Hello

I'm an 18 year old poker enthusiast from Finland and the point of this thread is for me to keep track of things and maybe list some goals and things about my poker journey and maybe get some opinions and feedback from this community.

I have played poker for around a year now with varying results. I mainly focused on micro MTT's for some time in the past months and I am a slightly winning maybe breakeven player there. Thing is I decided to start grinding cash games because the bankroll I need to sustainably play MTT's is something I have had troubles with. I have some experience from the cash battles and I have done some studying from gtowizard and watched some YT vids and read things on this forum.

I deposited 25 euros into my stars account on 21.2.2023 and started grinding reg tables 0.02/0.05, I now have 63€ so around 12BI on the 23.2. as games have been going well and I think I am easily better than most of the pool. I have played only 1800 hands though, so I must be running quite hot.

The main plan for me is to be able to play and beat NL25 by end of may which right now feels a bit ambitious but I have an odd amount of faith in myself.
I'm gonna list some goals and try make an update in the next month or so even if no one reads this, atleast for myself.

-fix tilt issues/stop playing when feeling even a little tilt
-atleast 1000hands/day
-go to gym 4x week
-buy holdem manager
-study consistently for atleast 30mins a day
-dont go broke
-move up to 10NL when i reach 15BI @ NL10

thank you for reading this nonsense

It is difficult to call such a responsible approach nonsense

Good luck on your road!

Hello dis the part dos

Welp when it comes to the goals I listed, I feel like i have failed on them terribly. Went broke in a few weeks or so with the roll I talked about in the post and I haven't met the goals I listed.

I feel like I took it slower with poker for a month or so and then I started playing MTTs again with okayish success. In the last 1.5 months I have won my first live tournament 1./20 players (albeit was a small one but the ROI was aight), placed second in the next live tournament I played 2./35 and online I have cashed for over 2000€ with my biggest cash to date of around 1200€ coming from a 220€ buy in to which I won a seat from a 10 euro satellite.

I dont want to sound like an arrogant fool but oh god do I have confidence in my game. I was playing the same live tourney I finished 2nd in around a week ago and my god was I in a flow mode. Felt like I made such good decisions through out the tournament except for the last hand which resulted in me bubbling vs chiplead. Might give you the hand history if someone is interested if anyone even reads this.

I have also had some success in the 2€/2€ streets which I played for the first time in a year this week. Game was nuts. It pretty much changed to 2€/2€/5€/10€ with a dude opening 200 euros in the dark. D: Got out of there with a nice profit.

If I had immaculate BRM, I would probably be sitting on around 2-3k€, but since I am a young impulsive degenerate I have taken some unnecessary shots which have resulted in quite big swings for me. The plan from here is to take it easy and start battling the sundays in the MTT streets and try to get in to some live cashgames and hopefully spin it up. Unfortunately the only game im aware of in my hometown is 0.25/0.25 which runs once a month or so.....

I have honestly had some problems with mental health for some reason. I feel like I have it all good but I still sometimes feel like I have a hard time. Been smoking the gas to help it but maybe I should consider some other options.

Thanks for reading

yeah part 3

A month has gone past since the last post. In july I had rather awful swings again, I really have to get more discipline in to my BRM and playing overall. Had a few deep runs, one in the 55$ Summer Saver Hyper, which I final tabled but unfortunately finished 7th for 750$ when 1st got paid 4.5k$. When FT started I was 3./7 = ICM suicide. Gonna put some hours in the lab to study the final tables and ft bubbles with huge icm pressure. Other one I ran deep in was a 7.77$ lucky sevens which i finished 9./2000. Small score. I also won a 525$ seat to a PLO secret bounty ring event, but even though im from Finland, my lacking PLO skills resulted in a bust before the money.

Really sucks to bust in the early stages of FT/ft bubble when the payjumps start getting crazy. Especially when I have been trying to get a nice score for so long.

my graph on GG since the start of this blog: (only MTTs)
https://gyazo.com/ed8ac23d5bfb8061272e202b57ad8bc9

As one might see; progress has actually been made. I feel like my game has gotten alot better in the past 6 months. Would just be nice to get some scores but I guess they will come with time. No need to rush it. In it for the long term.

Not sure if I should reduce or increase the amount I play the huge field MTTs due to the grueling variance and should rather try to focus more on studying and cashgames and SnG. Been playing some 6-max sng on GG and i feel like i have been consistently getting on top of those. EXCEPT SUNDAYS ARE OFC FOR MTTs

Now that I have finished school except for one exam in september I will start looking for a job since the results of this poker thing have been rather volatile. My mom is a teacher and she asked me if I might want to do substitute teaching for kids under 12yo. I think it would be really good for me. After barely living off of min wage poker winnings to getting to hopefully provide value to some kids' lives for a couple of months with a stable pay. Sounds good to me. And the hours are very easy; able to keep playing and studying. And as a cherry on the cake, the job would not be at my hometown but a hundred kilometers away, which I think is a good thing because I would be able to solely focus on poker on the side of teaching. I've been spending way too much of my free time doing nonsense with buddies.

But oh man I feel like I really gotta start building some discipline and good routines. I feel like it is a crucial step to get your routines good to set yourself up for greatness.
Been getting kicked in the stomach last few sessions. Lost a 400bb pot yesterday in a live game to a one outer. Got it in real good on the turn. Really humbles you although the beats don't really feel like anything anymore.

With that being said, I will get back to this in a few months again. Hopefully with some positive things. I feel optimistic and I have faith in myself. Still been struggling a bit with mental health and I got absolutely outplayed by a brbrbrbrr drum roll... girl a month ago. It didn't make things easier to begin with but I've gotten over it.

Thanks for reading. It really feels good to type these things out. Sort of gives me perspective and allows me to reflect on my situation. Atleast when I know none of my buddies or literally anyone who knows me does not have a clue about this "blog" I "write".

Welcome back to the saga...

Typing this from the back of my friends car on the way back home from the nearest casino. Today I took down the same tournament I have talked about. The one I finished once in 2nd, and the same one I bubbled last time. 665€ score from a 50€ buy-in. 2 bullets tho so ROI took a hit. Amazing feeling. Haven't won a tournament since may. Played very good poker. Huge for confidence. Lets hope the ball keeps rolling.

Ball kept rolling. Since the last post I binked a 950€ package to Bratislava from a live satellite. 550€ in buy ins and rest of value is in 6 nights of hotel. Leaving to go there on the 4th of september. Not sure whether or not im gonna play the main or split the 550€ in to smaller tournaments. Really excited. Hopefully trip goes well.