Some pretty embarassing stuff going on in here, posting your own results in someone elses challenge thread, sigh. Hope u are doing alright shippy, we need updates

Someone mentioned a possibility that coaching could be helpful. I offered my services if he wanted and then got called out basically saying I suck and I post my results in response to that.

@Shipnickle, if you want free database analysis let me know.

Don´t you know how bad it is to offer help to another person here on 2p2???? Stop doing that asap, and start derailing threads. I´m sure you´ll become popular.

Thanks man Glad to hear that.

My volume is fine. I do have a full-time job and other stuff other than poker that makes me happy.

Thanks for the encouragement! Focusing on exploiting weak players and weaker regs is def something I'm working more on now.

Thanks RTP

I have no idea why you happened to get so much hate for your post. I didn't think you offered free coaching, and was more than fine with the thought that you were offering your paid services.

I'll PM you another day. Thanks man

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Life hasn't really given me a break so I will write a longer post when I have organized my thoughts a bit. I did win in april but volume-wise not a good month at all, and I'm fine with that. Me getting my head sorted out goes miles ahead of hitting volume goals.

Hope you guys are doing well in life & poker :-)

ttyl!

Keep grinding Ship! Ignore the negativity!

going to give my 2c:

why dont u try play more exploit? i think u are obsessed with GTO and solvers stuff...

If obsessed means I'm interested in poker theory then yes. :-)

Fwiw I play exploitative but I can definitely find more good spots.

I have much better results than you in high stakes play money and those games are tougher than 200NL on Ignition so I think if anyone should be giving OP coaching / database analysis it should be me. Feel free to PM me.

Lol Ship there are people fighting to coach you. It must be kind of flattering.

HU for the right to coach Ship?

no problem in studying more theory, but i think u would benefit a lot in your pool exploiting more.

GLGL

The absolute best thing for you would be for you to admit you’re not very good at poker. You need to start from there. This might motivate you to study more effectively and discover why you aren’t beating the easiest games on the internet for a decent bb/100

Uh what

Damn it poker's dead confirmed.

Ship it's been two months!

Give us an update!!

+1

Studying effectively is for sure a big thing and something that gets better over time. As for me I've mostly studied theory and areas I find interesting, because that keeps me motivated. Interesting doesn't always mean effective or particularly useful, in terms of profitability. I'm aware of this and priorities need some work.

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Like I mentioned before I've had some struggles. For years I've had low self-esteem, stress, demotivation, slight depression and so on. Nothing what I would say is unusual for a human being, but definitely something limiting me being my best self, which is not how I want to live my life. On paper my life looks great: I've graduated, I've done decent in my career so far, I have a lot of hobbies I like (including poker), I've progressed a lot as a person and I've got amazing friends and family.

My mind has been all over the place for several years, and it's gotten to a point where everything feels pointless because I've been unable to focus on anything fully. Every good feeling gets overwritten with something else, and every bad feeling is overwritten in the same way. It's hard to explain, and I don't understand it fully myself. But the result is kind of an emotional flatline where I can't fully take in negative or positive emotions. About a month ago I just sat down and cried, in a way I haven't for a long time. And it was one of the best feelings I've had in years. I was actually legit sad and could feel it to my bone. Something triggered this, and it wasn't random, but the direct cause for it was irrelevant. The most important thing was that I felt something, and I let out everything else that had nothing to do with the thing triggering the feelings. I'm slowly feeling more emotions, both good and bad, and it makes me very optimistic.

I've wondered if this type of emotional flatline is due to poker, but it's not, because I've had this for so long. But I'm positive poker makes people less receptive to emotions over time, handling a ton of emotional rollercoasters week in and week out, and working on making it less impactful on decisions. What I'd like to think is that poker helps you acknowledging emotions and studying them, but in the process I'm sure you get a bit more numb anyway.

During these two months or so, I haven't thought about poker much at all. Even though I've had moments where I felt motivated to play. Still gonna get back to the grind, but not just gonna jump into it like I never had a break. I'm feeling better than ever now mentally, and bringing back the grind is starting to feel like a good decision. Before the break grinding felt like an obligation in an already stressful environment with my new job and a list of other things, and I don't want it to feel like that, at least not most of the days. Instead of playing poker I've been been outdoors a ton, and socialized a lot more than before. I'm realizing I need to socialize a bit more, even if I originally though I don't need it that much. I also went to a psychologist a couple times through work, which helped me find a direction on what to work on.

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My poker goals have not been my priority for a while, and they might need some adjustments getting back. It is what it is.

Talk to you later guys Thanks for reading and making sure I'm alive lol.

Some pictures summing up the past 2 months:

sweet ship, glad you’re back and feeling great

gl, rooting for you

Glad to have you back ship! Always prioritize your mental health, and it's good to see that you took a break to do so.

Always happy to chat if you're going through a tough time.

I didn't know you were a golfer, what's your handicap? How often are you able to get out?

I‘m very happy to see you back! Every time see your thread to expect your new reply. I think every people will reflect theirselves in some time so that we can know the reality more clearly.
How is your job，accounting or coding？ GL!

+1

Nice to hear from you again Ship!

Cheers

Pleased to hear from you Ship.

Listen the great majority of us have doubts about ourselves and what the hell we are doing or what we want to do.
My only advice would be to focus on your strengths are and steer clear of what you dont like doing.

Nice to see you're back mate! Best of luck going forward

Hey RTP! Thanks man

Yeah mental health goes before everything else Thanks a lot man means a lot.

I started playing golf 2-3 months ago. My handicap is 25 right now! I play about 3 times a week with some range sessions when I have time. Do you play?

Happy to hear that. Sorry for the lack of updates. Good to take a step back and reflect from time to time, for sure

I work as an analyst, mostly clicking buttons in SQL and BI-tools. Not really something I enjoy too much. Would love to work as a data scientist one day.



Hey Faz! Hope everything is going well with you. I look forward to catching up on your PGC.

Good advice. This is similar to what I've been doing, and I will continue doing so. In what form and for how long I will be playing poker is a question mark, but I do enjoy poker and will continue the journey.

Thank mate. Good luck to you as well and looking forward to reading your PGC!

Hey man, longtime silent (pleonasm ?) lurker of this PCG. Very nice to read you are working on yourself. Hopefully you can keep moving forward! You got this

Peace