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WTF,you're too young. This is nothing compared to what happens to others people.Be prepared man, live is not easy and sometimes is a b***h.Related to poker,try to work on your mental part and if you can't move down in stakes when you loose(you should be able to do this obviously), just use more buy'ins for the level you play(be a kind of a bankroll nit) and in this way the innevitable downswing will not affect you so much.Poker is not so easy as you thought, you can't win every single day, and all your life to be a party every day.You should work very hard to become a really good player.But, you're young and have all the time to do all those things. Start studying and grinding again at the stakes you feel comfortable and don't let the downswings to ruinate your life.Think about others nice things from your life, except poker.Hope that helps.
Thanks man. I did not stop poker, if I got to 109-310 I got some experience. I could not move down the stakes cause I needed money for a lot of things, could not lose time at low stakes, I took a necesary risk, I didn't except the downswing to be so big. Anyway it was a mistake not keeping a big bankroll, spending a lot of money, taking risks, etc. I was stupid and this downswing gave me a lot of experience. I am pleased with the fact that other big players did a lot biger mistakes when they were young or at the begining of their career. I will play with 100 buy ins minimum from now on, I always wanted everything to be certain not a carousell life like this.
I'm good with my mental, know these downswings are posible, 5% doese not mean 0%. I never played a hand wrong cause of tilt, I play like a robot whatever my mood or what drugs I'm on lol. The thing that helps me a lot in my poker career is that I have hyperthymic temperament. It means I am always happy, care-free, full of confidence, very active, need 3-6 hours of sleep per night, low chance of depression, etc. I also have hyperthymic crises witch are the best. It's like been on a line or half a line of amphetamines and you do not lose your ration like in bipolar disorder. As I said, a lot of time people ask me if I'm on speed. Even thow I have this, I still got depressed in a period this summer. They were not hard episodes, they were small and easy but I still got to have some so imagine how bad this thing got me.
I'll do my best at poker, I have to get back to high stakes, pass the collage exam for witch I have to learn this year and get the driving lessons witch are very hard to get in my country, so a hard year. Today I have the chance to fix the things with my girlfriend, the thing I care most. Hope to do it, I'll tell u in 12 hours. Oh boy what a mess.
A thing that sux and people don't realise is that when you get used to a lifestyle and fix some goals and you miss them, even if you are still over most of the people you won't be happy. Ex: a guy want's a 10k car and gets it and another want's a 40k one but get a 25k... be sure the first will be more happy than the second.
Btw I'm romanian and I see u're nick is "ombladon", are you romanian too ?