now I'm lucid again. About that sharkscope things, why doese it happen ? Doese it happen only on party poker ? All the regulars I asked about it on party said they have the same problem. I read on 2+2 that they upload only a part of party sng's but that doese not explain how it can things like I rolled 24k in tournaments when I rollerd only about 3k or been on the minus with my sng's when I never put a penny into the site and withdraw 30-40k minimum

@ombladon and pokerfish_ro:

Do you guys know any big romanian sng player ? On party there is no romanian sng regular except me and I looked at high stakes on stars and tilt and there are no romanians there. So... as broke as I am... that makes me the biggest romanians sng player ? Pokerfish ur from hodem.ro but I got baned there and don't read it anymore, are there any big romanian sng players there ? Never saw any. I know it means nothing, there are hundreds of bigger cash and tournament players in ro but it would be nice to know that I'm the biggest sng player.

There was just one bigger one, a friend that moved to cash, "andreinit" on party.

It kinda sux not to know any bigger sng players to discuss hands to since andreinit moved to cash.

You're just so sick

I think it would be party-pokers fault, because my stats for sngs with pokerstars are dead on with my personal records.

Really man, am I the biggest romanian SNG player ? There are no high stakes sng romanian players on party, stars and tilt. Didn't cherk ipoker but small chances to find some there. So... AM I REALLY THE BIGGEST SNG PLAYER IN 23 MILION ROMANIANS HERE ??? WTF ARE YOU WAITING FOR MAN ???? Rise some money and give me a gold crown with tones of gold on it and "SNG" wrote big in the middle. I must be on tv man. There was Nadia, Hagi, etc. and now it's me Those romanian freerollers for 5 yeras and counting must have an example. (rise myself up from freerolls btw) And for the cash, tournament and live romanian players counting their millions right now... you know what u have to do - die, die and die for sure, at least be invisible.

I wana start my own religious cult, I want people to stay on their knees around my unconfortable office chair that gives me back pain when I play sng's and just be amased at how I master the art of bubble play.

Yea baby you know what this post mean. I'm in a little upswing and my hyperthymic temperament says his word.

@ombladon and pokerfish: PITURCA SINGED WITH CRAIOVA !!!! Btw piturca, beside coaching is also a business man and a very good poker player. He plays cash on hundred thousains buy in in bucharest with big ro poker stars like Tony Judet. He also is a casino card cheater. Before been the national team coach he was caught cheating at a casino in bucharest with a camera in his ciggarete box - the video is long and is avaliable on the net.

OK, time to ban him again..

+1
Winner!

i lost $22.5k in sports betting to a local gambling house before i was 22 years old. your life isn't ruined, son

dayum.

broke up with her today. Classic case with girl on antidepressants. It was nice.. not with argues and stupid things.. cried a lot into her ardms and did it like something necesary. It's better that way for a period cause he can't stand me now, that's what is recomanded...

Ok now is anybody there that got a gun and wana do me a favour so I won't do it myself and go to hell ?

your life is runied? Lol, live for a ~20 years

Ok guys transfer 100k to my account or at least kill me. You need balls too big to do this alone. Imagine the publicity this forum will get if it gets on the like that girl on facebook.

Today I did something stupid. I just touched that point in witch a gambles simply doese not care about the money and is willing to bet anything in that moment withaugh care. Haven't reach that point in a very long time but did it today. Played high stakes underoled and lost a lot but managed to get back on break even. Oh boy at least I didn't play casino games.

Tomorow I'm going to rob a bank and am very excited about it, wish me luck. If they try to catch me I'll fight to the death.

Nop, I thaught a bit about it and it's too complicated to rob a bank, so I'll just blow my head into pieces with dxm. Yea baby 2000mg str8 into "plateaus 4" or why not 5000mg str8 into heaven ? Imagine that, the first dexter ever to die of overdose. At least I'll make my "drug of choice" a favour and give the police a reason to classify it as scheldule 1 and get some respect from the ignorants that say it's the drug of the poor or that only 8th graders take it.

Now the big question at this moment remeins: Should I order a pizza ? It would be a good idea cause I love pizza but I could fall asleep and don't want to eat it after, not to mention I'll be awaken from sleep by the pizza boy. Hmmm big dilema. Nop, I'm gona smoke a ciggaret and then meditate to get intro astral projection and talk with some more evolved spirits to find out if I did good when I decided not to order the pizza.

WTF get help op.

Lay off the dopamine. You're juicing yourself too much. I'm no expert, but it's almost as if you're addicted to your emotions.

I can't stand it anymore. My lover is a monster, the worst monster you can find. I'm sure it would be a lot easyer to love the devil.

You can not imagine how it is, you simply can't belive someone can act like that to any living creature in the world the way she doese with me. If I would donate her a kidney next thing I'll hear would be "ok now get the f out I wana talk with somebody on the phone, you are boring me and oh, I don't give a f about ur kidney or ur love or any of ur ***** boring bullsh*t". She is the devil in person, you simply can't imagine how she is.

The antidepressants made her like this and don't know how long it will take till she'll come back to normal. It's and incredible pain to see the girl you love so much been the devil in every litle bitzy thing she can do to you. She will surprise you with every word or action that she will make, surprise you that you could not even think of the posibility of somewone been such a devil.

I would gladly put some examples here but there are infinite and everyone of them is so incredible you will think it was invented but not by me, but by the most talented and sadistic writer in the world. I can not take this anymore. I do my best to be nice and resist all this.

you're going through a phase, get back on track doing what is right. keep donking and bitching and one day you'll wish youd go back to right now where your life is "ruined"

How the F did I get all this mess ??? I always amase myself how nice I can be with everyone even in this given situation and how much punches in the face I can get.

I don't even have anyone I can blame, like everybody doese. It's not her fault, the antidepressives made her like that and read hundreds of stories like that on the net. Can't blame luck for the 5% chance downswing that hit me just when I needed it less cause I could not even be in poker in the first place. Can't blame god, he gave me all I asked with tons of surplus: love and money and will probably give them back in a couple of months and he also gave me the biggest gift somebody can have - hyperthymic temperament. I am imune to depression and not even once thaught seriously about suicide, not even when I was on the top of my anger and have a lot of confidence and consider myself very lucky despide all these problems. When I'm bad, I still resist, when I'm good, I'm like on amphetamines. More domanie and serotonine in the brain. What better disorder could someone have ? And only 1% of the people out there have it. I don't even feel proud of the way I resist problems, downswings etc. cause I know all my succes is cause of this disorder. It's so frustrating suffering so much and having nothing to blame, just try to accept the idea.

Hope God apreciates how I'm strugling here and will pay me off with been a supernova elite on stars, regular at highes stakes sng's, traveling to live tournaments, studying at the economics collage in bucharest and the girl I love reccovered completly from depression and on my side. Anyway everybody has to deserve what he has. Better a life like this with a lot of potential for improvement than a boring fixed wage one stuck in a forever-going routine.

ahh sorry to hear all that but it reinforces the advice that iv had, that no one should be too proud to drop down stakes when their bankroll is suffering a pounding

Stop taking hardcore drugs while playing.
You say a 5% chance of this downswing happen, but I've seen people hit 1 outers. **** happens.

Were you playing while doing drugs when this downswing happened? Honestly.
I'm not saying I learn from every single hand I lose, but I can almost always point into a small downward dent in my graph and be honest enough with myself to take responsibility for most of the causes. That's part of why I think I'm way ahead of my average opponent. Also partially why I have such a smooth graph.
Technical skills are nothing without the ability to evaluate yourself... luck plays a smaller role than most players think in my opinion.

Nop, did not play on drugs when the downswing happened cause I had not time, I played non stop from when I woke up till I got back to sleep. There was no problem from stoping me play my A game and my A game should have a 5% roi at 109-210$ and then 55$, stakes I played doring the downswing. I evaluated everything that could be evaluated, it was just downswing that had a 5% chance of happening till that point in my career and I accept that... I also had a big upswing in my career, when I moved to 109-210 that alowed me to be on top of the world and hook up with this girl I cried for a year etc. long story. S**t happenes I even played from night to afternood and slept in the prime time to avoid the regulars witch, here on party, are 7-9 at a table in prime time at 55+ I did everything to rise my equity but it was just a downswing - nothing to do. Only bad thing was not lower the stakes cause I needed money, I took a necesary risk. Anyway I needed that, now I'm a lot better in every aspect of poker.

Oh and by the way, I also lost my best buddy, friends from when we were 5 years old - he got inferiority complex and hates me, he sometimes had crisis that were so embaresing that made me feel emberased not at all flatter me. I was also a douche and continued to be nice but in the way that made him suffer most, been nice could be the most painfull thing if u do it right. Anyway wtf was I suposed to do if he did everything to sabotaje me, tell bad things about me at home all the time after my back etc. Really sux and found out about the inferiority complex from research only after he already did all the things a back stabber you've always been nice to would do worse than in the movies.

Anyway he is my last concern now but just thaught on mentioning it.

I'm also in a little 20BB downswing today. Bring me more problems baby I'm courious what could come next. Hahahah can't wait for the tomorrow earthquake/flood/nuclear atack or what the F could come

I think it is almost impossible for anyone to play 100% A-game from the moment they wake up to the moment they go to bed.

I think you should definitely sprinkle in some breaks, other-wise you really aren't going to have a perspective on what you are doing at the table if you have no time to contemplate hands won+lost, interesting hands, etc.
Also, our brains need a break sometimes for a fresh perspective. I would recommend at least 1 day a week off from poker although I find it hard to take an entire day off once a week, it is beneficial.

well I exagerated a bit ... of course I have breaks but must of the days just stay home and grind with 1 hour break from time to time watching tv and some days go out but not stay too much. I never play if I sens that I am too tired, bored, not in the mood, etc, to play my A game. I'm like a robot, like the other grinders and mood doese not change me to much, probably not at all.

Ubdate: managed to finish on 9bb down. Time for sleep. Can't wait to see what woulderfull things will happen tomorow.

I'm not going to try to say that I know how you feel on such a level but I am currently in a downswing - or maybe I just have too many leaks in my game.
Try to focus on other aspects of your life and I think that if your girlfriend leaves you then you don't really need a girl as shallow as that.
Just trying to help

I can not blame her, it's cause of the antidepressants. I love her like crazy for 2 years and never enjoied it like with a normal girl cause he was depressed and now on antidep. I cried and tried 1 year to convince her till we finally hook up. I just can't take it anymore and I can't leave her.

If it wasn't for that antidep and she was like that from the begining I would never even look at her and if someone would make me suffer that much withaught a very good excuse I would just pay someone to destroy all his teeths, cut her 10 times on the face and break all his bones. A thing like that cost maximum 500$ where I live, know a lot of guys who will do it and I would have absolutaly no problem with the police cause of very high connections. And guess what ? I'll do that again and again and again for about 3-5 times minimum. No joking.

I can not describe how much this girl made me suffer. Only in movies u see guys taking so much b***it cause of love. In real life they just broke up for 0.01 of this. I just hope in 3 months I'll fix all the things.

I started meditating for astral projection last night. It's the best thing I can do to keep myself together. I felt better today and somehow more disconected althow I had some strage and interesting dreams of her cause of meditation but felt good, not nostalgic when I woke up.

Trained 4-5 months for astral projection 1 year ago, managed to astral project 3 times and had an etheric projection (witch was unimaginable overwhealming) and was progresing really good. I also had about 7 sleep paralisis episodes during my last 1,5 years witch were interesting. Started astral projection some time ago but didn't manage to get to the same level again. Now I've started them again and hope to get at a very high level and manage to astral project every night.

I sugest you all start doing this s**t, it really works. You will feel better in every aspect and it's cool to travel through the world talk with entities, go everywere you want and see things that are real etc. If you don't manage to do it at least you will fall asleep in 5-10 minutes and time is money. You just have to lay in bed and thing of nothing before you go to sleep. Google it.