He deleted the youtube video also, but i don't want to talk about what was here/there that much because he probably feels embarrassed. Even though there is no need to feel like that
Info Shove I want to apologize if my comment seemed to be harsh. And i think other guys had good intentions also.
Deleting posts and avoiding some real talk, even if it hurts doesn't solve anything. It just worsen the situation and you really doesn't need to feel embarrassed.
It takes a man to be honest about his situation as you were. And some balls to face reality, take feedback and do something about it. You definitely took first steps.
I wish you good luck and i hope you will be crushing life. This situation is only temporary and easily solvable.