this for sure. cardio is the nut low as far as i'm concerned when it comes to treadmills, elliptical and whatnot. thank god for basketball. i'd still play if it made me fat. and tbh the foot and knee issues that have come with it are prob long term not a great thing. but you'll never stick with cardio unless you find something you actually enjoy.

Well?

Hello MLYLT,

I just lurk your thread but I follow along. I experience similar mental illness problems as you.

Anyway, I saw this and thought maybe it would help you like it helped me.



Also, just my feedback... I take meds too. I've seen periods where you went off. Please stay on your meds. It can take weeks or months for the meds to successfully balance the chemical imbalance in your brain. But for that to happen, you have to stay on the meds

Good luck. I'm rooting for you.

Thanks Busto

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M,

So did you eat a quarter of that chicken and waffles apatiser or all of it?

Busto,

David Foster Wallace should inspire everyone to stay on their meds. Cliffs: With a doctor's help, he switched his med, it failed, and when he went back to the first med, it didn't work at all. The rest is too sad for words.

edit: On a less somber note, I just fulfilled Jimmy V's third component for a wonderful day.

I/2 of it

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lol it's impossible to read your food stories and not think you're 100% making things up. Where did that "I/2" come from?

So it's been a crazy emotional up and down weekend.
Code3 ended up coming for the weekend, everything was going great, he went to the baseball games, he was being caring and affectionate. Then he was going to help me put together my new bed. When he moved the existing bed, he found an old condom wrapper. He asked what it was and I said I dunno, I guess from December when we broke up. He shoved me off of him and stormed out. He is convinced that I have recently cheated on him because he looked under the bed before and didn't see it eyeroll. I explained to him that I have been with him litterally every weekend and have no time to be sexing other people. Now he's saying that I had sex with someone else in our bed where we say goodnight to each other and that we love each other. This is insane! He broke up with me, he told me he didn't want me and to never come back to his apartment and now he's mad that I slept with someone else after he did that. I just don't know what to think. I feel like I have done absolutely nothing wrong and he is trying to make me feel guilty. If you don't want your girlfriend to have sex with other people, don't break up with her you idiot! You can't push me away and tell me you don't want me and then expect that I won't be with anyone else. And he says I really didn't love him because I slept with someone after he broke up with me. This mother****er actually has the nerve to question my love for him....Uggh!

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The apatizer is two small waffles with two chicken tenders. I ate a waffle and tender.

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Didn't you catch him banging hookers? This relationship is swongy

Yes, he met a hooker in a hotel when we were together. The nerve he has to even be mad about this is just crazy.

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I think he was looking for an out to leave me and not feel guilty because he knows how much I love him, and he thinks he found it. If he can blame me for the relationship failing in his mind then he doesn't have to feel like he failed and was at fault.

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M,

I thought you said you and code had an open relationship?

He's mad that you weren't honest. Noone likes a fibber.

We weren't together. He dumped me. We weren't talking. He wouldn't respond to me or answer my calls. How was I deceptive and lied?

No.We were open sexually to do things with other people together, but neither of us was okay with the other going and sleeping with someone else alone.

You told him the condom was his / played the *amnesia* card?

It doesn't matter if he is wrong, as long as he can feel in his mind that did him wrong the relationship will be over. This is what he has wanted all along, he doesn't want me but doesn't want to admit it to himself.

MLYLT,

Just to be clear, this condom wrapper is from the guy you had sex with when you two were broken up, and with whom you had a couple hour long hugfest a few days ago when you wanted to make code jealous?

How many times have you guys broken up now? Maybe a sign it's just not working out. Maybe.

You had an "old" condom wrapper under your bed?

I told him it was from December when we were broken up. He and I don't use condoms.

We broke up once this past December and apparently now we are broken up.