I don't think it's great to pursue a journey with too many thoughts from other people because you end up trying to align your own with expectation.

I've gone on several journeys into my mind and have many abstract things to share though I want to hold back until understanding the process better and others' trials.

From my journeys I've found underlying issues bubble to the surface until they are too awakening to continue deep relaxation. Many involve troubled relationships with others.

Beyond that it's my belief that my brain started reconnecting with my past. Memories seem to go to some sacred realm of the mind where they're stored and the foundation for your current self. I started unlocking some of this stuff and it was as if my current active brain cells were physically connecting with things of the past, or maybe even reverting back to an older state of chemistry.

I've found amphetamines and the kine bud seem to aid the journey.

At the peak of my travels I started visualizing emotions as actual 3+ dimensional beings. Once during a troubling session of poker I zoned out and imagined my unsettled state as a mountain I needed to pass by. It was far too large to climb, and the circumference was unknown and wondering how far wide I'd end up seemed like only a slightly better choice than climbing. But when I looked closer I found a hidden path that was a straight shot through the mountain to the other side. I passed through this path and exited out of the mountain, and then in the physical world I was much less tilted. Each time I closed my eyes to have another look at the mountain it grew smaller and smaller as I distanced myself from it. I found it symbolic of the memory of that specific emotion, that it would never fully leave me no matter how small it became.

I'm a scared artist, but many times leaving a meditation session I was compelled to draw and create pictures using words and sublimation.

I discovered the conclusion to the proof of life, one I'd been working on for 20 years, in a visualized object and was very scared that in my ubiquitous-analytic state I wouldn't be fully settled with the discovery, and that I had the choice to move on from the proof, or stay inside it potentially forever. It was like finding a piece of art that defined magnificence and choosing to look at it only for a few seconds.

I've shared much more than I'd originally hoped with this post. That's kind of how my mind works, my plans are loose and always changing.

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What types of experiences have you had? I don't like reading books but if you have some supernatural religious traditions from long ago I think that'd be fun to share! I was reading Jungleman's thread in SMP asking how to learn how to lean more effectively and a suggestion was meditation.

A few years ago I was having trouble sleeping because I was jacked up on caffeine. I was in that transpositional state between sleep and wakefulness, tossing and turning. Suddenly, I could perceive everything, as if all of the circulatory cosmic wiring was illuminated in an appreciation of light. If anything, it was existential cartography, as if the secret circuitry of the macrocosm was apparent and indivisible. I understood everything. Everything. I sat up in bed and tried to figure out what to do with it. But it was too big, too vast to record in a report or a drawing or a poem. Eventually, I just laid back down and shut my eyes. Truly, nothing to do there but go right back to sleep.

I'm sorry for the derail (well it's not THAT big of a derail) but IIRC there was a thread about this already with some very good book recommendations in it... Can anyone link that thread? I can't find it anymore...

Edit: Found it. http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/79...thread-144266/