So decided to start the blog up again after a demotivated 2-3 months.
It was kind of a weird few months period for me where I tried to move up to 500z and over a small sample I lost like 20-25bi's but ran incredibly bad and EV was like down 12bi's. It was the first time in my cash poker career that I had ever had a downswing of that size firstly money wise and second in terms of buy ins. At the time I know I was questioning myself loads and was really hated the thought that I had found my cap.
Throughout my career within the police, my aim was never to just be a police man who walks around and deals with low level stuff, I always wanted to look for something more exciting and liked the idea of a challenge so I guess that is just my nature.
I'm not afraid to say that I lost some confidence and wasn't really motivated to play at all. The first month back in Pattaya I didn't like my grind setup and was looking for any minor excuse not to grind. This is super unhealthy in my opinion and it can spiral which is what it did. As well as that I had a live game I was playing twice a week and that went on for 15 hours a time so in my mind I excused that as my grinding and just did other stuff.
Now I have come to realise that even if I have found my cap for online poker it doesn't even matter. I know I can make a healthy living and live a very good life playing the stakes I play and that coupled with live poker when it eventually happens so it doesn't really matter.
Roll on into August and the same thing really. I would play like here and there at 200z and still did well but just never really put the volume in.
We've met like a group of 3-4 lads here and it all of a sudden became way easier to be distracted. They are proper decent bunch of lads and that can be pretty tough to find especially in a place like Pattaya. Was going the gym most days and then before you know it you're on Walking Street surrounded by girls drinking. Easy easy mistake to make when you're only meant to be going for dinner at 8pm and before you know it you're home at 12pm the next day
Also met some decent lads in Samui that live in BKK. One of them is a DJ and he comes down every week and DJs at one of the clubs here. We just all end up getting smashed and getting home at 10am all the time.
I was also pretty ill in August. Went out for Rich's (gingepoker) birthday and after food I had such an intense fever that I couldn't really appreciate him walking around all the bars saying '10 lady drinks'
I think I was sick for around a week and not really back to full health for like 2 weeks total. In the end I had to go into hospital where they pumped me full of IV drips for 2 days and then back out on the mend a full 7kg lighter! Perfect diet.
After this had a few chats with Rich about where I wanted to be and what I wanted to do. I have always said the highs in poker are way better than the lows. You can win 50 buy-ins and be like ah sick and lose 5 buy ins and be like ffs - but why do I think this? Why should I even need to care about it. Poker is just one big session and the swings in the middle don't even really matter. Trying to have this mentality really helped me just care less.
So anyway... middle of September, I decided to set targets. For September it was 50k hands because started half way through and from then on monthly targets are 75k hands a month.
I think having these targets are extremely important for me as it gives me some structure and routine.
I also said I would fire up the blog again at start of this month and I intend to post updates once every week and I will also try get back to any replies when I can. Plus more Thailand stories because that's what we really want!
Results for Sept 2020 -
Pretty sick that last day of the month went as pure as can be too -
Hope people are glad I will be back posting and let me know any ideas on content and can see what I can do.
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Let's hope the sun run continues