Hello. Long time lurker here blabla..

Long story short:

Beginnings of 2020: Living by myself. 25k~Bankroll. Small winner/rakeback player at 100NL,200NL. Decent winner at 1/3NL live (even tho, who knows playing 30 hands x hour right?) Anyway, working on my game and grinding full time.

November of 2020: My bankroll and life in general get eventually busted by non-poker(mostly) related issues. With a final degen 4 table 200NL Zoom session for my remaining 1k~ bankroll.

Present day: Have not touched poker for 10 months. No longer independent. Working and living with my Father. I have some free time for the next months so I installed my good ol poker client and found 12$ and some bad memories.



Right now i cant make any significant deposit, And I am not sure i would even if i could. Ater all I never put anything more after my first 50$ deposit many years ago. So technically I still never really busted right?

I dont even know what my goals are here, get in touch with the game again? but the challenge right now is clearly to not bust, wich I am aware doesn't entirely depend on me.

I have always been a full lone wolf when it comes to poker so I decided to change that and maybe get some direct interaction with the comunity. Plus I find this situation may be interesting for some people, maybe NL2 players? I dont know, feel free to accompany me on this (maybe very short) little adventure. I'll be playing and posting every day. Posting first session atm...->

Literally THE FIRST HAND:



PokerStars - €0.02 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

UTG: 79.5 BB
MP: 112.5 BB
CO: 124 BB
BTN: 125.5 BB
SB: 49 BB
Hero (BB): 100 BB

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, Hero posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has K K

UTG calls 1 BB, fold, CO raises to 4 BB, fold, fold, Hero raises to 15 BB, fold, CO calls 11 BB

Flop: (31.5 BB, 2 players) 6 3 3
Hero bets 19.5 BB, CO calls 19.5 BB

Turn: (70.5 BB, 2 players) Q
Hero checks, CO bets 89.5 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 65.5 BB and is all-in

River: (201.5 BB, 2 players) A

Hero shows K K (Two Pair, Kings and Threes)
(Pre 71%, Flop 88%, Turn 93%)
CO shows J A (Two Pair, Aces and Threes)
(Pre 29%, Flop 12%, Turn 7%)
CO wins 189.5 BB





Anyway... It went very good:




I am playing 4 regular 6max tables and I leave them if I dont spot at least 2 terrible players unless I have one directly to my right. Eventually I opened aditional 2 zoom tables because im playing very nitty and i got bored.


Bankroll: 22$

some funneh hands



PokerStars - €0.02 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

CO: 40 BB
BTN: 100 BB
SB: 143.5 BB
BB: 128 BB
UTG: 160.5 BB
Hero (MP): 103 BB

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB, CO posts penalty blind 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 2.5 BB) Hero has 6 8

UTG calls 1 BB, Hero calls 1 BB, CO raises to 3 BB, fold, SB calls 2.5 BB, fold, UTG calls 2 BB, Hero calls 2 BB

Flop: (13 BB, 4 players) 9 5 7
SB bets 1 BB, UTG calls 1 BB, Hero raises to 12 BB, CO raises to 37 BB and is all-in, SB calls 36 BB, fold, Hero raises to 100 BB and is all-in, SB calls 63 BB

Turn: (251 BB, 3 players) 9

River: (251 BB, 3 players) J

SB shows 7 6 (Two Pair, Nines and Sevens)

Main Pot [125 BB]: (Pre 22%, Flop 13%, Turn 13%)
Side Pot#1 [126 BB]: (Pre 30%, Flop 14%, Turn 13%)

Hero shows 6 8 (Straight, Nine High)

Main Pot [125 BB]: (Pre 33%, Flop 85%, Turn 82%)
Side Pot#1 [126 BB]: (Pre 70%, Flop 86%, Turn 87%)

CO shows 5 A (Two Pair, Nines and Fives)

Main Pot [125 BB]: (Pre 45%, Flop 2%, Turn 5%)

Hero wins 238.5 BB






PokerStars - €0.02 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 414.5 BB
SB: 49 BB
BB: 150 BB
UTG: 62.5 BB
MP: 79 BB
Hero (CO): 102.5 BB

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has K J

UTG raises to 3 BB, MP calls 3 BB, Hero calls 3 BB, fold, fold, BB calls 2 BB

Flop: (12.5 BB, 4 players) K 6 3
BB checks, UTG checks, MP checks, Hero bets 8 BB, fold, UTG calls 8 BB, MP raises to 76 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 68 BB, fold

Turn: (172.5 BB, 2 players) Q

River: (172.5 BB, 2 players) 6

MP shows 7 7 (Two Pair, Sevens and Sixes)
(Pre 51%, Flop 10%, Turn 5%)
Hero shows K J (Two Pair, Kings and Sixes)
(Pre 49%, Flop 90%, Turn 95%)
Hero wins 164 BB





PokerStars - €0.02 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BB: 106 BB
UTG: 107.5 BB
MP: 59 BB
CO: 41.5 BB
BTN: 135 BB
Hero (SB): 101.5 BB

Hero posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has A T

fold, fold, CO calls 1 BB, fold, Hero raises to 6 BB, fold, CO calls 5 BB

Flop: (13 BB, 2 players) Q A 5
Hero bets 4 BB, CO calls 4 BB

Turn: (21 BB, 2 players) J
Hero checks, CO bets 9.5 BB, Hero calls 9.5 BB

River: (40 BB, 2 players) Q
Hero checks, CO bets 18.5 BB, Hero calls 18.5 BB

CO shows K J (Two Pair, Queens and Jacks)
(Pre 42%, Flop 16%, Turn 11%)
Hero shows A T (Two Pair, Aces and Queens)
(Pre 58%, Flop 84%, Turn 89%)
Hero wins 72.5 BB





PokerStars - €0.02 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

UTG: 92 BB
MP: 69 BB
CO: 43.5 BB
BTN: 127.5 BB
Hero (SB): 132 BB
BB: 56.5 BB

Hero posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has A A

UTG raises to 92 BB and is all-in, fold, fold, fold, Hero calls 91.5 BB, fold

Flop: (185 BB, 2 players) 2 T K

Turn: (185 BB, 2 players) 6

River: (185 BB, 2 players) K

Hero shows A A (Two Pair, Aces and Kings)
(Pre 83%, Flop 77%, Turn 91%)
UTG shows J 9 (One Pair, Kings)
(Pre 17%, Flop 23%, Turn 9%)
Hero wins 174 BB




PokerStars - €0.02 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 86.5 BB
SB: 240 BB
BB: 32.5 BB
UTG: 506 BB
MP: 101.5 BB
Hero (CO): 116 BB

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has K Q

fold, fold, Hero raises to 3 BB, BTN calls 3 BB, fold, fold

Flop: (7.5 BB, 2 players) 5 K J
Hero bets 4.5 BB, BTN calls 4.5 BB

Turn: (16.5 BB, 2 players) 8
Hero bets 10.5 BB, BTN raises to 21 BB, Hero calls 10.5 BB

River: (58.5 BB, 2 players) 4
Hero checks, BTN bets 55.5 BB, Hero calls 55.5 BB

BTN shows K 4 (Two Pair, Kings and Fours)
(Pre 31%, Flop 12%, Turn 7%)
Hero mucks K Q (One Pair, Kings)
(Pre 69%, Flop 88%, Turn 93%)
BTN wins 161 BB


I mostly played zoom today, wich may be a bad idea considering how stupid juicy the regular tables are.


I can feel my game is degrading hand by hand. I have issues trying to balance NL2 rake with how proffitable seeing flops is. I find myself overlimping and overcalling a ton with all kinds of robust equity hands since it rarely gets punished. Should stick to nittying it out


Kinda meh so far today:




Bankroll: 25$

Aight. that's better. Day finished good.






Bankroll: 35$

My rusty autopilot would make me crash at NL2... A bit lazy and demotivated today.







Bankroll: 41$

Day:



Full graph:





Going to play NL5 when i reach 100$ and give me... 5? buy-ins of margin.


I got 2$ from chests and I am pretty close to the 10$ rebate.


Bankroll: 66$

Today I tried to play 4 zoom tables + 4 regular. Probably not my best idea. Wanted to do way more hands but ended up going out. I'ts been months since the last time I saw my friends. Just got home and I am destroyed Tomorrow will be a hard day. worth it




got 1.50$ from chest



Bankroll: 72$

Hey mate, I have just gone through something very similar tilted my whole roll and now I'm finding my love and passion for the game again with some left over change I had in my account ($28). Looking forward to following this along mate.

First session went great finished +$46 so hopefully continues GL GL

Noice! what are you playing?

No comments.






Bankroll: 78$

Low volume again today. But for a better reason as I started working with the solver again.

Still trying to play 8 tables. 4 zoom 4 regular. Could have been my first losing day if not for KK>AA.





Bankroll: 80$

Late nigh session. Hopefully this is it for NL2. moving to NL5.

Full NL2 graph so far:




Got more moneis from chest and unlocked the 10$ rebate.


Bankroll: 101$

Some of today spews:


PokerStars - €0.05 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

Hero (BTN): 119 BB
SB: 100.2 BB
BB: 106.8 BB
UTG: 107 BB
MP: 100 BB
CO: 100 BB

SB posts SB 0.4 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.4 BB) Hero has 2 2

fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 3 BB, fold, BB calls 2 BB

Flop: (6.4 BB, 2 players) K K 8
BB checks, Hero checks

Turn: (6.4 BB, 2 players) A
BB checks, Hero bets 2 BB, BB raises to 6 BB, Hero raises to 20 BB, BB calls 14 BB

River: (46.4 BB, 2 players) Q
BB checks, Hero bets 96 BB and is all-in, BB calls 83.8 BB and is all-in

Hero shows 2 2 (Two Pair, Kings and Twos)
(Pre 47%, Flop 40%, Turn 9%)
BB shows Q T (Flush, Ace High)
(Pre 53%, Flop 60%, Turn 91%)
BB wins 201.2 BB





PokerStars - €0.05 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 239.8 BB
SB: 97 BB
BB: 18.2 BB
Hero (UTG): 128.8 BB
MP: 186.2 BB
CO: 213.8 BB

SB posts SB 0.4 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.4 BB) Hero has T J

Hero raises to 3 BB, MP calls 3 BB, fold, fold, fold, fold

Flop: (7.4 BB, 2 players) J A T
Hero bets 4.6 BB, MP calls 4.6 BB

Turn: (16.6 BB, 2 players) 6
Hero bets 10.6 BB, MP calls 10.6 BB

River: (37.8 BB, 2 players) J
Hero bets 11.8 BB, MP raises to 40.6 BB, Hero raises to 110.6 BB and is all-in, MP calls 70 BB

Hero shows T J (Full House, Jacks full of Tens)
(Pre 21%, Flop 1%, Turn 0%)
MP shows A A (Full House, Aces full of Jacks)
(Pre 79%, Flop 99%, Turn 100%)
MP wins 246 BB






Bankroll: 116$

Pretty unlucky overall. But also playing poorly.

I am playing too many tables for too long. I dont feel like it is too much at first given the strategy im playing but after a while I start to drift and autopilot hard. Going to keep the tables but start taking mandatory breaks evey hour of play and see how it goes.





Bankroll: 110$

Hello there !

I'm not a CG player but I find your thread interesting. I hope you'll keep grinding and I can't wait to see how far you will go. Do you have even a small goal like NL100 in 6 months or something like this in mind ?

I know what it is to grind very low stakes after years spent in a higher stake
Personnally I take my motivation overall in the fact to try to super-crush my field hehe. And daily, I keep out of my autopilot by listening to motivating music, mainly hiphop. Dunno if it can work for you but it's worth a shot in case you haven't yet.

A big GL to you !

Taking more breaks was a good idea. Focus improved and I was able to put more volume.





Got 5$ chest.


Bankroll: 145$

Hey! Thanks for the support

I just really don't like setting that type of goals. I guess long term the goal is to be living from poker or at least have it as proffitable side gig. In a couple of months i probably wont have the time to grind this hard, so who knows...

I've tried music while playing and it didn't work for me. I do use motivational hiphop while working out, I wish it had the same effect with poker

ok, I got you. One of the best advice a coach gave me was to have a simple and yet very effective goal for each session : to take the best decisions every hands you play. Maybe it's more fitting for you to take 1 minute before grinding and to think about the mindset you want to have. It can allow you to got high motivation and keep it that way through all the session.

About motivation you can try some hypnosis, I do some in my foreign language from times to times before a huge session or when I'm moving up the stakes. Basically I got an audio about 15 min long that was recorded by a mental coach who knows poker and through hypnosis he's putting me in a excellent mental condition (relaxed, very focus, detached from distractions...). By doing so I can bring my A-game at the very beginning of the session, so I'm taking the best decisions for every hands I play, and one of the effects is that it keeps my motivation very high. If you're interested you should google "erickson hypnosis" or "auto hypnosis" maybe.

Personnally I'm starting to grind again at low stakes by doing sometimes huge sessions (20hours and 15hours last week) and I'm taking breaks every hour. Basically I go outside and I walk while listening to music. A walking desk can do some wonders too. Well you got a lot of solutions to your problems If you really want to fix your issue you will do it !

I've read your HH, I'm amazed by your opponents haha. Can you say why you're using a solver at this level and with you being a former small winner 100NL/200NL ?

Very good luck !!!

My first session i ever played i won 2000 dollars with only betting 10 lol

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But seriously, brutal stuff today.




Bankroll: 85$

Tried to play but ended up taking day off pretty much.



back to NL2. Mad at myself for playing tilted yesterday.



this is Yesterday session separated by zoom and regular:





Going to stop playing zoom and actually get some time to play every hand as good as I can like don85 said.


Bankroll: 86$

Played a bit of everything today but sticking to only 4 tables. some NL5 too. Solid play, chilling, meh results.






Bankroll: 88$

More of the same. Solid play. meh results. But thats all I care about atm.

NL2,NL5




check out this hand:

PokerStars - €0.02 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 214 BB
SB: 124 BB
BB: 547 BB
UTG: 420.5 BB
Hero (MP): 112.5 BB
CO: 94 BB

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has 3 9

UTG calls 1 BB, fold, fold, fold, fold, BB raises to 11 BB, UTG calls 10 BB

Flop: (22.5 BB, 2 players) 5 Q T
BB bets 21 BB, UTG calls 21 BB

Turn: (64.5 BB, 2 players) 9
BB bets 60.5 BB, UTG calls 60.5 BB

River: (185.5 BB, 2 players) J
BB bets 454.5 BB and is all-in, UTG calls 328 BB and is all-in

BB shows J 8 (Straight, Queen High)
(Pre 35%, Flop 23%, Turn 79%)
UTG shows T A (One Pair, Tens)
(Pre 65%, Flop 77%, Turn 21%)
BB wins 829 BB



Bankroll: 95$

Low volume...

NL5




Bankroll: 103$