There will be no poker in this thread. This is about everything
but poker.
Okay, maybe I'm being a little bit extreme. But, by far, the biggest obstacle that sabotages my success is a river that ebbs and flows underground - turbulent at times, anxiously calm at others. It's a dark, pulsating abyss that threatens to take me and swallow me whole.
It's the mental. Or, in other words, me.
Who am I?
My name is William. I'm a 20 year old guy living in the heart of Melbourne, Australia. I've been playing poker since I was 18, and I fell in love with the game almost instantly. I've devoured Janda, Tipton, Galfond, Sulsky, the works. I can confidently say that I have the technical skillset to beat my current game, 200NL Zone. I'm currently studying a Bachelor of Laws as well as a Bachelor of Arts, majoring in Literature and Philosophy for the latter; although I've currently taken a break to pursue the dream. I currently tutor senior year English and Literature for a living. It's not stellar, but it pays the rent and food with pocket money to spare.
Yet the honest answer to that question is I don't know. Who really does when they're 20 and still green?
I want to introduce you to a guy named William James - one of the greatest psychologists and philosophers of the 19th century. He had been invited by the American Psychological Association to be a keynote speaker at their conference. Tens of thousands of people were going to attend. Thanks to his incredible reputation, people traveled from all across the nation to hear him deliver his speech, titled "Everything we've learned in the last 100 years of Psychological Research".
On the day, the audience was buzzing. The hype was unreal. When he finally ascended the podium, the MC spent half an hour introducing James, praising him for his numerous accolades and widespread acclaim. When the time finally came for James to speak, the room was utterly silent. He cleared his throat and said but one sentence.
Quote:
People, by and large, become what they think of themselves.
He then said "thank you" and "goodnight" before turning and exiting the stage. Yet with the advance of modern neuropsychology, we now know that this man was eons ahead of his time. If our subconscious believes that we're a certain person, it will inevitably influence our conscious to act in ways which ultimately fulfill that image that we have of ourselves. It's for this reason that lottery winners always end up losing all their winnings. Deep down, they don't really believe that they deserve to be a $5 million dollar person. They will almost always end up pissing that money away, whether it's through buying junk or lending recklessly. For this reason, it's so important that we truly and genuinely believe that we are the type of person that we want to be.
So to answer the question for real this time. I am an open-minded and hard-working entrepreneur who will approach my goals with courage and resilience.
Focus of my journey
I will be focusing on the mental and the emotional. These are my most gaping areas of weakness. I have only very recently just punted away over a month's worth of profit from 200NL Zone in one night at 2,000NL. Admittedly, this pattern of self-sabotage has occurred repeatedly throughout my poker career. But I am done with being a mental game fish. I will also be focusing heavily on volume, as I often have difficulty sitting down and playing especially when I'm up money. I will be relentlessly pursuing solutions for my mental game leaks, whether this be meditation, affirmations, listening to speeches and podcasts, self-punishment, scheduling rigidly, playing piano regularly or eating clean and going to the gym (I'm 6 foot and weigh 55kg lol). My posts will mainly hone in on these techniques, and I will weigh in with tidbits that I hope will be hopeful for all readers. Monetary results is absolutely
not my focus although I may post interesting hands now and then and an occasional balance update. Yes, all my hands
are tracked and I will post graphs from time to time.
Current Bankroll $3,878 AUD = $2,977.53 USD as of April 8th, 2018
I'm aware that I'm currently underrolled but I have roughly another $3,000 behind in borrowed cash and tutoring generously covers my liferoll expenses
Goals- Play at least 50 hours of 200NL Zone a week (10 hours per weekday). In other words, at a conservative estimate of 300 hands per hour, play at least 15,000 hands a week.
- Go to the gym three days a week; eat clean and well
- Meditate every single day for at least 10 minutes using the Headspace app
- Play piano for at least 5 hours a week
- Not a single drop of alcohol or drugs in 2018, including NYE!
- Be playing 3/6 and above by October 1, 2018
Thanks for reading. And welcome to my journey!
Last edited by MinusLove; 04-08-2018 at 09:00 AM.