Don't even know if this is the right forum for this ...
I'm in for my fourth buy-in in my normal lol $40 fixed buy-in 1/2 NL game. I'm UTG with black jacks. I raise 5X. I'm nitty tight but the players are so bad I still always get action. Folded to BB who calls. Hmmm ... what's this - not much action.
BB has been at the table for about 20 minutes. He seems very weak. Fit or fold type.
Flop comes AK7
He checks, I bet $10 into a $17 pot. He calls.
Turn is 8
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He checks, I check behind.
River is 2
putting 4 to a flush on board.
He checks, I check behind.
He shows AJ (no heart). I muck, pick-up and leave.
Right away I was annoyed with myself. WTF?!? Why didn't I bet the river? Why didn't I have a plan when I checked the turn? Why the **** do I play this game if I'm just going to continue to play bad? F - F - F!
I know I understand the application of math to poker better than most. Why am I emotionally derailed all the ****ing time? This is a ****ing 1/2 $40 buy-in game ... I'm easily rolled to play much higher. And I'm an emotional wreck over a $40 buy-in game.
Should I just kick the bucket and stop playing? Should I only play when I've slept 9 hours two days in a row and feel like I'm at the top of my well-being?
WTF? I hate this game!