now a days we tend to live to much inside our heads and conceptualize everything. overthinking is the biggest problem of smart people, we* forget to enjoy the little things, instead of thinking about it(ego), be, enjoy breathing, being healthy and be present when youre banging this chicks or w/e.

Its fine to have great expectations, but give yourself props every once in a while or just dont be a dick towards yourself
glgl

Maybe only bang chicks you enjoy banging. What reason is there to bang for the sake of banging, only makes sense when you really have to release the old demons and oh boy you will enjoy it in that case even if shes a fat lesibain feminist.

Can't say ive banged many lesbians

Sup mah dudes, Bena convinced me to update
Been a while, gonna respond to last posts first and then update with some results

Ty!

Cheers

Honestly im eager, but need to figure out all this seat scritping bs first

Im located in Bangkok but was in Ko Samui first Thank you and you too

Cheers, fun battling with you!

Lmao. I hope youre stiill doing it bro! Im not really doing it anymore, but I still dont fap much at all, maybe 1x week. Dont feel the urge. Sometimes feel urge to watch porn but gotta resist.



Absolutely, well said mate.

Obviously I only bang chicks I enjoy banging haha But yeah idk why I dont have strong sexual urges. I dont think its low T at all, im when im horny im super horny. Its just that i think im sometimes too rational and dont like doing things in which I dont see much long term purpose in.

Alright so I havent been playing much after Bali, I had some serious back issues and had a pretty ****ty chair (bought a sick one now)

I still have the back issues in fact but they have gotten a bit better. I spent alot of money on chiro and physio and slowly its starting to work.

I have been grinding good volume the last few days and I think its getting a bit worse again so I have to be careful.


Heres april so far:



This is like 70% 500z and 30% 200z when 500 is dead.

3k under EV but w/e I guess. Feel like ive been playing well overall.

Making some smaller mistakes, and made some bigger ones too due to not being completely focused during the sessions. Need to get that sorted.




Other areas in life are going alright, not super great. Gym has been slow since my back issues have been hindering me from working out properly. Additionally I havent been sticking to my eating routines, in fact Ive changed my sleep schedule to sleeping at 3am.

Tomorrow Ill think about how ill plan things again properly and figure out a proper routine again, and allocate specific times for gym/swim. Also meal routine. Im also seeing a girl atm whos a super good cook so might actually finally get into that more but I feel like I wont haha.

Also need to get back on the book grind for sure.


Probs alot more to talk about but cant think of much atm so peace out, gl and see ya soon <3

Solid update man, excellent results again. It's always fun doing battle, keep this thread going please

i like the thread, have similar thoughts on some stuff (vague/10 statement)

keep crushing mate (Y)

Lots of people have been messaging for update so here it is

Have been very focused on spirituality since the last post.

I used to be the type of person who instantly dismissed spirituality as some bs, probably largely due to the fact that I didnt really know what it was and just thought it was some religious nonsense.


A couple month ago I had, what I believe an enlightenment experience in which I saw "IT" - the true nature of reality, and it was absolutely indescribable, and utterly transformative.
I realized that this was something attainable at any point at any time since it was literally right infront of us, we are just unable to see through the vast and dense fog of our egos through which we perceive the world.

Since then I have decided to pursue enlightenment as my primary purpose in life (there really was no option ). Ive done alot of reading, thinking and meditating. Ive never felt so utterly grateful and unbelievably lucky about being here.

If you are interested, I can definitely write a longer post about some of the insights I have made since and talk a bit more about what spirituality actually is.


Either way, to anyone who is into meditating or interested in getting into meditating, get the book The Mind Illuminated. It is absolutely the best material I have read about meditation so far, and there is alot of nonsense out there, that just straight up misses the point.





Pokerwise I have not been playing much since I was focused on this. I have been getting back into it however lately. I have realised that it used to be way too much of a grind, more about printing money instead of having fun and enjoying the game which is the reason I got into it in the first place.

I am going to start playing more again and looking forward to regbattling highstakes soon. However, spirituality is definitely my primary focus. Poker and everything else really are just groovy things I enjoy doing on the sides.




All the love
CRAI

Would definitely be interested in a longer post. Whereabouts in Thailand are you?


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+1 , cool post

yeh classic spirituality and high stakes reg battling LOL GL

Great update!
+1

so which hallucinogenic did you do for the first time?

Classic

OP after his spiritual training and joining 500z again



Mr. Bison is ishter lol!

Vaaaaaaamoooo

Are you one of those people now who can enjoy meditating for hours?

After your poker success it's really good time to focus on yourself. You won't get many of those opportunities later in life.
I mean having all the time for yourself and nothing booked for months.

Buddhism is a very good way of living. Just apply it to your day to day living and be conscious of your thoughts.
The book looks really good!

Thanks guys <3






Yeah ive been meditating quite long lately and you can achieve extremely blissful and peaceful states in which you dont really feel the need to get out of.

Yeah the book is awesome man def reccomend you to get it.

imagine having the free time to meditate

Any other good book recommandations?

gl

Spirituality

Just like with every word, meaning comes from how we define it. I'm sure spirituality can be defined in many different ways so I'll explain what it means for me.

Every religion has the same core that seems to be pointing towards one truth. Spirituality is the name of the search for that truth.


I remember in my very early ages I was always a curious kid, looking at the stars and wondering where all of this came from and why it existed.

What is this universe? What is this existence? What am I really? What's the purpose of all of this?

I kept asking and pondering throughout the years but eventually I figured that these questions are not possible to be answered so I just dropped them one by one and focused on what is actually important (or so I thought).
I used to be very obsessed with self improvement and personal development and read many books in many areas. Spirituality always seemed to me some nonsense brabbel that people were into when they lost their way. That might be perhaps because many dont really understand what it is and are really just brabbeling about nonsense and using it as an excuse, or are outright scamming with pretend spirituality.


It's pretty funny, after an amazing year or two, I pretty much found myself in a situation where everything was exactly the way I wanted it to be. I definitely felt happy but when thinking back of how I expected it to feel, it was kind of underwhelming. Life still felt like it always did. Taking a **** felt like taking a ****. Feeling tired felt like feeling tired. Being sick felt like being sick...


After a while I delved back into pondering about the mysteries of the universe, spend countless hours listening and reading the words of humanities great sages and even more hours thinking about them.

As mentioned earlier, I soon came to the realization that they all seemed to point in the same direction and I figured that this couldnt be a coincidence.
Naturally this led me to dig even deeper.



Fast forward a couple of months.

Now I'm here and I KNOW as a fact that it wasn't all just some nonsense brabbel, but there is in fact this one truth and there is nothing more worth pursuing.

I now KNOW that life, as we know it is imperfect, insatisfactory, and Im not stating from a pessimistic point of view, but it simply cant be otherwise due to the impermanent nature of duality.

I now KNOW that there is a way out of this. "The end of suffering" according to Buddha or "salvation" in Jesus' terms.

I now KNOW that there is no self. The false sense of self that makes you feel like a you are merely five aggregates that you identify with.

I now KNOW that you are what I am, the whole universe.

I now KNOW that everything is empty. And you will have a hard time understanding this from a non-pessimistic POV, because you imagine emptiness from a dualistic POV, as the opposite of fullness. I'm talking about nondualistic emptiness, which does not have an opposite.

I now KNOW that enlightenment is attainable, and not just reserved for the Buddhas of this world. I also KNOW that nirvana is the most unbelievably indescribable ..............................



That's enough for this time. I have a hard time writing about this because I know how it comes across since I was on the other end of these kind of texts/lectures and was just wondering what stuff the guy took. But yeah, Id consider myself an extremely rational/reasonable character so take it for what its worth. For me personally, I am 100% dedicated and commited to having enlightenment as my primary purpose.

The power of now is extremely good for beginners, and helped me alot in getting started. Later on youll notice that there are perhaps some small misunderstandings, but dont worry about that for now.

ty


Poker
I've been playing poker for fun and these are results since I started being more serious about spirituality.

I find that I enjoy poker much more, have no mentalgame issues or tilt whatsoever, and also play surprisingly well.


Latest results, most volume last 30 days. Started battling some 1knl shorthanded towards the end




Also been doing alot of coaching lately, enjoy seeing students reach their goals.


Peace out and much love as always

CRAI

Nice results, you ever smoked DMT?

so, is there a God?

I find my thoughts similar to yours in my limited reading of this thread. I constantly question some of those things, how? Look at the stars and think it. Stuff like that always makes me think I need to scramble for answers and obtain as much knowledge as I can about the past in hopes to unmask some answers. I mean, I do look at our existence as a science project. Everything is made from nutrients; water, the elements, the sun, yadda yadda. In that sense, it's like things compounded and formed from the Earth's offerings, or in a larger sense, our galaxy's offerings. I think back to a TED talk I listened to where the author states that we are fish. Simply because, I guess as science suggests, were the first animal to have a backbone. One day a fish migrated onto land, it may have taken a long time and many attempts, but eventually, one of them became a land animal and reproduced(sounds ****ed up but this is how I interpreted it all). I saw a video of a fish jumping ashore on television that pretty much mimicked what the TED talk stated. It may not have shown the fish to human transformation on that show I saw but it showed a fish successfully get from water to land and survive, grow, and evolve, I guess. ****ed up ****. So, ya, enlightenment, I think I seek it all the time.

I have given meditation attempts but nothing has stuck for me yet. Some people swear by it. But, I do some small meditation. Relaxed breathing, awareness, stretching, just trying to be mindful and enlightened but I haven't got the Wim Hof stuff to stick just yet

cheers. Let's all crush **** today, be enlightened, mindful, beasts, all that stuff

Mighty fine recommendation! Read this book about 3 years ago and it still has a super positive effect on me to this day.