11/19
previous: 198.5
200.3 200.0 198.5 199.7 198.0 199.9 199.0
weight:
197.1
Obviously did not do very well. Polished off a whole box of graham crackers with milk while watching TV. Even worse is there are clearly way tastier things to dump that obscene number of calories on.
I guess like everytime i **** up and try to spin it as a positive there are a couple take aways that make me feel good. First, I've noticed i'm more likely to do something stupid like this on a day where I post a weight that is well under the max. I think I let off any discipline I do have because I know I have the room to **** up. So hopefully I stay more aware of that in the future. That is disconcerting tho because it's just my normal old habits shining through, which means when im done with this thats likely what I'll end up going back to, so nothing has changed.
That is not entirely true tho, because the second thing I realized is that, after I was done eating, my reaction was "****, now I have to go make myself workout". Which is my typical thing in the past, but I realized its been a long time since I either worked out when I hadnt planned on it because I ate too much, or was working out specifically so I could eat too much later. That made me feel pretty good, that my workouts lately have all been because I'm either enjoying my training program or just having fun riding bike. So I think that is a healthy change, so I decided that I was going to do what I planned and not work out, which made me feel pretty good.
so yeah, long word vomit, but I ****ed up, I'm not beating myself up over it, and I still feel like I'm on the right path overall and am just going to continue going forward.