Added up my 2021 win/loss, if you pull out my high hand bonuses I'm literally at breakeven.

I'm a little bummed tonight because I feel like I have a come a reasonable way but that I'm still making stupid decisions. Although I guess I should take heart, I'm sure even the best of the best occasionally ask themselves..."why the f--- did I do that?" Still, being breakeven when I literally knew nothing about the game is hardly the worst possible outcome.

In a pro sense or even a rec sense I've logged a very modest number of hours, I figure 40 sessions that if averaged out would be about 3 hours each. Although I haven't logged my online time.

I'm looking to be a winning player at soft games. I doubt I could ever go pro as the down swings would be nail-biting and it's quite difficult and I don't think I could focus on poker for 40+ hours a week, that'd just get mind-numbing. But I see no reason why I can't show up and crush some soft games during the softest times for 15-20 hours a week. I mean hell the last time I played a guy was raising $50 preflop before looking at his cards at 1/2-3. But I'm a little frustrated that I know probability better than most people and am still not getting ahead. (Although a reg with bad math but 20 years experience is almost certainly gonna be beating me.)

By far the biggest problem I still have is that the theoretical GTO advice I read on this forum is so far removed from how the typical 1/2 tourist plays that I haven't been able to synthesize a coherent strategy to win.

My goal for the next couple months is to get better at playing JJ and QQ, I lose a lot of money with those hands and don't have an overall strategy on what I want to accomplish with them.

What do you think my goal for the next year should be? Good news is that I've quit my time sink **cough cough WoW cough cough** but the "bad" news is I just got a better job and plan to work two part-time jobs so I'll have less time but more money to throw at the tables.

Thanks!