Assuming this isn't somehow a multi year troll, but people have shared a similar thought process in regards to other forms of gambling.
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Originally Posted by Paisting
You can be sure if I ever win those money back that I will never be involved with poker anymore.
You are "playing"(gambling) out of revenge and lack of self control, this is a form gambling addiction can take. This causes you to not even care about the game you are playing, as demonstrated by you multiple times denying advice and even somehow implying you know better at any single spot than anyone in this thread.
Your entire drive is just making back what you lost, common events, like losing 80-20s, feel even more profound to you because it feels like its just another one you have to make back later, and you can tell it has piled up a lot already. This causes an emotional snowball, blocking out your ability to learn and even focus on anything else other than the sensation of "win those money back". You physically will not be able to do the things necessary to make money from the game, as you are only focused on the helplessness and events out of your control, it blocks the time and energy needed to learn the things necessary to make the bad luck not matter in terms of you actually making money. Your ego cannot accept defeat, nobodies ego likes that.
You don't see it, but your mind is telling you a false story. That you will get it back, and its only just a matter of time, not the effort of learning in depth theory or self control during volatile times. All this advice has probably been given before, but some days are different emotionally, and sometimes things can click.