he has enough for a mobile or an Internet package.

Solid bluff line.

Not quitting your business before it went busto is probably a red flag to anyone thinking of staking you bro.

I'm on a unsecured wifi.

They took my photo camera, otherwise I would be happy to upload the court papers.

You sound like a legitimate soul who is eager to make a lot of money, and actually eat when hungry - both noble goals.

If you send me a PM here within the next hour I am sure we can work out some details.

No need for the court papers for your various lawsuits - I trust you were sued multiple times.

I wasn't busto before I quitted. I went busto after that, finding not a job immidiatly made that happen eventually. rather quick

And I never got busted on poker either and never would. Always hold a tight brm of minimum 40 buyins. If I would go higher, I would wanted even more buyins to make sure that would never happen. I took it serious and was working towards becoming a player who could make a decent living out of it. And besides that, doing some webdesign projects.

It seems I cannot send you a PM? Perhaps because of my low post count? Or do I need to change settings somewhere?

Sounds like tough times, but honestly you are not in the right state of mind, even if everything you say is true, to begin a venture of pro poker playing. You will most likely feel worse than ever the days that you lose money with it being so valuable to you and need to find something stable to help you get out of debt. Even if it will take forever to get out of debt, you have to start somewhere man.

I hope things turn around for you and you are able to find a way out legitimately.

I am looking for a go-getter, not someone who gets confronted by a problem and yields to it instead of finding a way to solve it. I say that in the full belief that your stake application is a weird fabricated level.

If you are actually as you say then forget poker (zero chance you can succeed at it as is), get multiple minimum wage jobs somewhere, and get your life in order.

I could play my best game and still end up losing. Nothing you can do about it. It's different when u just play bad and make poor decessions. Those days will happen as well, an off day. I always get aware when i'm actually not playing well and make poor decessions and then I always took a break or just quit for the day and start fresh. So I would certainly not try to make up for losses on those days or go tilting. Because u would just end up losing more. It's better to start fresh again. I wouldn't feel bad about it. Same for bad beats and variance, nothing you can do about it, why feel bad about it? It's just part of the game. If you can't handle it, you shouldn't be playing.

And thanks for your wellbeing wishes.

I was always trying to solve it, would take any job, I simply couldn't find any. The last month I just got sick of the stress, and i'm unable to work, I'm only a human, it can happen. The moment I feel better, I will start looking again for any job.

I feel I can certainly succeed at it, I can confidently say I could beat NL 100. Took some shots there and won 8 buyins out of 11 buyins. (Midstack, given i'm a midstack player.)

Being a winning player on that level, would personally mean I would succeed as a pro poker player, cause I could make a decent living out of it. I don't need thousands of dollars a month. Offcourse I could still try to up in stakes after that and see how that goes. But no, I disagree with you on this.

Understood. Best of luck with the poker career.

These forums might help

Staking:

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/135/staking/


Live Staking:

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/18...g-shares-live/

Sorry about your hearth

Guess what, I've had to cut back on family time because scumbags like you squat in my rental home. It sucks you are where you are but I know a kid exactly like you who never ever once took my advice about anything. He liked to goto the bar when he should have been working. I was busting my ass and he'd talk **** and laugh because he was having fun at a concert. I haven't talked to him in a few weeks so I don't know where he's staying at the moment, but he is full of debt and no where to live.

I'm guessing you didn't get to where you are by busting your ass. Man up, grind a job. And not poker... no way are you smart enough to beat poker if you got yourself into this mess. Also realize that every month you live rent free another man suffers from it. Landlords aren't just rich people living it up, and even if they were, it doesn't make it right. Karmas a bitch and you need to make good on your debts. Good luck.