I found a way to pay rent with some temporary part-time job I don't wanna talk about (no, not G4P nor dealing drugs, just a normal job). That's all I'll say about that topic.
Other than that, since mid-September I've significantly increased my poker volume, decreased my girls chasing volume and got back with my ex (now GF again).
I've had major leaks that I've fixed throughout the past 4 months. But I believe even with those major leaks I had at least a small edge all along in the games I play and that downswing has been the worst runbad I've ever experienced. I wish upon no one the amount of setups I've endured within those 200 grind hours and if I was k2d I could've written a hundred posts ITT ranting about them. Let's hope it only goes up from here. I'm confident October is gonna be my best month so far, if not results-wise then volume-wise and quality-of-play-wise.
I stopped chasing girls for the most part, haven't handed out a single note in like 3 weeks but I'm still determined to bang or maybe even wife up the 'girl I thought had a 2 year boyfriend' I've mentioned many times before - let's call her Jenny from now - and I'm back at using Tinder 10 minutes a day. I wanna see what's out there (outside of my relationship), but the more other girls I'm encountering the more I'm realizing my GF might be very good long term material. She's supportive of anything I do including poker, doesn't mind I'm broke, is extremely kind and loving, cleans my place, we split the bill or she even pays most of our dates if I'm broke (she wants to go out on dates even if I'm broke and she wants to pay them) and is hotter than 98% of girls I see in Pasig (not as hot as Jenny though). Unfortunately our conversations are the most superficial imagineable because of our cultural or educational differences which gets boring long term (Jenny seems more intelligent and westernized) and her bed performance is back to the exact same level as pre-breakup: starfish sex with one complain every 5 minutes such as "Not so deep, it hurts", "Not that position, it hurts", "Are you cumming soon?" or "I need you to cum" [meaning 'Hurry up' because she's tired (from doing nothing)]. And most weekends no blowjobs and if she tries it's awful like she isn't even trying as I went into detail earlier ITT. We do bang twice a day but it isn't very satisfying.
Last week I met an average looking 18 year old virgin from Tinder that gave me a BJ at my condo. She drove 90 minutes from Paranaque to Pasig just to meet me and 90 minutes back. She had a nice body and ok face except for her smile, but that gummy smile of hers turns her from a 6 into a 4. Her smile looks like this which seems kinda common in the Philippines for some reason. Literally half or even 55% of her smile is gum, wtf?
She wants to save her virginity for a boyfriend because she says she knows she'll probably get very attached if she has her first sex. Before we met she asked me to promise we won't have sex 'even if she can't control herself' (lol, as if I'd say 'No'). I promised it but didn't keep my promise at all, during the BJ I got her naked and made many attempts to bang but she resisted asking 'What are you doing, are you my boyfriend? If not we won't have sex', so I stopped. I couldn't bring myself to lie and say 'Yes, I'm gonna be your BF' just to bang her. I'm bad, but not THAT bad. She finished the BJ with CIM and did an ok job.
Virgin blowjob girl:
Girlfriend:
Food gf paid on our date in Megamall last week: