I found my sadness barometer here :
https://youtu.be/SOUVuviI3pM
I think when I can make it through this song without crying, I will be over it. Currently I cant hear more than 4 bars.
People seem to think I'm doing ok as they have stated that I seem to be handling it well. Maybe they forgot that I'm on the highest recommended dose of mood stabilizer? Idk.
Hoping to lift in the driveway this morning. Short road trip this afternoon to Worcester county to see some old friends.
https://youtu.be/ohOtDA3dTAA
I have until Tuesday to basically go wherever the wind takes me. Might adventure west tomorrow. I might need to see some mountains. Something bigger than me. Something significant that can make me remember that I am but a man flying through space on a big rock. Right now I'm much more self centered than that. I'm aware of my insignificance, yet this is most definitely a major turning point for me. So I gotta take it seriously. Just because we are small and temporary, doesn't mean we dont matter. In fact, since we're all born of stardust, and will all be stardust again someday, every particle in our being is significant, however small on a relative scale. Me you yo mama and yo cousin too.
So yeah. Mountains sound awesome. Natures eye candy.