Month Review

- mental game. 9/10. Its been a hard moment in my personal life moneywise , playing with pressure (short bankroll), always having to make cashouts, it was hard. I tried my best to change this situation, maximum effort I could . I was playing with low happy ev , ''forced'' to play, in annoying personal situation and running terrible !!! I like how I reacted to this things and how I played most of days. It was VERY VERY hard running so bad while I was doing my best with maximum effort possible !!! Now Im strong player.

- skill game 8/10. Most days I played well, there was only 2 days I didn't like my plays.

The day I tilted at hand 105k and few days ago at hand 130k. This day at hand 130k, ev line looks miserable, but it was lots of coolers... I don't like how I played in that day, but it wasn't that bad as ev line suggest. Day during 105k hands was the worst by far.

- happy ev 3/10. Right now Im happy with results and how Im handling this ****, but many days were annoying because personal issues, problems with $ outside poker and few other things. Running so bad affected my happy ev.

- stamina 9/10. Original goal was 150k hands, but I changed and set at 141k . Played 141k hands. It was harder than I thought .

- results



with rakeback $14100.


Goal for November

- Stamina: 120k hands. With rakeback included, $20k make me very happy 10/10, $15k 8/10, $10k 4/10, less than $10k I will be very tilted if this happens.

- Skill game:theres many situations I can improve and get a better winrate. Need work on my bet sizes too.

- Mental game is strong, but can be better too !

- Happy EV, start all sessions early, but don't know if will be possible.

1st session of November

Session Review day 2 November

- mental game 9.5/10 . Many sick setups, many deep spots where I had hands to call and they always had the nuts, lost 10bi after playing for 9hours and didn't let this afect my game. I ran above ev today, but there was LOTS of spots that weren't all ins and I run terrible which is very tilting. Felling Im very strong at mental game... I don't even recognize me how much I changed in this aspect. What I need to improve in mental game is not getting pissed/frustrated when losing a lot . This is having very very little effect on my game, the biggest problem is felling pissed . I want lose and be happy , just like when Im winning .

- skill game 7/10 . Played good today, frustrated with results. Long session, I expected better results.

- happy ev 2/10 . I didn't want play today , but would be the 2nd day in a row without playing, if I didn't play hard to catch the pace later . The session was long because games were very good .

- stamina 10/10 .

- results 10,3k hands $ +868 AIEV +654

Session Review day 3 November

- mental game 9/10 . Short session running good, but I was felling very strong, I was ready to run bad.

- skill game 9/10

- happy ev 9/10

- stamina 10/10

- results 2,2k hands $ +931 AIEV +293

goal for tomorrow is 6k hands .

Session Review Friday 4 November

- mental game. 9.5/10 . It was a hard session ! The day started terrible, -750. Exatcly in the worst moment of the session I went to change the music and put one of my bad run songs and because of that I time out and fold 2 hands. AAQ9ds and AA55ss. That was a sick tilt... for running bad and for being an slow motherfocker. that was very sick , sick timing .

- skill game 9/10

- happy ev 3/10 .

- stamina 10/10

- results 6k hands $ +772 AIEV +1848

Goal for tomorrow is 5k hands.

Session Review Saturday 5 November .

Another sick session...Another ridiculous terrible run .

- mental game 9/10 . Im doing great. Session was COOLERS COLLERS AND MORE COOLERS plus bad beats. Started -1,5k and recovered well, always playing well, not letting stupid things affect my play.

- skill game 7.5/10 . Played well, big pots i played very good, just 2-3hands annoying . I think

- stamina 9/10

- happy ev 3/10

- results 4,8k hands / $ -637 AIEV -138.

Goal for tomorrow is 6,5k hands .

Session Review Sunday 6 November

- mental game 9/10 . I tilted hard, but quitting time was perfect and I did 0 mistakes because of tilt. All mistakes I made today was because tired/not focus enough. I finish session 20min ago, ate chocolate, and still tilted.

- skill game 6.5/10 . During most of time I was playing perfect, honeslty very happy with my plays, but last minutes I got tired, lost focus and made slight wrong plays. Not big mistakes.

Last 600 hands I lost 10bi, but AIEV says should have lost only 4bi. Im trying to find where this 4 stacks gone . I found this:

1bi - set over set vs fish, I get in with 5%. Going all in is the standard play, maaaybe I could find this pre flop and on flop. Idk.

1bi - villain hit 2 outs on river. I had top 3 pair + nut flush draw in very safe board, I knew he was bluffing (previsible bet sizes), so I just call. On river he hits 2 outs and make a set. Id play exatcly like this if this hands happens again.

1bi - Fish 3betting 90% (lol), I flop strong 2p + oesd, but again he has a set . Would play again the same.

2bi, 500bbs pot - short 3bet, reg 4bet from utg. My hand is beautiful, but I imagine few of my outs are dead. With 100% focus IDK if I play the same. Close spot. By the way I flop nut flush draw , get in and lost. Tilting moment .

- happy ev 1/10 . I forced to play because its Sunday . Thats why I lost focus so easy and made mistakes and why Im so tilted right now, even winning nice money .

- stamina 2/10

- results 4,6k hands $ + 1221 AIEV +1031 . Very tilted, serious, how I lost this 10 stacks in 30 minutes, this is so tilting !!!!!!!!!


Not a session Im proud, could have been a lot better, but its important to remember myself that I made a perfect quit when I was steaming hard . Im proud about my quitting time and mental game, but not with my how I played today.

I already expect to play slight worse because Im playing high volume, but damn this handsssss........

Session Review Monday 7 November

- mental game. 10/10 . Its the 1st time I get a 10 at mental game !!!! Super sick session, really sick . Started running terrible with -900 in 400 hands...Last session I lost 1k in 600 hands and this was still in my mind, so extra tilt. But Im learning with my mistakes (finally), today I didn't want play but anyway I was with 100% focus. In the worst moments I put my bad run songs to find motivation and overcome this ridiculous bad run and thats what happenned.

By the way in the middle of session I lost energy/light in my house (3 times today, sick), and I lost good seats/tables. Not only nervous because of losing tables, but also because this remember Im living in a **** area of the city because mistakes I did. Extremely tilting situation, I was very pissed !!! But even on this maximum tilt situation I played well and didn't let this things affect my game. 10/10.

- skill game 9/10. I played very very good. I felt I was crushing everyone, I think one of my best sessions. The amount spots that I 4bet and they flop 2pairs vs my Aces/Kings, tons of situations like that, or perfect bluffs I made but they happenned to have the only hand in their range that could call my bluff, in a range with 100 hands... Graph says I run above ev but actually I ran bad today . I ask myself if its selective memory and if I don't remember the spots that this happenned to my side, if Im not overthinking this because Im 100bi below ev since I started this journey... Honestly I think its NOT selective memory, but not 100% sure about this.

- happy ev 2/10. Didn't want play again.

- stamina 9/10

- results 5,3k hands $ + 776 AIEV +454

Session Review Wed 9 Nov

- mental game 9/10. Hard session with tilting moments, I review biggest pots and they are rivering me all time in spots that its basically all in on turn . its so sick . And I almost never do this .

I only not giving me a 10/10 because I feel the last month terrible run its still on my mind during few moments.. today I started - 800 and recovered like a boss, but I was already thinking ''obvious, I always run like this''. Thats not a good mind set. But recover was perfect . Thanks to bad run songs.

- skill game 9/10. Ran bad at important spots that are non-folds on rivers.

- happy ev 3/10. Hate 0.5/1.

- stamina 9/10. Busy day.

- results 2,3k hands $ -292 AIEV +135

giraffes?

Session Review Friday 12 Nov

- mental game 8/10 . Ran above ev, but had a hard moment when too many coolers set over sets in a row and I wanted to get tilted, but keep focus and played well.

- skill game 8/10 . Doing very good at zoom. nice . Easy games today, I should have won more, can't complain, but tables were soft, feels like I should win more evbb than I did.

- happy ev 1/10 .

- stamina 9/10 .

- results 6,5k hands $ +1376 AIEV +705

Session Review Monday 14 Nov

- mental game 9/10 . Lost 5 stacks in the last 250 hands, very very tilting , HATE lose a lot when its close to the end of my session, worst felling ever. Was going to play 5k hands, but I was very pissed, so I made a pretty solid quit before that. Im in love with my quitting skills .

- skill game 7.5/10 . Overall I played pretty good, but 2-3 hands I could have played diferent. Wasn't mistakes.. Actually, idk, maybe I played well this hands, I don't know if Id think about this hands if I had won those pots... variance is huge .

- happy ev 2/10

- stamina 6/10.

- results 4,1k hands $ +591 AIEV + 564


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Plan for next weeks, until November finish is play 5k hands / day. If I do this , I finish month at my goal (120k hands this month). Only 1 day without poker until December, lets see.

Session Review Tuesday 15 Nov

- mental game 7/10 . Ran terrible, really really bad, def didn't play my best today, but the run was so sick that Im ok with how I reacted. The last hand of session resume my day : I 4bet AAds, weak reg calls KJT3, flop KJ3....

- skill game 6/10 . Because running terrible and low happy ev and overall not good state of mind .

- happy ev 0/10 . Eyes were ''burning'' before I play, plus I wanted do other things. By the way, Im tired of this .5/1 .

- stamina 5/10.

- results 3,7k hands $ -1017 AIEV -636

Thoughts: Im very disapointed with poker today, but important to remember that even in the worst scenario I lost ''only'' 10 stacks . Today was my 2nd worst AIEV results since this blog started.

Theres MANY hands when AIEV is lyeing, they floped lots of sets/2pairs/flushs vs my aces/kings in 4bet pots, its depressive . I didn't play my best, but played to win at least +5bb in this soft games.

All this hands made me play worse, I lost focus and did few misclicks because I was frustrated and not paying 100% atention. didn't happen to misclick any big pot, just small mistakes

Im so frustrated that I don't even going to have a dinner. Its depressive when everything happens against you... Especially when before play you were already thinking ''I shouldn't play today''.

Still thinking about last session . I review hands and will rate me again.

- mental game 4/10

- skill game 6/10

- happy ev 0/10

- stamina 5/10



Last month terrrible run is still on my mind. Sometimes I forget, but always in the back of my mind. Don't know how delete this from my brain, its sick . Im ~90bi below ev since I started this journey at September 20th and this still hurt me because its a money that would make big diference at my life outside poker and obvious at my poker game too. This 9k usd would change few things for me.

Plus playing so many hands at 0.5/1 is making me frustrated, pissed... have to cashout, so its hard to change this, hope I can change this at 2017 with new life plans .

Its weird that when I play bad I get motivated to play next day to prove to myself that Im very good. Tomorrow I will play 5k hands at my very very best mental game and at my very very best skill game.

Idk how I will run, but doens't matter, 100% focus, 0 frustrated with things you can't control.

Super sick you can run 90bis under EV and still win lol

Session Review Wed 16

- mental game 10/10. Started session with 0 happy ev, 0 motivated, running bad and not very focused . This is the perfect combo to collapse and start 4betting any trash. But not today, not when mental game is strong. In the middle of session I started playing my best . Usually when start bad, only get worse, but because my perfect mental game I recovered very well.

Worst moment I was -1,5k and honeslty I wasn't tilted... I was pissed, but playing good.


- skill game 8.5/10 . Started 4/10, but in the middle I was at my peak close to 10/10 .

- happy ev -0/10. Negative happy ev, I hate this.

- stamina 9/10

- results 6,1k hands $ +697 AIEV +929 .



thoughts:

at this moment I have higher winrate at zoom than normal tables !! Makes me very happy/confident because in the past I avoid zoom, now my results are very very good at zoom !!!! Probably just variance, but still , prove to myself that Im playing very good at zoom .

Session Review Thursday 17

- mental game 9/10 . strong.

- skill game 9/10 . games were especially good today. wish I didn't have to quit early

- happy ev 3/10

- stamina 9/10. only 3k hands, but was ready to play a long session. hope will do long sessions at weekend

- results 3k hands $ +555 AIEV +1227 .

idk what to do about all ins. losing so many ... so sick .

Start sucking out on people when you get it in bad (but still played the hand good). Will make you feel better.

I tried, worked fine! above ev today !!!! weeeeee

Session Review Friday 18

- mental game 10/10 . Stuff happenned on personal life (not much, but still, tilting stuff) and I didn't let this affect my game.

- skill game 9/10

- happy ev 2/10

- stamina 10/10. Because personal stuff I was very tired/busy, so playing ''only'' 4k hands is already warrior level .

- results 4k hands $ +446 AIEV +357


Have free days until Monday, want play 18k hands next 3days . Marathon, lets see if I can do it .

Session Review Saturday 19

- mental game . 6/10, but should be 4/10. *extra points. The biggest problem today is I didn't want to play, really didn't want to play, but forced to play. If I was running good, ok, easier, but I was running bad at setups, floping bad, getting frustrated and things just got worse. I was winning all ins , but overall wasn't running good, the spots weren't apearing, it was hard .

*At least I didn't 3bet or 4bet a single hand to discount my tilt stress, I win 2 extra points because of that.

- skill game 3/10 . Tired, not motivated to play , did many mistakes because wasn't focused . Games were very very good today, I just played bad .

- happy ev 0/10 . When I wake up I was like ''hey, I want play poker'', but after lunch I didn't want , 0 happy ev about poker. Will be 0happy ev until I clear some things that I have to clear.

- stamina 9.5/10 .

- results 5,7k hands $ +25 AIEV - 563

Session Review Sunday 20 Nov

- mental game. 9/10 . Overall it was an easy session, winning all time, but during 15min it was VERY sick. I lost 300bbs pot with KKxx in K93r vs 2 big fishs. The guy who pot/call has A764, nothing, not even a bdfd, other has KT42, no bdfd . turn 5, river 6, so sick. I just couldn't believe that happenned... 1min later I have nut flush in 100bbs pot, board pairs, I have to fold. 2min later again nut flush in 80bbs pot vs nit, board pairs again, he leads, I fold. I was so pissed ... very tilting moment. During this moment I was frustrated would hurt less this pairing rivers if wasn't 1-2min after that huge bad beat w top set. I thought ''this nits, if they weren't nits Id call and even if I call and lose its less tilting than have to fold because this nits never bluff '' ridiculous mindset haha.

Recovering and playing well after this was very hard... I could give me 10/10, but I have to admit during 10-15 minutes I was abaled by this 3 hands, especially KK top set. If one fish has 2 low pairs and other wins with KQ42, feels bad, but ok I acept, this happens ''often'' at plo. But I mean, A764, he has nothing of nothing.. how the **** he goes all in 3way and win ?

I didn't play too fast any hand, didn't 3bet or 4bet, didn't made any diferent play after that, this is a big victory for me !

- skill game 9/10 . Im playing very good, felling very confident. I think I will beat 2/5 next year.

- happy ev 1/10

- stamina 5/10

- results 3,5k hands $ +1423 AIEV +1261

ps: 2,8k hands behind the pace until Monday. Will be impossible play 8,8k hands tomorrow. Maybe I won't play 120k hands this month, but pretty sure I will play 400k hands this year. Maybe I play 110k this month and 130k in December, lets see. The best would be 120k each month, but maybe won't be possible.

Didn't play last week . On monday I was busy help grandmother at doctor, Tuesday I wake up early, was having bad thoughts, smoke a little, got too high, took day off. Wake up with awesome thoughts on Wed, went to gym, swmin, then I was too tired and slept!!! Thursday I woke up very sick. Didn't play because of that... Im not disapointed because I thought I was going to die.. After this experience Im very happy with everything !!!

All I could do while I was waiting exams results was listen to Bad Moon Rising by Creedence. Happy song with disaster lyrics.

Was felling good yesterday, should have played, but I love airplanes so I spent all night reading about that soccer team airplane who crashed at South America.

Session Review Wed 30 Nov

- mental game. 4/10. I run below ev, but not too bad, can't complain. I wasn't in the zone, was felling a fish today.. Idk, I wasn't ready, maybe because I don't like play in the mornin and/or because its been 10days without playing poker.

- skill game. 4.5/10. Wasn't in the zone, tendencies, had to look HM and notes all time, wasn't play auto like before, Plus weak mindset, didn't play well.

- happy ev 10/10. Can't have higher ev than 2 this until I clear some stuff . But I win 8 extra points for being alive .

- stamina 7/10. Should be 6/10, but all sessions in the morning I win 1 extra point.

- results 4k hands $ -1191 AIEV -884

Month Review - NOVEMBER

- Mental game 9.5/10 . I won 10/10 in 3 days, overall I handle very good annoying stuff from personal life and another month running below ev at poker. last month terrible run was still in my mind, hard to play well, but I did pretty good.

- skill game 9/10 . Im playing very good . Very very good, hard to see someone at my level at this stakes. But its plo100, very small stake, so being one of the best at this level doesn't means much .

- happy ev. 4/10. If count last 2 days would be 10/10, but its a month review. Started 1/10 and was like that for 27 days.

- stamina 7/10 Only 76k hands, 44k behind the plan, but I had few events in 1st and 2nd week of the month and got very sick last week.

results . 9evbb, thats 6.5/10 . 8bb, thats 5/10 . with rakeback almost $10k up, thats 5/10.




Goal for November is 164k hands to finish year with 400k hands. Oh, thats impossible . Goal is 120k hands this month .

1st session of December

- mental game 8.5/10. Running bad... Really cool that I was -2,1k usd at one point and kept playing well, the best possible at that moment . 0 tilt...some not perfect plays, but 0 tilt, which is very nice.

- skill game 6/10 . didn't play my best, but enough to beat this ridiculous nit game infested with lots of fishs . don't need much to beat this game . idk why I wasn't playing the best, maybe personal issues in my mind plus smoking too much pot in the weekend.

- happy ev 0.5/10

- stamina 10/10.

- results 8,3k hands $ -1736 AIEV -698 . Idk why session tab says I lost $1495, must be something about euro/pounds/usd conversion.

Session Review Tuesday 6 Dec

- mental game . 8/10. Playing more or less, plus running unfortunate spots, couldn't find my game, I was frustrated, but keep playing ok.

- skill game 6/10. games were ridiculous soft, Idk why I couldn't perform well today . No tilt, just wasn't in the zone .

- happy ev 1/10.

- stamina 8/10 almost didnt play today, but forced to play.

- results 4,2k hands $ -98 AIEV - 379. I found why diference yesterday at tab session and also today... it was because playing euro tables .

Im extreme frustrated with poker right now . I don't play higher stakes but its really depressive open lobby and see 0 tables running above 2/5. But the biggest reason Im frustrated is because Im not playing well last days, also pretty sure I won't achieve any of my goals when started this thread.

Last 40k hands Im only +1bb and results are slight losing (Im always below ev, doesn't matter what I do)... so sad this results at this stakes.

Because of that , my new goals for this last month is:

- win 5bb. I can make a lot more than this, but Im frustrated, burn out with poker etc.

- 100k hands in december .