Hey all,
Sorry about the lack of posting. Anyway, moving along, it's been an interesting period over the last 8 or 10 weeks. As I last mentioned I had my fight, I went away to Indonesia and because of the latter I ended up playing about the same equvilent of one month of hours over the 8 week period.
Everything was going rather smoothly until about 1 week before I left for Indonesia. I had a rough little patch for that last week and ended up making a smallish profit of around 2600$ for that 80 hours before departing. The break couldn't have come at a better time.
Since coming back I was itching to get in and play some cards. Again, everything started well but soon turned again on me. After another 100 hours, I've made around 900$. So essentially the last 180 hours has been considerably below my usual win rate.
The problem that has really come from it all is my mental game issues. I'm lacking motivation, I'm not focused on the points I should be, I'm not enjoying my time at the felt anymore. My body language sucks and I know it.
Because of my mindset I have decided to invest in some self development with Jared Tendler. I've always been a big fan of Jareds stuff since listening to his audio books and podcasts. In the past, just going over some of his literature or audio has been enough to get realigned, but not this time. My first session is actually in 5 hours time with Jared and I'm seriously pumped for it.
I guess, in short, I've been more or less break even for an 7-8 week period and experiencing the less stimulating and enjoyable part of professional poker.
Something that has helped me motivation wise, kept me sane and paid bills has been my resurgence in the online space. I have been crushing online in both tournaments and and cash.
The former hasn't included any huge 5 or 6 figure scores but I won 800USD by shipping a 7$ 280 man multi table my first win in tournament poker ever! I've been getting strategy coaching with a guy from Germany and after just 3 sessions I've seen incredible changes in my game and results.
The other really exciting part has been making $25 per hour over my last 56k hands online. I'm 6 tabling up to 100NL and I've been ripping up on there. In some ways it's also had a negative affect on my mental drive in my live game. When I've been running bad live I just go home and play online instead of getting on the grind live. I guess the flip side of that though is its given me a place to get away from the tough stretch live and still pay the bills.
Got a couple of images attached of my live graph so far, across the bottom is the amount of sessions.
The other images are of a new device I bought called the Varidesk. It sits on your current desk and with gas lift (super easy) allows you to go from standing to sitting. A lot of talk around sitting being the smoking of our generation. Really bad for your waste line and increases the chances of all sorts of diseases. So I've counteracted that with the Varidesk, hurts your legs and back for first little bit standing for such a long time when you're not used to it. I think that probably means it's working my body which can't be bad I guess.
Cheers Mac
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