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Originally Posted by DianeAbbott
OP is in a fairly comfortable position right now, relatively speaking of course, and that is the issue. If he goes to the casino and grinds he has a realistic chance that he will lose a lot of his bankroll or go busto without another source of income to turn to, where as at the moment he can live off that 4-figure roll grinding Runescape not having to change his habits or put in any effort. I suspect that when the roll starts to diminish we will see a few punts in an effort to get back to where he was.
OP simply doesn't want it enough, he has a great opportunity but he's not even playing, let alone studying. He has excuse after excuse. He should be willing to walk an hour to sit on a 1/3 table for 8 hours to grind $20/hr until he has earned the opportunity to play higher. Back in the height of when I was into poker and wanted to go pro I would literally wake up and turn the laptop on without leaving bed, grind for 16 hours and go to sleep. My enthusiasm has wavered over time as I've done the whole full time job thing, got a proper relationship etc, but even now I play more than OP. Anyone can sit here and root for him but if they are being honest, he is not a poker pro and will unlikely ever be one based on this attitude, desire and commitment.
I make similar excuses as OP with my job but I get paid at the end of the month regardless.
+1,good post.
When i started out live with close to nothing, and was grinding up my first real bankroll 6-7 years ago (like $12000 or something like that), i was driving to the only game available to me in another big city. I live in Norway where we dont have any casinos so this was a private homegame in the middle of Oslo: 1 hour drive each way for me.
I did this commute for almost 2 years, close to every weekend both friday and saturday. At this time i was working in an 80 percent position too, close to full time. So on fridays i would first go to work for 8 hours usually. Then get home, make homemade dinner for myself in order to eat healthy and to keep my food expences down, shower number two for the day and make the drive to the homegame that i played all night for like 10 hours straight.Often when i came home in like 8am in the morning after the 1 hour drive home (often even 1,5 hour during wintertime and snow), first thing i did when i got home is firing up 2+2 and discussing hands for 1 hour before even thinking about going to sleep. It was a freaking hazzle so why did i do it? I felt like i didnt have a choice, as i simply had to play poker.Ive said to my friends and family when we have talked about this that i felt that poker had choosen me, not the oposite. It was my biggest passion ever, so i didnt care- my attitude was that i am gonna do what it takes to play poker and grind up a roll for myself no matter what.
After some health problems and 2-3 years later i had only like 2 grand as a pokerroll left due to money was spent on life issues,private health treatment, old depth from my study days at the university++. I also didnt have a car at this point, and my closest pokergame was in another city with a 1 hour bus trip each way. I was once again determined to prove to myself that i could build up a roll even from close to scratch, and so i did. 3 times a week for 1 year or so i did the 1 hour bus commute each way, grinded all night for 8-10 hours and jumped on the morning bus back home. Even two of my good friends who knows me very well said to me that they coudnt understand how i could manage to do it. They said that they simply woudnt been able to bring themself to do what i did day in and day out having the stamina and willpower to go through it. My explenation to them was that poker is so important to me, that i do whatever it takes in order to play and do what i love to do- and the thing i feel that i am good at. I said to my friend i dont care if its 3 hour bus drive each way: ill do it in order to get to play and build up a roll again.
Reason i am bothering to share this OP is to show you what kind of determination+ stamina is needed to get anywhere,regardless if its poker or other goals you have in life that you want to achieve. If you truly deep down have a passion for _poker_ (not passion for gambling,drinking,action++), putting in the work at this point should be very easy for you. With your 10 minute walk to the casino it should be the easiest walk in the park ever. You should be excited as hell to put in massive volume at this point: IF poker truly is your passion and your dream of becoming a poker pro means anything serious to you deep down.
For several years of my life, ive truly been breathing,thinking,talking and doing poker 24/7, and ive still havent played fulltime yet for any significant timespan with the exception of a few months here and there.