Oh boy... I'm the guy that wrote "the life of a high roller" topic...
I sware that thing was not a joke, it was completly real.

I was on top of the world, got to have tons of money, got to be with the girl I loved like crazy for 1 year but couldn't be with her... lived the most beautifull moments of my life. I was so happy all the time that everybody asked me if I'm on amphetamines. It was like winning at the lotery every 5 minuts. I got to high stakes (109-310$), had a mega upswing and was playng verry little poker, about 15 sng a day, and had tons of money for my age and courner of the world I live in. All the day I was on drugs, partying, living romantic moments with my love, etc. Had about 1k a week on my card to spend and sometimes spend 3k in a weekend trip to bucharest. I was on top of the world, everything around me was a party. I was so happy that I felt something bad is going to happen, a car accident or something cause I didn't deserve all that, nobody in the world did.

Then summer came... and brought a mega downswing that acording to the
downswing simulater on this forum (congrat to the one that made it btw) it had a maximum 5% chance of happening in my career till then. I could not drop down the stakes and used all my loyality points to buy bonuses to stay there, hoping the downswing will fade. I needed money for a lot of things, could not afford to drop the stakes down. I played non stop from when I got up till when I got to bed for 2 months, 4-6 tables at once till the point I lost so much that I had money for 11$ sng's and had to make 1500$ in 9 days not to lose my vacation that I was waiting for 1,5 years with the girl I love. He didn't love me anymore in the summer cause of antidepressant. I made the money in 5 days at 11$, playng like a maniac and with a litle upswing. After I got back I continued to play like a maniac and still got downswing. I'm now at 22-33$ sngs. My hole summer was a nightmare and yesturday I just lost my love. I worked like a dog and lost everything I had, the girl I love, the money, everything at just 17 years old. (will get 18 very soon, please don't bother to ban me). Every day I thaught it could not get worse than this, and every week realised how great the week before was. I kept falling and falling and falling.


If u wana know how it is to have your life ruined, fall from the sky to the underground ask me.

Kind of a noob to the psychology forum, but this is where the action is.

antidepressants make the love go away. In the summer I was reffering to the last 3 months.

WTF,you're too young. This is nothing compared to what happens to others people.Be prepared man, live is not easy and sometimes is a b***h.Related to poker,try to work on your mental part and if you can't move down in stakes when you loose(you should be able to do this obviously), just use more buy'ins for the level you play(be a kind of a bankroll nit) and in this way the innevitable downswing will not affect you so much.Poker is not so easy as you thought, you can't win every single day, and all your life to be a party every day.You should work very hard to become a really good player.But, you're young and have all the time to do all those things. Start studying and grinding again at the stakes you feel comfortable and don't let the downswings to ruinate your life.Think about others nice things from your life, except poker.Hope that helps.

Thanks man. I did not stop poker, if I got to 109-310 I got some experience. I could not move down the stakes cause I needed money for a lot of things, could not lose time at low stakes, I took a necesary risk, I didn't except the downswing to be so big. Anyway it was a mistake not keeping a big bankroll, spending a lot of money, taking risks, etc. I was stupid and this downswing gave me a lot of experience. I am pleased with the fact that other big players did a lot biger mistakes when they were young or at the begining of their career. I will play with 100 buy ins minimum from now on, I always wanted everything to be certain not a carousell life like this.

I'm good with my mental, know these downswings are posible, 5% doese not mean 0%. I never played a hand wrong cause of tilt, I play like a robot whatever my mood or what drugs I'm on lol. The thing that helps me a lot in my poker career is that I have hyperthymic temperament. It means I am always happy, care-free, full of confidence, very active, need 3-6 hours of sleep per night, low chance of depression, etc. I also have hyperthymic crises witch are the best. It's like been on a line or half a line of amphetamines and you do not lose your ration like in bipolar disorder. As I said, a lot of time people ask me if I'm on speed. Even thow I have this, I still got depressed in a period this summer. They were not hard episodes, they were small and easy but I still got to have some so imagine how bad this thing got me.

I'll do my best at poker, I have to get back to high stakes, pass the collage exam for witch I have to learn this year and get the driving lessons witch are very hard to get in my country, so a hard year. Today I have the chance to fix the things with my girlfriend, the thing I care most. Hope to do it, I'll tell u in 12 hours. Oh boy what a mess.

A thing that sux and people don't realise is that when you get used to a lifestyle and fix some goals and you miss them, even if you are still over most of the people you won't be happy. Ex: a guy want's a 10k car and gets it and another want's a 40k one but get a 25k... be sure the first will be more happy than the second.


Btw I'm romanian and I see u're nick is "ombladon", are you romanian too ?

ygos ?


You're 18 and still have your whole life in front of you. Go to college, have fun and forget about poker.

I ment "she". Many times I say "he" instead of "she"

Poker is my future, can't forget about it. I am not the kind of guy that want's to get with his money in the grave but I don't deny their importance. Money means freedom, respect, power.

Poker isn't the only way to earn money and certainly not the easiest.

You might still think that it's a cool thing right now but you'll regret it later for sure. Don't waste your best years clicking buttons and go to college.


Having an education + playing poker aside > being a poker pro.

yup that's what I'm gona do but I need poker. It will be a lot better having 2-3 millions to invest after I finish my economics collage that it would be working for 1k a month maximum in a bank... not to mention it's hard to get hired here. It's not like in the us... to get 100k a year with a normal - good job.

I laughed a lot after reading my "high roll" topic )))) God I miss every second of those days

Where are you from ?

I don't live in the US so I might be wrong but I hardly doubt 100k a year is considered normal-good job. 100k/yr has to be a very good job.

Yes

100k/yr is something almost incredible to reach in a normal job in Roumania.you should feel like god if you win so much in a such country

hahahahahahahahaha... just can't help myself.

Omfg I'm high as hell. I was with my gf and managed to convince her to stay but things suck cause he doese not want that and it sux for me too. Hope the problem with depression and antidep will be fixed soon otherwise I don't know how much I can keep it that way. She's the most important thing in my life hope not to lose it like an idiot.

Back to poker baby, I'm so happy that I'll enjoy my lonely nights grinding like a slave.:X:XX:X:

we're still richer and more developed than 85% of the world all the f**ers been in the richer 15% die die die

Wasn't aware a normal job job in the US payed 100k/year. I'll have to tell my dozens of other recent college grad US friends that are all unemployed what we are missing.